Chapter 10

Two days later, Teagan and Jesse were back at Sanctuary along with their healthy molecular baby boy. They had yet to pick a name for him though, not being able to agree. Emma and Shalimar were getting along fine, except that Shalimar refused to talk about the other night. Emma had given up trying after the first day. The only reason Emma could think of was that maybe Shalimar didn't want to be with her anymore, that she had begun to move on.

Their thought's were practically the same, but each came out with a different conclusion. Both women thought that the other didn't want anything more than that night together. Shalimar thought that Emma had wanted only that one night where as Emma thought Shalimar had slept with her to try and move on.

Today everyone in Sanctuary seemed to be depressed. Their was good reason for it though; today would have been Adam's birthday. Emma, Shalimar, Jesse and Brennan had all went together to pay their respects to him. Once they got back to Sanctuary they all went their seperate ways, brooding by themselves.

Jesse walked into the bedroom that he shared with Tegan and his un-named son. Talking for a while they finally agreed on a name. Gathering everyone in the living room, he proudly introduced them.

"Guys, we've finally picked a name." Jesse told the rest of his family. "A.J Kilmartin."

Shalimar smiled liking the name, "A.J" She repeated.

"Yeah, Adam Jesse Kilmartin." Everyone smiled at the name.

"How about we get a takeaway, have a few drinks and celebrate both Adam's?" Brennan suggested. After everyone agreed Brennan went out to get their stuff.

"I'm going to change into something more comfortable." Emma said standing up and leaving the room. Shalimar watched her go, she wanted to asked the redhead something and now seemed like a good time. Excusing herself, she followed Emma and caught up with her just before she got to her room.

Emma turned to looked at the feral and smiled at her, "Come to help me change?" She teased.

Shalimar began to blush, "Ha, um , no, actually I wanted to ask you something."

Emma walked into her bedroom and Shalimar followed her in. "What is it that you wanted?" Emma asked.

"I was wondering if you could try get a hit from that photo, that's if you don't mind. It's just that I want..no I need to know how you felt about me. I know it sounds stupid but it's driving me crazy." Shalimar told her.

"Of course, but did you bring the photo from the appartment. I haven't seen it."

"Yeah it's in that bag I packed."

Emma walked over to her bed and pulled the bag from underneath. Sitting down on the bed, she slowly reached in pulling the photo out. Once again as soon as she touched the photo she was hit with emotions, only this time there was only one single emotion; fear.

She knew what that fear meant; fear of falling in love because she feared getting hurt.

She turned and looked at Shalimar sadly. No words needed to be spoken, Emma's look said it all.

"I guess it doesn't really matter now does it?" Shalimar said sadly. Dropping her head she turned and began to walk out of the room.

Emma looked at Shalimar retreating form, "Does it matter that I'm falling in love with you now?" She said it so quietly that Shalimar thought she had misheard.

She spun back round, "What!" She exclaimed.

Emma stood up from her bed, "This isn't about trying to make up for what I did or to get my past back Shal. I've accepted the fact that I probably won't get it back and you know what, I'm glad. I don't want to be some cold heated bitch like I was then. I want to be me now, Emma Delauro who's falling in love with her best friend." Emma said nearing tears towards the end of her confession.

Shalimar smiled, trying to fight back tears of happiness. She walked over to Emma and both women smiled at each other stupidly.

"I love you." Shalimar told Emma. Emma nodded, "I know." With that she grabbed Shalimar around the waist and pulled her in for a kiss.

Shalimar pulled back after a while, "We should really get back to the others."

Emma pouted, "I'd much rather stay here." She said before pulling Shalimar back to her. Shalimar moaned into the kiss and felt herself being pulled towards the bed by Emma.

Shalimar pulled back once again, causing a whimper to come from Emma. "What is it now?" She teasingly asked.

"I wanna wait, take things slow." She told Emma, who looked at her confused.

"Shal, we've alreadybeen inimate." She pointed out.

Shalimar thought about it for a few seconds, "I suppose." She said pushing Emma back to the bed and lying on top of her. Their mouths met once again.

"Shal, Emma. Brennan's back." They heard Jesse shout down the hall.

Both women looked at the door and groaned. Shalimar stood up and offered Emma her hand. "We'll finish this later." She promised the psionic.