Disclaimer- Check out CH 4, if you're interested in that kinda stuff… -shudder-
A/N- I am SO sorry it's taken so long to update!!! The evil writer's block is in my way! It won't go away!!! But no excuses, I'll try to get CH 12 up faster!!!
A/N (2)- I have a lot of people asking me who the 38th shade is. Well, I'm not tellin' so don't ask. But, I think it'd be cool if you guys sent me some of your theories on that! I want to know how "sneaky" I'm being. Probably not much... But yeah, tell me who you think it is! I'm not gonna tell you if you're right or not though...
WARNING- PLEASE READ BOLD, UNDERLINED, AND ITALICZED WORDS IN MIDDLE OF REVIEWER RESPONSES!!!!! THE FUTURE OF THIS STORY DEPENDS ON IF YOU READ IT OR NOT!!!
Notes- I've finally decided to do this around the shades' words. Much less confusing.
Reviewer Responses:
Bloody Poetry- Thank you for the name!!! I couldn't remember! I feel so stupid!
Ms. Mug- Your review was long!!! But I loved it, I love long reviews! So everyone, give me long reviews! Even if it's about nothing! I'm glad that you were happy Inu was in it. Yes, I cut her hair! I noticed that in my fic, she was the complete opposite of how she is in the anime and manga, so I was just like, "What the heck, lets cut her hair!" I would love to send Sess to your house, but I... don't...have...him... Wahhhhhh!!! tears If you love me 'cause of tSess lost control, I should make Sess have a full-blown hissy fit in the next CH!!! This response is loong...
Black-Fire Eclipse- Here you go, Sess's parent'sreactions. I don't think it was what people expected though...
Suaru- I'm sorry the update took so long!!! And you think that was a roll? In my HP fic (everyone plese read) CH 2 was 15 pages long. Yeah, i know scary. It's the longst CH I've ever written in my life!!! I also wanted to tell you thank you so much! You've read and reaviewed almost all my stories, and it makes me do happy dance!!
o(",)(,")o- I'm not tellin'! You'll just have to keep reading to find out! Actually though, I don't think I'm being very sneaky about it. People have probably figured it out already... I'm so pitiful...
ReginaLucifer- Yeah, Sess is the yoounger bro. I thought it would be different. Yes, Kagome came to live with Sess. His dad persuaded the people to let her. I think I explained it fully in CH 9... I can't remember... You should check, just in case...
xWhit3StaRx- Is it really good? I think I bounce around too much, but huh.. I saw all your reviews for this!They made me happy! I'm sorry this was so late!
sorata-chan - Yeah, you're right about her name! Thank you for reviewing!!! Review again!
borken hearts,crying tears- I'm not tellin'......
sourmilk732- Thank you! Sorry for the long wait! I seem to be sayin' that a lot...
LadyAkina- I agree with you totally about Shiro! I created him, and even I hate him! But don't worry, he'll get what he deserves...
inuyashaobsessed3191- You're in awe! It makes me happy! I'm glad you found this after you missed it!I wrote more, I'm sorry it's late!
Suns Of Sin- Yes, Sess is VERY OCC. But I TRIED to put some of his actual personality. I don't think it worked! But I'm glad you like it that way. Sorry for the long delay. I can't stop saying that. I feel really guilty about the wait...
InuYasha's-1-and-only-lov- I'm glad you think it's great! I'm also happy that you love the way I write! How do I write anyways? I don't think it's anything special... I'm gonna have to have someone explain it to me...
demonspawn666- I'm also responding to your CH 9 review too! Yes, it was funny to have Kagome say that to Kikyo! I've heard it in real life too. ANd yes, it was a serious situation, but I couldn't help it. I laughed while writing it! But it's something I would say if someone insulted MY family! CH 10 response --> I'm sorry you got to the end! Yes, I almost converted you! But I didn't succed... But hey, you're reading the story still, so I guess I'm doing something right! Blond moment! I've been known to have those too, even though I'm not blond! I'm a strange hybrid of red and brown... Yeah, you got reviews for Those Eyes!!! I will advertise it some more!!! You know what? I'll do it right now!!!
EVERYBODY!!! YOU HAVE TO READ "THOSE EYES" BY DEMONSPAWN666, OR I WON'T UPDATE!!! I WANNA SEE 30 REVIEWS ON THAT THING!!! IT DOESN'T HIT THE 30 MARK, I DON'T UPDATE. I'M SERIOUS. ALSO, YOU HAVE TO READ HER OTHER STORIES TOO!
demonspawn666- I don't know if that will help, but I TRIED! Hope it helps!!!
Kimonolover- Youmade fun ofthe names of the dead kids! They're gonna come eat you now! But hey, go ahead,,ake fun ofthem, I was thinking the same things as you while typing them. But those are real Japanese names,ijust don't know if any Japanese parents would combine them that way... And yes, bad Sessy parents. And that wasn't a little weird, it was a lot weird! But it's okay, I've thought thingd like that before. Just not about my parents... I actually happen to like them... Weird, huh?
