Diary of Ginny Weasley

Dear Diary,

You wont believe what I saw just now! I was following Harry again, like I do most nights since I found out that he sneaks out of his room every night to go walking around the school. Normally he just wonders for a bit , sometimes going outside and walking around the grounds, but tonight when I followed him down the corridor I felt something was different. Like he had some preplanned destination and I was a bit surprised when he headed down the hall where the door to the Room of Requirement is. I normally stay a good distance behind him so he wont see me, so it wasn't until later , after waiting for a while, and when I saw the bright flash of terrifying green light illuminate the hall that I tip-toed close enough to actually see him around the corner.

There he was, laying on the ground, kissing Draco Malfoy! I'm surprised I didn't scream at the sight, Merlin knows I wanted to, I guess I was too stunned. Why was he kissing him? I can't even begin to explain the horror I felt at seeing them like that. The only thing I could rationalize is that Malfoy had somehow bewitched my Harry. I watched them for a while, until after they disappeared into the Room of Requirement, Harry looked like he was hurt badly and I wanted to race out to face them both and try and get Harry away from the Slytherin demon but I had forgotten my wand! How stupid can I get!

I know that the one time Harry and I made love really meant nothing because we did it as friends who just needed physical comfort, that much I have accepted. He never came to me, he never asked me out, he's never really shown any real interest or affection towards me other than treating me like a sister. Other than that night that is. But still how could he want to kiss him! He's the one who raped Hermione. He is the one who was helping Umbridge all last year. They have been enemies since the day they met! This has to be some sort of mind game that Voldemort is playing with Harry. I know that Malfoy has to be working as a Death Eater, I know he just wants to get closer to Harry. To lead him into a trap or hurt him emotionally like they tried to do when they kidnapped Hermione.

I wont let him do it. I know that if this is a spell or a trap then Harry probably wont listen to me, and I know he would be furious if he were to find out that I was following him. I have to do something about this but I don't know what. I can't tell anyone else, they would hate Harry and think he betrayed them if they knew he was with Malfoy. Not that I can blame them. I feel my share of betrayal as well, but Harry is in a bad state right now and it's easy for anyone to take advantage of him. Some how I have got to show him how evil Malfoy really is. Then maybe I can get Harry to come back to us, to me.

Diary of Harry Potter

I woke with him in my arms today! Draco Malfoy was asleep in my arms! I had dreamed all night that what had happened the evening before had not been some illusion or cruel trick played by my mind and when I woke warm , comfortable, and more relaxed than I think I have ever been in my entire life I was pleasantly surprised. I opened my eyes to see him cuddled against my chest , his arm around me , and snoring lightly. I know if it were possible my heart would have melted. He looked so peaceful. His hair was cutely ruffled telling of the deeds of the night before.

I brushed my finger tips over his cheek and slowly he woke with small groan.
"Wake up …Draco…" I whispered very softly not wanting to startle him, but I did and he jumped a bit and his eyes snapped open to look at me in surprise. For a brief moment I feared he had forgotten everything that had happened but his eyes softened and he did not pull away from me. I felt his mild confusion as the memories of the night before returned to him followed by a sense of amazement, mild concern, and a touch of fear. He adverted his eyes from mine and rested his head on my chest.
"Are you alright?" I asked in the same whispering voice. He nodded lightly against me.

"I should get back." He said after a moment and in response I tightened my arms around him, I didn't want him to leave yet but I knew he was right, someone would be missing him soon.

He pulled away from me and slid slowly out of the bed he stopped for a minute as though he had forgotten that he was nude and was deciding weather or not to be embarresed or not. I had to admit that I had forgotten as well but I was not disappointed in my forgetfulness as I was allowed a moment to look over his body once more. It's so surprising to me how only seeing his body could arouse me, but it did. I watched him for a long time as he found his clothes by the fire place and began to pull them on.
"Are you going to be okay? " I asked after dragging my vision from his distracting body and forced myself out of bed. I heard a short intake of breath as I did so and I looked up to find him staring at me,
"what? " I asked in alarm.
"Nothing….I just didn't see you well…in the light last night…" he said under his breath and I could tell he was fighting back a blush. I found my pants on the floor by the side of the bed and slowly pulled them on.

"Yeah…I know what you mean…" I said after finding my shirt and moving over to him by the fire place. He was already fully dressed not counting shoes , when I pulled him into my arms. It was so easy to have him near such a warming and calming sensation of having him in my arms and I sighed in contentment as he rested his head against my shoulder.
"Harry…what…what are we? " He asked in a fearful and confused tone.
"What do you mean? "

"I…us …this right now….what are we? Lovers? Boy-friends? Enemies who happen to sleep together?"
"What do you want us to be? " I asked after thinking about his question. I didn't know what I wanted us to be, I had already confessed that I felt as though I was falling in love with him the night before, but what did that mean in relation to us being together I didn't know.

