by Jasmine Starlight
Disclaimer: Reach out and touch faith. Your own personal Jesus. Someone to hear your prayers. Someone who cares. Your own personal Jesus someone to hear your prayers. Someone who's there. Reach out and touch faith. Flesh and bone by the telephone. Lift up the receiver I'll make you a believer.
Marilyn Manson…………..
Morbidly depressing…………………..! TT
Shameless Plug: Read A Trial Separation, A Yuy Daughter, The Element's Intervention, Breaking The Band, Youth Lost Is Never Forgotten and if you're really a masochist read Things Change. :D
CHAPTER NINE
AFTERMATH
After that horrible day or rather night I refused to listen to anyone talk about Seamus, not even when Lita, of all people came, to his defense.
For the next few days, it was the Twilight Zone reruns for me.
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I ignored the odd looks I received from my friends as I slid into my seat, wearing dark cargo pants and a shirt that read "I have kidnapped myself, give me 1,000,000,000 or you'll never see me again.", the dark lipstick and pale makeup didn't really help either.
Pulling out my CD player, a Perfect Circle blaring from the headphones.
"Um, Mina?" asked Hotaru nervously.
"Yes?" I said looking up.
"Are you alright?" she asked concernedly.
"I'm fine, nothing's wrong," then as an afterthought, "nothing's ever wrong." I muttered to myself forsakenly.
The moment that I step outside
So many reasons
For me to run and hide
I can't do the little things
I hold so dear
'Cause it's all those little things
That I fear
'Cause I'm just a girl.
I'd rather not be
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This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud.
Seamus sighed as he dragged himself through the day's classes.
Dean and Harry exchanged worried looks at Seamus' half-hearted attempts at moving on.
Dry your eye
Soulmate dry your eye
Dry your eye
Soulmate dry your eye
Cause soulmates never die
Your memory will fade
I didn't mean it
you've always had it made
I didn't mean it
I know you feel betrayed
I didn't mean itI just wanted to get laid
I didn't mean it
Harry frowned as he watched Seamus drag himself along, closing his locker he made his way over to aforementioned desolate companion, before he could cross the wave of students, the bell rang and suddenly the halls were deserted, Harry felt something land by his feet, bending down to pick it up, he found a floppy disk, he saw Colin hurrying off to class, putting it in his back pocket absently, with the intention of returning it later, he hurried off to his classes.
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As he sat down at the lunch table next to Ami he was reminded of the disk in his back pocket when he sat on it, digging into his pocket he pulled it out.
"What's that?" asked Duo curiously.
"I think it's Colin's." he said placing it on the lunch table.
"Interesting." said Duo boredly. "Hey, why don't we find out what's on it?" he said absently.
"How?" asked Harry.
"Oi! Heero! Gimme your laptop!" shouted Duo.
The laptop came sliding down, with a post-it attached.
"IF YOU BREAK I WILL MAKE YOU PAY XXXXXX" read Ami aloud.
"Aww, that's so sweet Heero." cooed Duo.
There was an awkward silence after that, in which crickets were chirping, no that was just Duo.
"Chirp! Chirp! Chirp!"
"Stop!" shouted the entire table.
"Alright, I'll stop." said Duo as he opened the laptop up and slid the disk in.
Clicking on the icon that read "Pix4" he waited for it to load.
"Should we be doing this? It is Colin's disk."
"He won't mind." said Duo breezily as a window popped up to reveal thumbnails of pictures.
Clicking on the first one, they waited for the full image to pop up.
It was the phony picture that Mina had received.
"It was Colin?" asked Ami surprisedly.
"No Colin doesn't have a range of emotions that deep to create something like this on his own." said Harry speculatively.
"Heero!" came the wailing cry that they all dreaded.
"Relena." they said in unison.
"What about Relena?" asked Lita as she and Rei sat down at their table.
Duo pointed at the screen.
"Where did you get that?" asked Rei tightly.
"Found it." said Harry quietly.
"Isn't this good? This means that Mina and Seamus can get back together now that we have proof that the pictures were fake." said Lita optimistically.
"Now we just have to convince Seamus and Mina of that." said Rei tiredly.