AngelWing1138- I continued! Late... but I continued!!! I switched roles!!! It makes me feel powerful!!! I'm sorry I made you cry!
Spirit-Hunter8-It's beautiful... Thank you for saying that!Yes, remember me when you write! Remember me always!!! (That sounded wrong......sorry...) And I am checking your stories as we speak!
Defafaeth Mechqua-D back!
sesshyluver- Standing ovation! Thank you, thank you! bows I love you all! tear Okay, donenow!I thought this up all on my own! Hmm, I don't think I've ever read something like this before... Strange...This would be a cool movie... Where's the phone?! I have to call the studio!!!
wanderingdragon- blush
CH 11- Romance Pt.1 (First Confrontation)
Sesshomaru and I walked home, about fifteen minutes. I wanted to grab his hand, but I didn't.
I've never felt this urge to be girly, to hold hands with a guy, and do… I dunno… romantic stuff.
I've never had a boyfriend, never wanted to. But with Sesshomaru, I wanted to, in a way that made me happy at times, then angry.
I never wanted to be like this, never wanted to be in love. I've finally convinced myself thoroughly that I'm in love with him.
I love everything about him. I love the way he's different around me, not cold and tough. He talks to me, laughs with me. Not that there's much to laugh about anymore… I love that he feels he needs to protect me, I love how he feels he has to be strong.
But despite feeling that, he can talk to me. He almost broke down in my arms, telling me about his brother. I'm not happy that he broke down, I'm happy that he was wiling to do so in front of me, to tell me his feelings. He's never done that before. He'll be more animated around me, but always still emotionless.
I remember something I thought about him when I first met him. He seems to see everything and feel nothing. That's not true anymore, is it? He does see everything, and he also feels everything. He just doesn't show it.
I wonder how the kids will take it when they realize that the Ice Man, as they have dubbed him, wasn't all ice. Partly ice, but there are pieces that are as human as the rest of us.
We reached his house, still walking in silence. As we neared the front entrance. He turned to him. I looked up at him waiting for him to say something. He gave me a strange glance, then leaned down and pressed his lips against mine. Before I could do anything, he had already pulled away and was going in. I just stood there.
'Sesshomaru just kissed me. He just kissed me. Wow.'
That was my first kiss. I think I'm going to melt. But why did he pull away. His lips had been so soft, so gentle.
I sighed and leaned against one of the posts that graced the entrance this house.
'I hope you're happy man, this is only gonna make me even more crazy about you, if that's even possible…'
"Kagome, are you going to come in or stay outside in the cold forever?"
I gathered all the runaway pieces of my voice. "Yeah, I'm comin'" I walked in and up the stairs. I threw my bag on they floor and made my way downstairs. Sess was in the living room, doing his homework. I sat next to him, unsure how to act or what to say. He didn't say anything to me, just gave me a look I couldn't decipher.
"Aren't you going to do your homework?" he asked me.
"No. I'm too distracted about you talking to your parents when they get home."
He gave me a tiny smile. "I won't kill them, Kagome. I'm not going to explode. I'm going to talk to them calmly and reasonably."
I gave him a bland look. "And that's exactly what I'm scared of. You get scary when you're calm. The madder you are, the quieter you get."
He gave me a soft smile. Oh god, he looked so… hot… when he did that. He doesn't do that much. I mean, he'll smile once or twice, but nothing-
Stay away from him. All you can do is hurt him.
What the hell? I snapped my head to the right, and nearly screamed when I saw that… thing again. It still had the burnt flesh, tattered clothes.
"What do you want?!" I yelled at it. I jumped up.
"Kagome? What's wrong?" Sesshomaru stood up with me. He glanced where I was looking, but obviously couldn't see it.
You're no good for him. Why can't you understand that? All you'll give him is an early death. It smiled at me.
"No! I won't! I won't kill him! I will NOT let you fuckers get him!"
"Kagome…" Sesshomaru put a hand on my shoulder. I moved it off, not even thinking about it.
Let him go, Kagome. There is nothing for you.
I was slammed by a vision.
She was sitting on the ground, Sesshomaru clutched to her. There was blood everywhere. It was matted in his hair, all over his clothes, hers, slipping out of his lips.
"Oh god, no!" she screamed. "No, Sess, please, don't, stay…"
"I guess I'm dying, huh?" He coughed. "Kagome, it hurts. Oh god, it hurts so bad."
She couldn't answer, could only hold him. She was sobbing.
I woke up from it screaming. Sesshomaru was holding my shoulders, shaking me.
"Kagome! Kagome, please, wake up."
"Sesshomaru!" I fell into his arms. "You were dead, you were dead."
That's what you're going to do.
I glared at the thing. "I will never." I closed my eyes and hugged Sesshomaru harder. I opened my eyes again, and it was gone.
"What was that all about, Kagome? Who were you talking to?"
I sat on the couch, but didn't let go of his hand. I needed to feel it, to know that he wasn't dead, that he was right here with me.
"You didn't see it?"
"No."
"Remember that thing I told you about? The one I dreamt about?"
