Title: What it seems
Author: Fallingin
Rating:R
Summary: Some things aren't as great as they seem to be.
Disclaimer: BTVS belongs to Joss and all those other big companies.
As the rain pours down on me I stare into the window of Buffy's house. She looks so peaceful, her and her family. A little boy anxiously unwraps his present that they bought for him while his mother and father look at him contently. She's happy now, I can tell. I shouldn't be here to bring back old memories of what happened between us but I can't help it, I have to see her. Five years is long enough.
Istill wonder if that I would've said I love you back she would be with me instead. That maybe it'd be me instead of that guy in there with her. Granted we wouldn't have the kid but none the less we could still be snuggled up by a fire place on Christmas eve. Her husband kisses her cheek and gets up to go fetch something from the kitchen. I wonder if she even thinks about that night we shared together. It's probably all a blur in her mind while it's a perfectly clear image in mine. We secretly dated for awhile when I came back. Then right before we fought the first we had slept together, which after Buffy told me she was in love with me. I wanted to tell her but I couldn't, I never was good with feelings. So we went our separate ways, Buffy to live her life and me to live mine.
I place my hand on the window as I sigh. I couldn't stop thinking of her the whole ride back to Boston. Yeah, that's where I've been the last few years, living in an apartment complex up there. Took me this damn long to figure out what I really needed to do. I'm not here to wreck her family, I don't expect for us to end up together and live happily ever after. I just need to tell her that that night was more to me then just a lay. To finally get this burden off my chest.
The man walks back in and the little boy runs to him. He picks him up as he spins him around and they sit back onto the couch. Buffy kisses the boy on the cheek as he says thank you and holds up his new toy. The couples smile at each other. Yeah, she happy alright, I don't know if I've ever seen her this joyful before. I should just go it's not her fault I didn't confess it to her sooner. As I turn to leave I'm faced with a cop holding a gun to me.
"Freeze!" He yells and I slowly put my hands up.
The cop grabs me by the back of the shirt and starts pulling me to their front door. I have this strong urge to just knock the shit out of him but I figure this is somebody's way of getting me to talk to her. As he still holds on to me he knocks on the door. I feel my stomach tighten as the sound of feet walking towards the door can be heard. The man I saw in there opens the door and looks confused to see me.
"Yes?" He asks and I look away.
"Do you know this woman?" The officer asks and the man furrows his brow. He was about to answer until Buffy replied.
"Faith?" My heart beats faster as I hear the voice I've missed for so long.
"Hey B." I whisper and the cop slowly lets go of my shirt. He clears his throat.
"Well seems this Faith here has been spying through the window for the last hour. Your neighbors across the street called us." Buffy quirks an eyebrow at me and I shrug.
"Thank you officer but I know her." He nods and says good night, leaving me alone to face Buffy and her family.
"So B... hows it going?" I ask casually and she rolls her eyes.
"Uhm honey do you mind if I talk to Faith alone. I promise I'll explain later." she said, sounding like she's almost pleading with him. He sighs.
"Fine but don't take to long." She grabs my hand to guide me in and we walk into an empty room together.
"Are you stalking me?" she asks angrily.
"No I was just..."
"God I have no doubt Danny is going to be pissed about this." she cuts me off and starts pacing.
"Er, B?" I say lowly.
"What!" she yells and I flinch. Okay so maybe that whole Buffy is happy theory just flew out the fuckin window.
"We need to talk about something that's been bothering me..." She looks at me with her mouth open.
"That's the only reason your here?" I nod slowly.
"God Faith! What could possibly be so important that you had to come here tonight to tell me?"
"Nothing, I'll leave!" I yell and hastily walk to the door. She grabs my arm.
"No way! Your going to tell me now."
"Fuck you, I don't have to tell you shit."
"God Faith, why do you always have to mess with my head?" she said lowly I place a hand on her shoulder and she winces. My brow furrows and I try to move the clothing off her shoulder but she pulls away.
