For Myself Chapter 8: Mind Games, a dragon ball z fanfic

Disclaimer: I lost my half of ownership of DBZ in a staring contest. (And as you all know I don't own Linkin Park either)

A/N: I had a computer crash so I've lost all my previous chapters but not to worry only a minor setback. WOW! I had not expected so many reviews or that 18 would catch up to Bra in the polls so fast. A lot of you seem to be questioning my motives, but I assure you that it will all come together soon. This will be the last chapter I hold the poll in and it seems that Lime is out of the running.

The standings are: #18-10 and BRA-11

It has come down to the wire, can't get much closer. So I'm asking all of you that have read my story and haven't reviewed to review now. This chapter has a bit of a catch, I NEED 15 reviews before I'll post the next chapter. (YES, YES EVIL I KNOW) I know it can be done because I received 18 reviews on my last chapter.

I would like to thank Borachio, wicked angel grls, En Satsu Koku Ryuu Ha, deeunlm1t3d, Lt Juan Rico, Jared, Mr Killafilla, BladEofThECloudS, Gopu, Jay, FireDemonLord, Brutal2003, Jin Arashi, hunt, Krypto, Rejhan, and willie, for reviewing my last chapter, and may I please ask that you all review this chapter as well.

Now there are a few of you I'd like to address.

Borachio- YES! Three Days Grace does rock, I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks so, I was getting lonely. I don't know about genius but I'd like to think I'm pretty damn close, lol.

wicked angel grls- I'm glad you liked the kiss I threw it in there just for you. As for if Gohan made it or not, I guess you'll just have to read and find out. ::laughs evilly::

deeunlm1t3d- Yes you are supposed to vote on the review, you are not an idiot…..well you don't sound like one anyway, lol. I never liked Videl either, but there are a few fics that I like her in, and I'm also a sucker for romance.

Jay- Bien gracias. Que intresante. (Is that right? How interesting?) Anyway you seem to be able to keep guessing ahead into my story, just don't go giving it away. Sorry if I gave you too gross an image with that fight scene, I'll try to make them even more gruesome, lol. Lime is from the Cell saga, Gohan saved her and her village from Mercenary Tao before the Cell games. And as you know, who Gohan ends up with is up to the reviewers but it looks like Bra may win.

Krypto- That's exactly why I put that senzu bean in my story, but it looks like I might need to find another use for it.

Rejhan- I'm glad my story has that effect on you. If I'm no good at writing romance than at least I'm good at drama. I'm glad you liked the song, it's from one of my all time favorite bands. If you don't mind I would also like your vote in my poll, I know you think this fic is too dark for romance, but I might need a tiebreaker.

Ok well now that that's over time to end your suspense.

Chapter 8- Mind Games and WthYou

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Bulma woke suddenly in a cold sweat. She looked around herself realizing that she was in a bedroom. There wasn't too much to look at, the bed sheet and pillows were black, there was a closed closet on the far side of the room, a dresser that had a few jewelry boxes on it, and there were no pictures or any sort of decorations. She came to the conclusion that this was 18's room, and it suddenly dawned on her why she had fainted in the first place. 'No Gohan! Why?' She curled up into a ball and began sobbing uncontrollably. She didn't even notice the shadow standing at the doorway.

"Don't tell me you're actually crying for that sadistic freak." said the figure as he stepped into the room.

Bulma looked up from her place on the bed and screamed in fright. Yamcha was standing in the doorway with an evil grin on his face. "STAY AWAY. SOMEONE HELP ME!" she yelled hoping 18 would come help her.

"Don't even bother, Krillen is taking care of 18 as we speak, then we'll finally be able to end this madness with Bra's life."

"Bra? What do you want with Bra, she's just a child." asked trying to buy her some time as Yamcha continued to approach her.

"She's not safe. She has strength enough to end all existence in the universe." said Yamcha stopping just short of the bed.

"How can that be, she's only six. You're not making any sense."

"It doesn't matter. All that matters now is you." he said as he leaned in towards her with an evil smile on his face. "Your precious prince isn't here to look after you any more, which means I can have my way with you."

The realization of his words took a second to sink in before she began screaming again and trying to back away from him.