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Seamus after being shown the proof of the pictures phoniness, was cheered up immeasurably.
"So she wasn't cheating on me?" he said excitedly.
Harry nodded, "But who would do that?" he asked curiously.
"We think it was Re" started Duo but was cut off as Rei and Lita shut him up.
"This is awesome! Did you tell Mina?" he asked enthusiastically
"No." Ami replied.
"Great! That means I can tell her!" he said before dashing off.
Then he returned and took the printout from Ami before dashing off once more.
"Why'd you stop me?" asked Duo.
"He doesn't need to know right now, if we told him he would tell Mina and then Mina would do an emotional 360 and start being incredibly angry at Relena and we don't need that right now." said Lita.
"Okay." Replied Duo, "I'm hungry." he announced a minute later.
"We just had lunch." said Harry incredulously.
"What's your point here?"
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The library was where Seamus found me, at a desk studying.
"Mina?"
"Yes?" I said coolly.
How does one broach a subject like this?
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
"About the pictures," he started.
"What about them?" I asked annoyedly.
"They're fake."
"Really?"
"Yes really." hereplied, unsure.
"Nice, joke Seamus." I saidbefore resuming her reading.
"Really! I have proof, look at this!" he exclaimed as he threw the pictures at me.
I sighed as I collected them into a neat pile and handed them back to Seamus.
"Aren't you even going to look at them?" he asked indignantly.
"Even, if they are real, don't you think that we were forced apart too easily?"
"What're you trying to say?" he asked suspiciously
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem...
"What I am saying is that we broke up too easily."
"So?"
"Maybe it's a sign that we don't belong together." I said sadly.
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
"So you're saying that you don't want to be together because of some sign that no one else can see?" he said, his balled fists shaking.
"Seamus" I started.
"Don't. I don't want your excuses. I don't need them, I should have known from the beginning that this wouldn't pan out especially with a coward like you!" he said, his voice rising with every word.
"Excuse me?"
"You heard me." he said scathingly.
"You're the one who can't take rejection and you're calling me the coward?" I asked, my voice also rising in anger and pain.
How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid, I'm out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
"Funny, the thought of me not being able to take rejection, you're the one who jumped at the chance to get out of this relationship!" he exclaimed.
"What do you mean I jumped, you believed the pictures too!"
"So you admit their fake!" he practically bellowed at me.
"Yes I am! But if we get broken up over a small thing like this what's to say it won't happen again?" I asked my voice cracking.
Seamus just stood there and let his anger wash over him.
"No answer, huh?" I asked brokenly.
"Why? Not like you'll listen." he said defensively.
"What do you mean I won't listen?" I said as tears of sorrow and regret streamed down my face.
"Haven't you heard a word I've said? I want to make this work! Obviously you don't." he sneered.
"I think you haven't heard a word I've said Seamus." I replied darkly.
"No I think I've heard enough, I've had enough. Fuck you Mina, we're over. Have a nice life." He said as he stormed past me.
"That's funny, I thought we were already over." I muttered brokenly as he swept past.
END
Songs I used, My Chemical Romance, Not Okay.
Linkin Park
With You
Place For My Head
Crawling
Points Of Authority
Sugarcult
She's the Blade
Crying
Memory
Worst December
Fruits Basket
Opening Theme
D N Angel
Opening theme
Michelle Branch
Goodbye To You
Kelly Clarkson
Miss Independent
Evanescence
Haunted
Placebo
Bruise Pristine
Slackerbitch
Soulmates Never Die
No Doubt
I'm Just A Girl
Bon Jovi
It's My Life
Suntiger- AHHHH! You read my mind before I posted it! I am writing a SM/YYH crossover, changing the characters up and revamping it! I was going to post it today!
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NixiNox- I have stated the songs, I think I might have missed one or two, oh well, not like they're mine anyway.
Seishuku Shinimegami- I was slightly flattered yet slightly terrified by your review.
SaciNyoko- AAHHHH! I lost your fic, I must go find it! Eventually I hope to hurt Relena very very bad.
Jewels14- I can't eat Twizzlers.
Anonymous- The tattoo was nonexistent!
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