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So I tell people not to send me flames. And what do they do? THEY FREAKIN' SEND ME FLAMES! --;
Once again:
Warnings: Shonen-ai, maybe slight yaoi here or there. If you cannot accept the fact of two boys in love I suggest you leave immediately. I will accept no flames on this factor, mainly on my writing styles and what-not. I also warn of the adult language I'm probably going to use. Curse words, etc,. This I will not accept flames of as well.
Chapter two: Lilac.
Jin's POV
I can't say I do remember much of last night. The whole 'passing-out' thing really didn't leave much on my memory. I couldn't afford to be worried, though. My fevor was rising, and sleep never did come quickly to me. I felt horrible for the rest of the day. It was mainly the nausiating acid burning through my unsettled stomache and the roaring headache pulsing through my head each time I tried to think. And it was also the cold, shivering outbursts that would send my mind sinking in a freezing chill randomly. But it was also because of Shuu.
I was worried. I couldn't help it. She was at Mushroom forest, one of the areas I dreaded the most. With so many passages and mazes, one could get lost so simply. Just the thought of her truding onwards for days and days for a long period of time, energy slowly slipping as the hunger gnawed at her, eating her from the inside out scared me so. Her presence slowly fading. It ripped me apart. Satoshi said not to bother, that she was fine and if anything happened, like she didn't come back for a while, he'd personally go search for her.
"A meteor couldn't kill'er" He said. A little harsh.
I loved sleep. And when it came, I cherished it greatly. Unless my dreams, if I did dream at all, were replaced with horrific nightmares lingering in the back of my mind with great intensity. Which it usually was. Sometimes Tomonori could help me with my sleep, staying beside me and telling stories I yearned to hear. There was once a point in time where I feared this man. He was scary; especially to a five year old misfit like myself at the time. My eyes would stare up at him, wide and glazed in fear. But he would smile sometimes, causing my heart to melt and my own grin to tug on the corners of my lips.
I felt slightly depressed, though. Thinking..How could I ever hate this man? When he...He was one of the few people who cares about me?
The fevor was slowly decreasing. Painfully slow. But I was recovering, thankfully. It took a few days for me to be able to walk, but I was happy when I did. I had changed into my nighttime wear: Soft, pladed pants which were long and bagged, and a button down pladed shirt which hung over my fingertips and one shoulder. They were Montrial's. I would walk around early in the morning, because I usually did wake up fairly early, to the gentle even breaths of my crew mates. Smiling. I would linger for a while, on the balcony, the cool fresh air breezing past my supple skin and snaking through my blonde locks.
The innkeeper obviously didn't attend to the flowers, so one by one I slowly casted a rebirth upon them, their bright, vibrant colours returning as they stood upright, smiling at me while I smiled back. No one saw me doing this; It was for my own content. At least... I didn't think anyone saw me.There were times when I thought I felt the eyes of other's and I would jerk around, azure eyes averting and scanning the area. But nothing; no one was there. I would sigh and return, unable to shake the presence of another.
There was one time, though. When I knew Satoshi was watching:
"So...This is what you do in the morning, eh?" He said nonchalantly, his eyes hooded and dazed with the remnents of sleep. I spun around, feeling the light rosebushes of a blush on my cheeks. I turned back around to hide it.
"Heh..So you've noticed." I said sheepishly.
"Why all alone?" He was serious now. I could feel the slight tense of sadness in his voice. No. It wasn't sadness. It was sympathy. Why..Why was such a sad word. It could mean many things. But when combined with 'All Alone'... Many answers arose. But, to them all it was really just saying: "The alone are really just lonely." Which meant that they had someone there, they just couldn't feel them.
I shrugged, "I don't know." Carelessly I said, "It just doesn't seem like it would matter if anyone else would help." He took my words into careful consideration before walking near, his rough hands caressing the petals. He grinned gingerly.
"They look nice."
I smiled warmly. "Domo." (Thanks)
It was small, unnoticable moments like these that procede us one step farther in life, I think. When things are all quiet, and you forget any worries or stress, it just eases away like April rain. And even though it's not April, nor is it raining, you feel like it is. As if weather has no affect on you, you just want to test the factor out.
I sighed, the fevor returning and I suddenly felt lightheaded. I stummbled a bit, eyes glazing over, and I fell hard to the ground. It felt like minutes were hours as I counted them with my aching head, and sleep could never reach me. I wasn't sure why, I WAS tired. No doubt in that. If I ever did fall asleep, I wouldn't be suprised if I never woke up. I tried everything from counting sheep to making up words in the alphabet, but nothing worked.
At least, I didn't think they did. Eventually I just tried thinking the day over, and sleep came. Much like the other times I sleep, I wasn't sure when or even how I did. I just...slept. To some it wouldn't be seen as a great accomplishment, but boy I needed it. When I did awake, my eyelids felt heavy but my headache left. Someone must have brought me back to my bed and nursed me, because that's where I was. I must not have noticed while I was trying to sleep, but whatever.
When I sat up, running a hand through my dark red locks, it was then I noticed Satoshi for a second time. He was sitting down, a stressed look on his face with the dark bags under his eyes, hunch over the chair he sat on. I smiled. He must have been there the entire time I was..well..trying to sleep. You see, it wasn't sleeping that I really wanted to ahcieve, I justcouldn't do anything else. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, I couldn't even open my eyes or the light might burn through my eyes and irritate my head even more.