"Yes, please scream more it makes this even more enjoyable for me." He began floating in the air towards his prey. "I will have you whether you want it or not, you were mine to begin with." When he was directly above her he lunged forward and grabbed both her arms pinning them effectively above her head against the wall behind the bed. He was on top of her making it impossible to escape her fate. "Now for what I've been waiting to do for the past seven years." He removed one of his hands that held hers, moved her face towards him with his free hand, and kissed her forcedly while pushing his tongue into her mouth savoring her taste.

Bulma felt like being sick. She couldn't stand the torture he was putting her through and she knew he was going to stop there. She felt helpless and angry at being so. She suddenly felt the urge to want to end her life just to escape it all.

Yamcha then ran his hand down her neck to the buttons on her shirt eager to get exactly what he wanted out of her. She just shuddered at his touch. She couldn't believe what was happening to her. Instead of unbuttoning her shirt he immediately ripped it off along with her black lace bra. He removed his mouth from hers and looked down at the treasure he had uncovered while Bulma looked away in shame of herself and began whimpering in despair. 'Someone please….pl…please…help me' she thought to herself as Yamcha began to massage her breasts painfully.

Yamcha then moved his head down her body and placed his lips on her erect rose colored nipple and began sucking on it very painfully. Her normally almond colored flesh became red and raw from the brutal attack on it. "Please…please stop" she begged in a whisper while tears made their way down her face.

Rather than acknowledge her pleas he continued his assault going lower. "Now to make you mine" Bulma could feel strange feeling around her wrists and as she looked up she saw a gold ring around both her wrists and connecting to the wall. As hard as she tried she couldn't move her arms. Yamcha released his tight hold on her other breast and focused all his attention on her lower body. Bulma couldn't stand to watch anymore, she closed her eyes and waited for it all to end. Yamcha moved enough to be able to remove her pants. He placed both his hands at the hem of her tight jeans, and like her shirt ripped them from her body leaving her in only her light blue panties. "This won't do." Yamcha moved a hand down her stomach and placed it directly at the elastic of her panties and began slowly moving his hand down into them. Bulma began crying and trying to hold back gags from the feeling of wanting to vomit. Just before Yamcha went any lower she felt like his weight had been lifted from her body. She opened her eyes and saw 18 standing above her holding Yamcha by the neck from behind. His eyes were wide as 18 began slowly crushing his neck. Bulma also noticed that 18 happened to be shirtless and braless, but she still had on her short jean skirt. Then there was a loud crack as 18 broke Yamcha's neck and his body fell limp to the floor. 18 then walked over to where Bulma was on the bed and broke off the gold ring holding her arms above her head. Bulma tried to cover herself up as best she could with her tattered clothes.

"Here take these" said 18 as she rummaged through her closet and threw her a tight fitting shirt and a pair of jeans. "Sorry but I'm out of bras for the moment." she said as she also put on a black tank top and a jean jacket over it. "Don't worry Trunks and Bra are fine, I managed to distract Krillen long enough to make my move. Now if you don't mind I think we should probably head over to your place." When Bulma stood up to move out of the room she noticed that Yamcha's body had disappeared.

"What happened, where's his body?" questioned Bulma.

"Hmm I don't know." said 18 as she turned around to investigate.

"Oh no, I think I know. When Goku first died he was granted the ability to keep his body in the afterlife for his good deeds. Why did he though?"

"Hmm I suppose that explains why Krillen's body was gone after I came back from helping Bra and Trunks get out of those energy rings."

"What's going on?" she questioned herself. She sat back down on the bed still shaken up by that fact that she was almost raped. "If you don't mind I'm just going stay here a bit longer, I'll be ready to go in a minute."

"Yeah sure. Take your time." said 18 as she walked out of the room closing the door behind her.

Bulma curled back up into her ball and began crying once again.

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Gohan slowly opened his eyes. He was met with a bright blue, cloudless sky above him. He tried to sit up but something was holding him down. He looked over at his arms and legs that were spread out in the shape of a cross. Each arm had a gold energy ring and his legs were also bound by one. He tried to think back to how he ended up here, but the last thing he could remember was before being caught in the blast of his and his father's attack, was a hand on his shoulder. 'Where the hell am I?' He continued to look around, he could feel a few strong power levels along with his fathers. But it seemed he wasn't on Earth anymore because he couldn't feel any other power levels on the planet.