"I…I don't know. But…no one can know about this. " he looked up into my eyes seriously. "No one! If it gets back to my house then I am as good as dead. In fact I know I will be. "

"I know…I promise…I wont tell anyone." I said just as seriously planting a small kiss on his lips. "But what about…you being a death eater…are you…are you still going to do what they tell you do to."

He pulled away from me and turned his back to me, "I have to." He said in a cold tone after a minute. "Harry I have already failed him once, if I don't do what they want me to do then next time I wont be coming back. Which is why no one can know. "

I wanted to yell at him, tell him that I didn't want him working for him. To come over to my side and be with me, to help me but I knew it would be even more dangerous, and it would risk him losing his family. I didn't even know how he felt about me, how could I have asked him to give up his family for me?

"What do you propose we do then?" I asked sadly. He turned and looked at me.

"Anything you do, anything that happens between you and the Slytherins, anything I see in front of other Slyterins I have to write and tell my father."

"And…things they don't see…like last night?" I asked taking a step closer to him.

"I wont….I wouldn't…." he said shaking his head.

"It's okay…" I whispered once again pulling him into my arms, this time he wrapped his own around me and hugged me tightly.

"I have to go." He said suddenly then pulling away.

"When can I see you again?" I asked quickly. He stopped at the door.

"I don't know….we'll see.." he said before walking out the door. I sighed and finished dressing. What was I doing here? How had everything that happened last night happened! What on earth is going on? How can I have such strong feelings for a boy? I didn't even know sex with another boy was possible, well I guess I got proven wrong last night.
I didn't see Draco for the rest of today, it's late now and I wonder if I should sneak out of the tower again tonight and see if he is out doing the same, but last night I could have sworn I felt someone following me, I just hope no one saw anything.

Diary of Harry Potter

I did it! I actually did it! I didn't think I would ever get it but I did! It's so …for lack of a better word…COOL! Man, I don't think I could have gotten a better form if Merlin himself had chosen it for me! I don't know how I thought of it, or how I knew what it would be when I was with Mcgonogal this morning but some how this time when I close my eyes and thought about Draco. About the hunger he pulls forth from inside me that ravages my spirit and mind in a savage way I felt it, I felt my ani-magus form! Oh I have to go, I'll write more later.

(Later)

Why is it that every time I think things are starting to turn around and go in the right direction everything starts falling apart? I finally get closer to Draco in more ways than I had ever hoped for, I finally mastered my Ana-magus, and now this has to happen!

Today was Saturday, and it just happened to be a Hogsmead weekend , so I and half the school over third year went to the little village. I've always liked going there, it's like a small escape from the cold stone of the castle. I went with Ginny, Neville, Semus, Hermione, and Ron, though they really kept to themselves as they normally do, Luna met up with us later at the Three Broomsticks.

We went to all the shops and then went for a butter beer, all the while I was searching the groups of Hogwarts students for any sign of Draco, it had been almost three days since I had really seen him and spoken to him, I saw him yesterday in Potions but he was icy and rude the entire time so he must have thought he was being watched. (which makes me wonder if he knows Snape is a spy or not, better to keep that to myself I guess.) As we all sat back enjoying our drinks , Ginny talking to Neville about one of his plants from their class the day before, the group of Slytherins walked in the door. I felt my heart skip a beat as Draco's eyes looked over at our table but sighed mentally as he sneered in our direction and then followed his group to a free table.

I couldn't help but watch him through the crowd, and I was surprised to see Pansy Parkinson with her arms around him as she sat next to him. I felt a stab of jealousy but I knew there was nothing I could do about it.

"Harry are you alright?" Seamus asked with a concerned expression turning everyone's attention to me and what I was looking at.

"Yes! I'm fine!" I said quickly looking back at the group. Ginny was glaring at the Slytherins with a cold hatred that I found strange but didn't think anything of.

"Why do they have to come in here and ruin the atmosphere?" Ginny asked icily. I followed her gaze directly to Draco I was startled to see how her aura was extremely angry , so much that it troubled me. 'Does she really hate them that much?' I saw there were similar expressions on everyone's faces, besides Hermione who just looked down at her half drunk butterbeer. But even Ron's furious red aura did not match his sisters and I wondered why Ginny hated Draco so much.

"Just don't let them get to you, Ginny."

"Don't let them get to me? Have you lost your mind Harry! Of course they are going to get to me…after everything they have done to us over the past years …. To all of us—" She said her voice rising and her cheeks began to match her red hair.

"I'm just saying that by getting mad you are just sinking to their level." I tried to rationalize with her but she was just getting more and more angry.

"WHAT? BY ME GETTING MAD AT THEM I AM SUDDENLY SINKING TO A SLYTHERINS LEVEL!" She yelled, standing from her seat. There was a lot of noise in the Three Broom Sticks but not enough to hide her loud yelling and soon everyone was turning to look at her. She was glaring daggers at me as though she wanted to slap me, her aura was alive with her rage as she pushed her way out of the booth and stormed out of the store. I looked to see the shocked faces of everyone else at the table.

I heard the snickering and familiar laughing of the Slytherins and I turned and gave them all a genuine hard glare before standing.

