Konban wa minna. Deadly Whispers here again. I've been sick for the past 4 or 5 days! sobs I hate being sick. Mostly because I almost never get sick so it lasts for a week or two, and I don't get to have sick days from school work unless I'm really sick because I'm home schooled. Anywho, seeing as I've had a lot of free time today I've decided to write more. Hopefully I can finish chapter 2 today too. Probably not, but an idiot can hope, ne? Anywho, onto the disclaimer.

Disclaimer: I WISH I owned Kei and Sho, cuz then I'd own Gackt and HDYE, and we'd all love to own them, now wouldn't we? Eheheh, but sadly I just own random animals, people, and corporations from my stupid Yu Yu Hakusho fan fics… lets see… that would be… about six people I can think of… two animals… and two companies… at least that's all that I remember at the moment! Also, the song I used is Ares by Gackt.

:Chapter One: Ares:

Sho's POV:

kono aoi sekai This blue world

shinjitsu o motomeru mono wa mina onaji koto o iu People searching for truth all say the same thing

It was early in the morning and the sun had just started coming up. Kei was already asleep on the couch, but I couldn't sleep, so I came out in the living room. I sat down on the chair next to the couch that Kei always slept on and lit a cigarette. As I lit it, the flame from the lighter filled the room with a dim glow. I looked over at Kei who was still sleeping peacefully in his respective spot. I watched as the light from the flame of my lighter danced along his skin, along with the rise and fall of his chest with ever breath. I always noticed these little, unimportant things about him, like the way he always licks his lips… I'm starting to think that he's doing it on purpose…

I've always been closer to Kei than anyone else. When I was little, he used to take care of me, he was the only one that could, or even so much as wanted to. I used to spend all of my time with Kei, which is why I feel so bad every time I leave the house during the daytime. I always felt to guilty, it was unfair that I could come and go freely, but Kei could never be out in the sunlight.

yuruginai sekai Unwavering world

yuki ga machi o oou you ni watashi no naka ni hirogatteyuku Like snow covering the street, it's extending inside of me

"Sho? . . . Sho. . ." It was then that I realized that I was staring at Kei, who was wide awake. "Sho!"

"Yes?"

"Is there something you'd like?

"Umm, no, why?"

"'Cuz you're staring at me like a pervert and possible murderer."

"I was…? . . . You were awake!"

"Yeah, well. It's kinda hard to sleep with smoke constantly blowing in my face. Hand me cigarette, would you."

kasuka na iro o obita sekai The world tinged with dim colors

sabishisa o shinjiru Believe in loneliness

I looked over at the abandon, and almost nonexistent cigarette in between my fingers. I handed Kei one and lit a new one for myself and I said "What's up? You don't usually go to sleep so early, is something wrong?"

"No, I've just had a lot on my mind lately." he answered as he turned on a near by lamp. Now why didn't I think of that earlier?

"Oh?" was all I could really manage.

"It's nothing you need to concern yourself with."

"No need to be so secretive, it's not as if I don't already know you're a vampire."

He chuckled and said "Really, it's nothing you need to worry about. Maybe I'm just getting a cold or something."

"… Do vampires get colds…?"

"… I don't know… I've never had one, but…"

I guess I really do love Kei. It's strange, before when I was young, I thought it was just a little crush, but now I'm not really sure anymore.

watashi wa kono sekai de In this world,

ooku no akuma o mitekita ga I have seen many demons coming

mada ichido mo kami ni wa deatteinai Yet haven't once met a god…

"… So what's on your mind?" I asked, trying to avoid the last subject.

"Umm… Well, I'm hungry…" Picture me doing an anime style fall off my chair. "Go get me a beer." he ordered.

"How will that help your being hungry?" He shrugged. "And why do I have to get it? You have legs, you should use them once in a while." He laughed again, but said nothing. I'm sure he was thinking about some perverted retort, but decided against it. "Yeah, yeah, I know: 'insert perverted comment here'." He laughed again. I always loved the way he laughed, he looked so cute, but he hardly ever does; he hardly ever even smiles, too. That's why I try to make him laugh whenever I can, but it doesn't always come out exactly the way I want it too… (a/n: Godda add a little more of Gackt's personality, ne?)

subete no kakawari o sutenakereba naranai toki If you don't throw away all your relationships when you must

sore wa horoscope That's a horoscope

I took a long drag of my cigarette before putting it out and saying "I'm going back to bed." I got up and headed for the bedroom. "You might want to get back to sleep, too. Toshi's got another job for us tonight." As I was shutting the door I head Kei say "You're the one who woke me up in the first place."

yasashii to tomo ni zankoku Both kindness and cruelty

kono komiageru mono wa nani? What is this moving thing?

It was getting pretty late now, we'd be leaving any moment now. I was standing in front of Kei, my hands clenched into fists. I gulped and finally uttered those words I've kept deep in my chest for so long now. "Kei, I love you…"

He had a shocked look on his face, which was replaced moments later by a warm smile.

"I love you too."

I couldn't believe it; this was to good to be true! Kei actually loved me back! All these years I've planed on telling him how I truly felt, worrying that he didn't feel the same way, only to chicken out at the last moment. I felt to damn relieved and happy, I was still shaking.

And then, of course…

… I woke up…

okubyou de aru to tomo ni kyoubou Both in cowardice and rage

watashi wa ittai nani no tame ni... What in the world am I doing this for...

Yup, just a goddamn dream! It felt so real this time, though. I have these dreams pretty often now, although they're not usually this G rated… ahem, anyhow… I felt cold sweat on my face and the back of my neck, I felt like I was about to vomit, gods, I even get nervous in my dreams. There were so many times I've wanted to tell Kei how I really felt, but I always get to nervous. Instead of saying "I love you." it would come out as "I… umm… well… I-eh… you see… erm… I-I…" and he'd just stare at me as if I were an idiot. I am an idiot. I can't stand it sometimes, I feels so useless. If I can tell Kei how I feel in my dreams, then why can't I do it for real, it's not that different! I'll never be able to tell him. I felt tears swelling up in my eyes. Willing them to go away I buried my face in my pillow. Kei's right, I'm such a crybaby. I'm to fucking weak! I'm sobbing into my pillow just because of a stupid little dream!

It's just not fair. I wish I were as strong as Kei, but I'm not. I'm weak and I'll never be anything more. I hate myself, I hate that person I look into the mirror and see, but I know I'll never be strong enough to change that person.

watashi no kioku no naka de kasuka ni mieru anata wa dare... Inside of my memories, who do I faintly see...

And tada! One of the sappiest moments I've ever written. -.-;; Eheh, well, tell me what you thought!

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