Gohan looked towards were he felt the powers. He could see his father and the short purple skinned man named Shin. There were a few others standing around in the group all of them dressed like Shin and had similar ki signatures. He could see them all walking towards his current position.

"Don't bother trying to break those energy bonds, they prevent you from powering up and at your current power level you'd just be wasting energy." said Goku as the six figures approached. "If you're curious as to where you are, you are one the sacred planet of the Kais. Yes even the Kais agree that Bra is a threat to the entire universe." said Goku noticing the questioning look on Gohan's face.

"But I know of her power and her potential threat, but you should know that with the proper training she'd be able to keep it under control."

"That's not true." Shin spoke up "One day her power will become too much for her to control no matter how much training she has. It will take control of her and then there is no stopping her." The other Kais began nodding their heads in agreement except one who stood in the far back, she seemed to be the only female among the group.

"Gohan what makes you think that you'd be able to survive though training her? We already know that you've almost been killed by her when she first went super Saiyan."

"I know I can keep her safe from herself because she's just like me. Maybe not exactly, but I know what happens inside her head when she becomes enraged. You should know that."

Gohan I don't know what you're talking about." replied Goku.

"YOU SHOULD KNOW! YOU KNEW THE DAY YOU SENT ME TO FIGHT CELL! When I get angry you knew I lost control of my power, but you didn't care what happened to me as long as I could SAVE YOUR DAMN PLANET. You didn't care that I was fighting a war inside my head as well as fighting with Cell. I may not be able to understand completely what Bra is going through because she loses complete control, but at least I can help her better than anyone else."

"….Well we're better safe than sorry. Krillen and Yamcha we're killed a while ago, so now we're going to enlist some help." said Goku.

"What do you mean?"

"She trusts you she'll be less tempted to become angry if you are the one to attack her." replied Shin.

"You must be fucking stupid. I told you already I'm not going to let you kill her much less kill her myself."

"You're going to help us whether you want to or not." said Goku "It's the only way to be sure that she doesn't use her full power."

"And how may I ask are you going to do that, you should know that taking control of my body mentally would be impossible, I've strengthened my mind ever since the day I killed Cell to keep from ever losing control."

"We're going to erase your memory. It may be trivial to you, but once your memories are gone so will your mental defense of being controlled." said Shin while motioning another of the Kais forward. She had similar hair and clothes but her skin was pink rather that purple. She bent down and placed her hands a few inches away from his head. A slight reddish glow appeared and Gohan began feeling more and more relaxed as he began losing focus on all things around him.

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COME ON!
I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static
And put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
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Suddenly he began seeing visions of his childhood like as if he were reliving them. But soon they became tossed aside and new visions came to him making him completely forget what the previous vision even was. Soon names, faces, places, and all other knowledge began slipping away like sand through the palm of his hand. Then it came to one person that he still had a memory of and it stirred something inside him, he then remembered what was happening, 'they' were taking away his memory. He could already tell they had gotten to most of it, but now that he was more conscious of what was happening he was going to try to stop it here. He didn't want to ever forget his mother.

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A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake
Slow to react
Even though you're so close to me

You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back.

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"Huh something's wrong. He's beginning to fight me off." replied the female Kai. (A/N: Sorry I forget their names) 'I'm really sorry about this, I don't believe in killing for any reason' she thought.

"Try harder he can't be left with any memories or he could build all of them back up from just one." said Shin.

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It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
(You, now I see, keeping everything inside)
With you
(You, now I see, even when I close my eyes)
With you
(You, now I see, keeping everything inside)
With you
(You, now I see, even when I close my eyes)
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'No I won't let them take you away from me' thought Gohan as he held on to his memory of her. He could feel an unseen force trying to pull him away from it. 'STOP I WON'T LET YOU TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME' He held on trying just to keep her face, the sound of her voice, and all her other aspects in his mind.

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I hit you and you hit me back
And we fall to the floor
The rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
But when things go wrong, I pretend the past isn't real
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"Look at that!" said Goku as he pointed to his son's arms. They were straining against their bonds and slowly pulling them out of the ground. "There's no way he should be able to do that."

