Chapter 5
"So.." Emma repeated the feral words. Shalimar could tell by the tone in her voice that she was uncomfortable.
"If your uncomfortable Em, we don't have to do this now." She told the psionic. Emma looked up and met the ferals gaze. She suddenly realised that it was Shalimar who she was talking to, there was no reason to feel uncomfortable. She smiled sweetly over at the blonde and patted the space next to her.
"No, come sit. I wanna know." The words, aswell as her smile, reasured Shalimar and she walked over to sit on the side of the bed.
"Where do you want me to start?" Shalimar asked.
"The beginning would be a good idea." Emma chuckled softly. "How did we get together?"
Shalimar smiled at the memory, " I came to see you at work and got angry and jealous of someone flirting with you, I broke his hand and you sent me home angry with me. When you got back we had a small argument and you went into the bedroom. I came in, kissed you, then you started asking questions, then you kissed me back..."
"That's kinda sweet actually." Emma said laughing softly. "So what happened after I kissed you back?"
"We..um..you..we had. um." The feral began to stutter not knowing how to phrase the words.
"We had sex?" Emma voiced her guess. Shalimar turned to look at her slightly shocked.
"To put it bluntly yeah." Shalimar began to laugh.
Shalimar then began to tell her all the important parts of their relationship, the highs and lows. When she had finished both women sat in silence for a while, lost in their own thoughts.
"Thank you for being honest with me... I'm sorry that I hurt you like that." Emma offered.
Shalimar weakly smiled at her and shrugged her shoulders. "Em there's something else I need to tell. It has nothing to do with our relationship but I need you to know."
Emma could sense the guilt and regret coming off of the feral in waves. The emotions made her swallow hard and she choked out, "What is it?"
Shalimar turned her gaze away from the psionic once again, "After Adam died I hurt you... physically. Once I realised what I had done I felt...god I can't even explain what I felt...ashamed, anger at myself for what I had done..."
"What did you do?" Emma cut in, her voice surprisingly calm.
"I strangled you. It all happened so fast, one minute you were shouting at me and the next you were gasping for breath at my feet. That's what made me leave Mutant X." Shalimar turned to face Emma and both women were surprised to find the other crying. Shalimar reached across and began to wipe away the tears from Emma's cheek.
"Why are you crying?" She spoke softly.
"Same reason as you are. I can feel your pain." Emma sniffled her reply.
"I was so messed up. I swear I never ment to hurt you." Shalimar said, cupping Emma cheek.
Emma placed her hand on top of Shalimar's then pulled her to her. She carefully leaned the feral's head against her chest and stroked her hair as the feral sobbed. "I know." She whispered softly.
And she did know. She could feel everything that the feral was feeling. All the hurt and regret, anger, sadness. She didn't know how to react when she felt a very strong feeling of love. Does she still love me? She wondered over and over again until she fell asleep, Shalimar wrapped in her arms.