"What's wrong with your shoulder?" I ask softly but she won't look at me. I slowly walk behind her and try to move it off again but she turns around and hits me. That's when I notice something strange. That was a full out punch and it didn't hurt more then a mere playful slap. I look at her confused.
"What's wrong with you B?"
"I'm not a slayer anymore." My mouth falls open at her confession.
"What! How!" I ask confused as hell. How can she not be a slayer anymore? Is that even possible?
"Shh, Faith keep your voice down." I calm down as she rest her hands on to my shoulders.
"How did this happen?" I whisper.
"He did it Faith..." she said trailing off with a sad look in her eyes.
"Who?"
"Danny." She states and I try to walk back out there.
"Faith no, let me explain!" She yells to me and I reluctantly turn around.
"Ok...explain." I say and sit on the edge of the bed.
"He's a warlock, he took away my slayer abilities I'm not sure how. If you try to go after him he'll do it to you to. Just let it be and don't mess with him." My fist clenches as I listen to her.
"Are you married?" She nods.
"I married him but it was after we had Tommy, that's also when I felt myself getting weaker. He finally confessed to me that he knew I was a slayer but he couldn't have a wife who was."
"You think the kid is what made you start losing it?" She shrugs and I turn my head away.
"We still have to do something B."
"Faith, why do you think I'm not happy?" I stood and she looked at me afraid. I lightly glided my fingers across her shoulder and she didn't stop me this time as I moved her shirt over to look.
"Instincts B." I whisper as I stare at the purple bruise.
"You always said you wanted to have a normal life but some how I knew you didn't. You liked being a slayer just as much as I did. Without it you feel weak." I look into her eyes for my next question.
"Is he doing this to you?" She swallows hard and looks down at the ground. I place my fingertips underneath her chin and tilt her head up.
"You can tell me." I say softly and she slowly nods, close to tears.
"Hey B, it'll be okay." She looks up at me and without even thinking I place a soft kiss on her lips. I pulled back and was sure my eyes were just as big as hers. Her fingers went up to her lips.
"Uh, sorry." I say as I run a hand through my hair.
"It's ok." she replies. I sigh and she steps towards me, placing her hand on my cheek.
"I missed it." She whispers right before her lips are on mine, kissing me hungrily. We fall back onto the bed and she straddles my waist. A little bit of light shines through from the opening door and both of us sit up rapidly. B's little boy stands in the doorway. She moves off of my lap hastily.
"Honey, what are you doing in here?"
"Daddy wanted to know what was taking you so long." The three year old responded. Buffy cleared her throat.
"Uhm, just talking to Faith. Catching up on old matters." I smile at him.
"Hey." I wave to him and he shyly waves back. He's got B's eyes I notice.
"OK mommy but he said no presents until you came back." He replied as he shut the door the best he could.
"I have to go back now." she said as she climbs off the bed but I grab her hand.
"Can we talk some time soon?"
"yeah but...when Danny isn't home though. Which should be in two days or so when he goes to work."
"Two days!" I exclaim and she looks kind of surprised. I sit at the edge of the bed and pull her towards me by her hips. She stands between my thighs now as I look up into her eyes.
"I haven't seen you in five years." I plead as my arms wrap around her slim figure.
"and who's fault is that?" she asks harshly and pulls the arms around her waist off. I frown at her.
"I'm sorry B." She sighs and shakes her head.
"Not now Faith." She looks backdown at me " In two days ok?" I slowly nod and stand.
"Can I kiss you before I leave?" She looks doubtful as she stares at the door but slowly moves towards me and kisses my lips. she tries to pull away but I hold the small of her back closer to me, deepening the kiss. She groans and moves her hands down my back, surprising me when she grabbed my ass. She pulls back and smirks at me.
"Your evil." I say and she pouts. I have the urge to just take that lip in my mouth but she pulls out of my arms walking to the door. She opens it and we both walk to the front door, Danny staring at us the whole way. I wave bye and head on my way to my hotel. Two days isn't that long.
TBC