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Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake
Slow to react
Even though you're close to me
You're still so distant, and I can't bring you back.
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"I've finished erasing all his other memories, but he's still holding on to the one of a woman with black hair." she said while still trying harder.

'Chi-Chi' thought Goku looking down sadly at his son. He was still struggling against his restraints while his eyes were shut tight, as if concentrating very hard.

"St…Stop" Gohan's voice came out in a whisper.

"That's impossible there's no way he could be able to speak." said the Kai.

"I…never…mother…STOP!" Gohan broke his restraints and began holding on to his head with both hands while bending over his lap. He stared powering up until he became a super Saiyan. "I WON'T LET YOU TAKE HER" he screamed as all the others stood in shock at his sudden accomplishment and determination.

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(NO)
I won't let you control my fate while I'm holding the weight of
The world on my conscience
(NO)
I won't just sit here and wait while you weighin your options
Your making a fool of me
(NO)
You didn't dare to try and say you don't care
And solemnly swear not to follow me there
(NO)
It ain't like me to beg on my knees
Oh, please oh baby please
That's not how I'm doin things
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Tears of blood began to flow from Gohan's tightly closed eyes. Then scars on his face began reopening and also began to bleed. Everyone could tell that the scars beneath his clothing had also reopened, as there were blood stains seeping into the cloth. Gohan continued to scream as if in agony while she kept trying to remove the memory of his mother.

"I don't understand how is he doing this?" asked Shin as he began to back away a few steps.

"He's using his life energy, he's willing to die to keep me from erasing the memory of his mother." replied the female Kai while still trying to do so.

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(No)
No I'm not upset, no I'm not angry
I know love is love and love sometimes, it doesn't pay me
(NO)
I'm never without you, I'll always be with you
You'll never forget me, I'm keeping you with me
(NO)
I won't let you take me to the end of my row
Or keep burning and torching my soul
(NO)
No I'm not your puppet
And no, no, no, I won't let you go.
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Gohan suddenly stopped screaming as he heard a voice inside his head.

::Gohan please stop hurting yourself. Just let it go, you know I'll always be watching out for you, so stop trying so hard::

'Mom. NO! I DON'T WANT TO FORGET YOU! PLEASE I HAVE TO KEEP FIGHTING.' said Gohan as he began to start losing his strength. 'I will not allow myself to forget you. I promise'

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No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No matter how far we've come I,
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you
(You, now I see, keeping everything inside)
With you
(You, now I see, even when I close my eyes)
With you
(You, now I see, keeping everything inside)
With you
(You, now I see, even when I close my eyes)
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Goku watched as Gohan's body fell limp to the ground and blood continued to flow from the freshly reopened wounds and also from his mouth and eyes. 'I'm sorry son, we'll give her back to you when you've finished your part.' tears trailed down his face as he turned and faced away.

"There it's all gone." said the Kai as she got up from her position on the ground. She had also been crying. 'I'm so sorry.'

"Ok I'll be able to modify his memory now." said another of the Kais.

"Yes do it quick the sooner this is all over the sooner we can get back to our regular lives." said Shin.

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Bulma stepped through the door to her living room. She, 18, Bra, and Trunks were all exhausted from the long day and needed to sleep. Bulma had become more and more confident over the day that Gohan was still alive somewhere. Bra and Trunks went to their rooms and fell right to sleep while 18 and Bulma stayed up at the dinner table each with a cup of coffee in front of them.

"You thinks he's out there don't you?" said 18 out of nowhere.

Bulma looked up for her cup in surprise but slowly nodded sadly. "I really think he's still alive, but I don't know…maybe it's just wishful thinking."

18 shook her head. "No I agree I'm sure he's alive, he has a strong will." said 18 as she took another sip of her coffee.

Bulma continued to think over what Yamcha had said about killing Bra, but soon left her mind and she became to tired and fell asleep at the table.

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A/N: Yes another cliffy, ::sticks tongue out:: Like I said last chapter for my poll and I want all opinions. Also remember I NEED 15 reviews before I'll even think about posting the next chapter. I know this chapter was shorter than the previous two but I promise I'll make up for it in the next chapter.

NOW DO AS I HAVE COMMANDED AND REVIEW. ::Laughs maniacally::