My delicate, girl-like hands found his head and I patted it gently as he stirred in his sleep. It was strange how people look the most innocent in sleep. I really couldn't put my finger on it, but it was like a kindness or softness radiating from his body. I giggled at that fact. Satoshi? Soft? Pfft.
Cautiously I rested a blanket and pushed him back so he was resting fully on the chair, his light breathing barely leaving his lips. Must've been a nice dream. As I stood on my own two feet, slowly, Tomonori had entered the room, slightly suprised. I WAS sort of wondering where he had been. I smiled welcoming.
"G'morning."
"Konbanwa." (Good evening.)
"What? But it's--" I spun to the nearest window, hands firmly gripped on the curtains and tugged lightly, spreading them. He was right, it was nighttime. A darkness engulfed the sky, bright specks of stars splattered across and dashes of clouds here or there. The moon hung, lingeringing with it's eerie aura.
"Oh..Guess it's not really morning then...is it?" I said sheepishly, and he nodded, placing himself at the usual end of the wall. He looked tired, the way his shoulder's hunch over and his head hung. Where could he have been..? He looked so shocked when I saw him enter.
"Where were you?" I said, closing the curtains again.
He sighed, "Somewhere."
I laid my hands on my hips, a mother's look on my face. You know, one of those 'don't-mess-with-me-young-man' kind of looks. He shrugged.
"Nani?" (What?)
My eyebrows arched, "Really. Where were you? I need a specific answer."
He grunted, "You don't want to know."
"Yes I do!"
Tomonori looked defeated; No one could be me. "It's a suprised.." He said quietly. I twitched nervously.
"Well why didn't you say that in the first place?"
"I said, 'You don't want to know'."
"That just edges me on! You should know me by now."
"Guess I don't."
Tomonori has a think a thing for ending conversations when he wants to. Whether by insult or by just throwing something so bizzare it makes you wonder, deepening your thoughts. Things like 'reincarnations' or 'Guess I don't.' Heh. Yeah. It wasn't so much that that sentance made me gawk, it was the meaning that he was trying to tell me. He doesn't know me? Geez. How long has it been? Four, maybe five years? I thouht he did. He should anyways. I know about h-- Well, now that I think about it, I don't know that much about him...
B-But who could, right? He has so many mysterious qualities, and he always keeps to himself like if he allows anyone to get close to him they might be hurt. Like when agents are all like, "You know. So now I have to kill you." sort of thing. Something in me really like him. Admires him, even. Something in me wants to get to know him so much that'll seem like I'm him. But...that could never happen. Not alone, really.
Again, like he usually plans for, I was so deep in thought that I didn't even leave. This time, however, I was glad he did. Not like the other times when we're playing a game and suddenly I'm on my own team, or when I'm fighting off a monster and suddenly I'm running away from it. No, not this time. I padded lightly over to Satoshi and shook him gently.
"Satoshi. Satoshi. Wake up."
He stirred, brushing me away and mummbling something. I sighed, "Wake up you lazy bum!"
Satoshi growled at the sudden loud voice ringing through his ears, and his eyes cracked open a sliver, sending me a glare. I just giggled, "You sleep like a rock; Hard."
He sighed, "Iwas sleeping like a rock...Untill somebody woke me up." The selkie sounded irritated, "Now I wonder who could have done that?"I giggled at his sarcasm.
"Oh come on. What could you have been possibly been dreaming about that made you so grumpy?" Suddenly he blushed, and stuttered. "N-Nothing."
I smirked slyly, "Oh come on! ...Was it about a girl?"
Right on the nose. "N-No! Well..Not..Technically.." His voice trailed off and his cheeks became hotter, the blush redder.
(No one's POV:D)
He giggled, "Just so you know. She doesn't kiss you." The boy's remark hit him hard. Satoshi's dream wasn't about a girl... It was about a guy. This very guy who stood before him, with a warm smile and laughing eyes. But it wasn't he, or the girl as Jin claimed, who was going to kiss him. He was going to kiss the 'girl'. He couldn't look him in the eyes. How could he think of such a thing?
Well, he did have strong feelings for the boy, but not THIS far. He didn't ever think he'd swing that way. But... It just didn't add up. He still liked girls... So why did he like Jin? Maybe he went both ways. Maybe...Maybe..
"Satoshi? Are you okay?" Jin waved a hand in front of his face, and Satoshi was jerked from his thoughts. He nodded.
"Y-Yeah..I'm..I'm fine." Satoshi replied weakly, running a hand through his platinum hair.
"So..." Jin began.
"So what?"
"What was the dream about!"
A flash of the image in his dream dashed in his mind. Their lips locked together, with the rain trickling down their faces, hair dampening and clining to their heads. Jin's skin was so...soft. Plush under the heavy rain awakening from the clouds and pouring down. Romantic; very. Loving; very. A dream;...very. And that made him depressed. And he hated being depressed.
Especially around Jin.
"Well.. It.." His mind desperatly tried to cling to a thought; Any sort of excuse because lets face it, 'I was fantasizing about'...Isn't really the best answer. There was something the way Satoshi stuttered and became flustered that sent off signals saying 'It's about you!' But Jin was far to naive for that. Go figure.
"It..was... about a friend of mine." He settled with that. Yeah.. It was obvious. So what?
Jin blinked, "Really? What was her name?"
Satoshi winced lightly at the thought that he automatically assumed it was a girl, but it was oblivious to him.
"Uh.. Floral."
"Wow. That's a strange name!" Jin giggled.
"Well yours isn't much better!
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