"I'm going to go talk to her." I said pulling my cloak around me.

"Good luck with that one mate!" Seamus said , earning him a small glare from Ron who other than that made no comment.

As I walked out the door I stole a glance to Draco's table and caught his eyes which were wide and staring directly at me , his mouth slightly open as though in alarm. It was only for a moment for just then the girl on his arm leaned an whispered something into his ear and he nodded in response, his entire features changing to one of mischevious glee, but as I ventured my magical force out towards him (which seems to be easy to do, like we have some sort of connection or something that makes it simple to read him from almost any distance, I'll have to ask McGonogal about it later.) I could read him, very lightly , and could only infer that something was wrong.

But right then all I was worried about was finding Ginny, she had been acting very strange for the past few days, and her out burst was not at all like her. I walked around the village looking for her, most of the students were either heading back to the castle already or going to one of the shops or three broom sticks for a last drink or treat. I spotted her sitting alone on a stone bench beside one of the older buildings. I walked to her slowly, I wanted to give her the opportunity to see me and tell me to go away if she wanted to. But she didn't.

"Ginny…are you okay? " I asked when I was standing infront of her. She nodded lightly. She was still angry, just not as enraged as before. I sat beside her and carefully put an arm around her in a comforting way. I have to admit I didn't expect her to turn into my chest and begin crying. '

"Ginny! What's the matter?" I asked in alarm, holding her tightly trying to calm her. For a long time I held her , just sitting there letting her cry against my shoulder. Then she pulled back and looked at me.

"I'm sorry…I didn't mean to get all..emotional…" she said, whipping her eyes. "It's just"

"I know it's hard having to see the Slytherins everyday knowing they are involved in so much evil, but we have to be patient." I said in a soothing tone, my arms were still loosely around her.

"Harry…that's not why I'm upset…I..I saw youLOOK OUT!" She screamed suddenly, her eyes going wide and using her petite form to knock her and myself to the ground , a spell just missing us , hitting the wall and shattering several layer of brick sending pieces all over us, a large chunk falling to knock the youngest Weasley out atop me. I looked up at our attackers to see… "Death Eaters! " I said aloud, trying to get up from the ground and beneath Ginny. There were five of them heading directly towards us with their wands at the ready.

Finally I was able to stand , positioning myself away Ginny so that they wouldn't be able to hurt her further. Why hadn't they attacked me yet? Did they think I would just use my shielding charm again? The give black clad and masked figures moved into a circle around me. I held my hands up, waiting for one of them to cast at me, but they were surrounding me, there was no way I would be able to protect myself from all sides.

"Stupify!" one to my left and one to my right called and I raised my hands to reflect them, but the masked figure standing directly behind me , "Colloportus!" and thick ropes flew out from the end of the persons wand to bind my arms to my sides. The final Death Eater which stood in-front of me hesitated, I felt his anguish , his fear, his sorrow…his soul that I knew so well. My eyes went wide as I waited for what ever came next.

"Expellarmus!" A voice cried out and the spell hit my would be attacker from behind and I looked with relief to see Ron running towards the group, with Neville, Seamus, Luna, Ernie, almost the entire D.A running out to face the Death Eaters.

"This was a warning , Potter…don't ever assume that you are invincible… I could have had you today!" said a female voice behind me as the rest of the death eaters joined her and I heard one of them say 'portus' using a port key to escape the onslaught of Wizards and Witches that had come to my aid.

With a muttered spell my binds were cut and I ran over to Ginny's side, where the others were moving to. Ron had an extremely worried expression over his features and looked quite pale. I knelt beside her and pulled her half way into my arms and lap.

"Ginny…wake up…" I said. I had a flash back then, of the time when she was still so young and had been tricked by the memory of Voldemort in the form of a diary to open the chamber of secrets. I had held her like this then and once again I begged her to wake up. Finally after what seemed like lifetimes she opened her eyes with a soft moan and looked up at me.

"Harry?" she asked in an uncertain soft voice.

"Yeah, Ginny…it's me." I said with a smile. Suddenly she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled her self up , with more strength than I would have expected from someone who had just been knocked out moments before, and kissed me. So surprised was I that I didn't even think about it until I was retuning it. This caused the group around us to burst into cheers. Several making cat calls at us. After a moment the kiss ended and I looked down at her.

"Are you alright?" I asked breathlessly and she nodded, her cheeks flush. "Come on." I said and helped her stand, though she wavored a bit from being slightly dizzy. Ron and I both assisted in walking with her back to the castle with an entourage of chattering teens, beaming over how they had scared the Death Eaters away. I didn't want to tell them that the death eaters were probably none other than our dear Slytherinfriends who had decided to play grown up for a day.

As we walked back to the castle I could feel Draco some where, some where near, watching me. He hadn't stoped watching me since the Death Eaters had vanished. Meaning one that the group of Slytherins was still near and that Draco had seen me and Ginny kiss. What that means I don't know, but some how I know, he is very angry with me.