"Yes."
"It was here, and it was telling me… all kinds of things." I didn't want him to know what it had said. "Then it showed me a vision. I was there, and you. You were dying. There was all this blood." I shuddered, and he pulled me onto his lap. He kissed my forehead. I snuggled into his arms.
"Well, as you can see, I'm still here, and alive. I'm not going to die."
I nodded. Then I heard his parents talking in the entranceway. Sesshomaru stiffened. I sighed, and got off his lap. He nodded to me in thanks, then stood up and went to his parents. I followed silently behind him.
"Hello, Sesshomaru. How was school today?" asked his father.
"It was good."
"Hello, Sesshomaru, dear," said his mother. She gave me a "glance". "And hello… Kagome." I did not like how she said my name.
"Hey, Miz Youkan, Mr. Y.," I answered. I knew she didn't like it when I used slang, or my obviously fake "southern" American accent.
"Kagome. And how was school?" Mr. Youkan asked me, genuinely interested.
"It's all good." I smiled, and he smiled back. He patted Sesshomaru's shoulder, and started for the stairs.
"I'm going to put my jacket up, when I get back down, we can talk about all the kids you scared today." He laughed, and I had to laugh with him, even though there was a serious issue to discuss.
"Father. We need to talk," said Sesshomaru. "Now."
His father gave him a look, then nodded. "Let's go to the living room."
"Well dear, you two talk, I'm going to go freshen up before dinner," his mother started up the stairs.
"Mother, I need to talk to you too."
"Really? Well, let me go up-"
"No Mother. I need to talk to you now, with Father." Sesshomaru's face was deadpan.
His mother looked a little shocked, then nodded, and we all trooped to the living room. Once there, Mr. Y. sat in his armchair, Miz Youkan sat by him in a loveseat, and I plopped myself onto the floor by the coffee table. Miz Youkan gave me a death glare. I smiled at her. She turned her head. I rolled my eyes. It was like a tennis match, she does something, I do something. It was fun.
Sesshomaru stood in front of us, by the fireplace. I wondered if he knew how serious he looked. Then I saw him put his hands behind his back, and couldn't hold back my giggle. I heard Mr. Y. chuckle softly. I turned, and saw him watching Sesshomaru too. Miz Youkan gave me a death glare again. I think she would actually look pretty if she smiled at all. A real one, not the fake, plastered ones she usually gives.
"I wanted to discuss something with you," Sesshomaru began. He turned and caught his parents with his sharp eyes. "Why didn't you tell me about Inuyasha?"
His mother gasped, his father turned pale.
"I remembered. Everything. Everything about him, about us." He narrowed his eyes at them. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I-I-." His mother could only stutter and stare at her son.
"We didn't want you to remember him, to cause you any more pain," his father said. Sesshomaru turned to him. Mr. Y. was still pale, but looked determined. "You were so sick, then when he died… you were so devastated. You cried so much. We couldn't stop the crying."
Sesshomaru just watched him, didn't say anything.
"The doctors gave you a sedative, when you woke up, you didn't remember him. You remembered us, remembered your life, but it was like someone had gone through and just erased… Inuyasha from your memories. It was like he never existed."
"We wanted to tell you," his mother broke in, "but the doctors told us not to. They said it was suppressed memory, you couldn't handle the trauma, especially at such a young age. They said you would remember eventually, when your brain thought you were ready to handle it. So we kept quiet." Miz Youkan looked at him pleadingly. "We love you so much, we just didn't want to hurt you."
Sesshomaru looked back and forth from his mother to his father. He finally nodded, then spun around and walked upstairs, without saying a word. We sat there in silence.
His mother turned to me. "Go to him. He doesn't want to see us, not now. Go see him." I was surprised, but nodded and walked away.
I guess his mother isn't so bad, if she was willing to let me console her beloved son. Maybe I can give her another chance.
I knocked on Sesshomaru's door.
"Come in." I came in. He was on his back on his head, hands behind his back and staring at the ceiling. I sat on the bed next to him. He gave me a distracted smile. I lay down, and he put an arm around my shoulder. We cuddled.
"You okay?" I asked.
"I don't know. I think. It's so much to take in."
"Are you still angry at your parents?"
"No, not really. I understand why they did what they did. If that happened to me, I would have done the same thing."
I poked his side. He made a noise, and looked down at me. "I hate you."
The look on his face was priceless. "What???"
"I hate how you can be so calm and noble. If it had been me, I would have destroyed my parents. You though, you have to see all sides of the story, and make a reasonable decision. I would never have been able to do that." I pouted.
Sesshomaru smiled, and held me closer. "That's okay. I'll do it all for you."
We lay there in silence, and finally fell asleep, safe in each other's arms.
I'm sorry that was shorter then my earlier ones, but even I can't control the length of my CHs. They have a life of their own! Hope you liked Sesshomaru and Kagome getting al little closer! I did!
REMINDER- Don't forget to read Those Eyes by demonspawn666!!! I meant it, no CH 12, no wait, noCHs at ALL until I see 30 reviews on her story!!!