A/N: I am very, very sorry I haven't updated in awhile! I won't take this much time off again.


Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling owns all Harry Potter characters and other related articles. I, own the plot line.



Chapter nineteen: Dreams...or reality?




'Hermione?' the voice asked again, more urgent and confused.
The light dimmed, then grew bright; flooding the room with colour.
Hermione couldn't handle it any longer; her face flushed with anxiety as she staggered towards the door on her knees, her loud sobs echoing throughout the room
'Hermione!'
Hermione felt a warm, shaky tug on her shoulder drawing her back easily.
'Hermione, it's just me' the voice said soothingly; Hermione stumbled back and fell onto the floor, her sobs becoming gasps as she curled herself up.
I'm living a nightmare...nothing's real anymore...nothing's right.
' Pavarti, go get Madame Pompfrey,' Lavendars urgent voice broke through her thoughts, slapping Hermione back into reality.
'N...no' Hermione mumbled through tears. 'Leave me alone.'
Lavendar placed her hand upon her shoulder consolingly,' It's all right, you've just had a nightmare...right?' she asked gently, raising her eyebrows with question, the oil lamps soft glow casting shadows off one side of her face, causing an uncanny shape along the side wall.
Hermione shook her head, bringing herself up with one arm,' No.' she suddenly felt herself grow tired and angry. 'No, it's not a nightmare, and it's not a dream, nothing is real' she spoke, low and silently.
Lavendar watched her for a moment before opening her mouth to speak; pausing for a moment, she breathed out a frusterated sigh,' Hermione, you'll be OK Madame Pompfrey is coming and she'll help you with these...these...' she appeared scared to say anything else; her soft blue eyes followed Hermiones glances as she solomnly gazed around the room, her face blank and expressionless.
'What in Gods name'
Madame Pompfrey arrived, her white dressing gown pulled tightly around herself with one hand as the other held a small lamp.
Lavendar stood up quickly, stepping over Hermione, she stridded over to Madame Pompfrey her expression bemused.
'Madame, she's had a nightmare'
'Oh a nightmare thank you so very much for waking me up, Miss Patil'
Hermione brushed away her tears and stood up abruptly.
'NO, It wasn't a nightmare! Honest, just leave me alone,' her voice trembled on the last word as she sucked in a breath of stifled air.
Madame Pompfrey's face glowed beneath the second oil lamp's light, her facial expressions seeming softer, warmer, and gentle, though not at all pleased with being woken up.
'You look like you need some sleep dear, come back to the Hospital Wing with me and I'll give you some-'

'No.'
Hermione walked over to her bed and fell onto the soft cushion with an echoing thump. Her mind wanted no more teasing of tricks; no more whirrling maelstroms of confusing dreams...especially clocks.
'-just a simple sleeping draft, you'll go back to sleep easily; dreamless, even,' she continued despite Hermiones' discourtsey.'You will feel much better if you just got a little bit more sleep.'
Hermione layed to her side and squinted her eyes shut, shutting out the three figures that loomed over her.
I need to figure this out...if my dreams aren't real...but...am I real?
 'Miss Granger?'
Hermione let out her breath in a deep whoosh as she curled up tighter; she had a few more hours left before breakfast...she wasn't tired anymore, and she certainly did not want a sleeping draft.
'Why don't you two go back to bed?' Madame Pompfrey instructed as her foot steps thudded towards the door.' Now good night, or...rather good morning.' A moment later the sound of creaking hinges and a second after, the sound of a door being quietly shut.
Silence.
Hermione listened to her two roommates shuffle back to bed, their blankets being pushed aside and the creaking sound of the matrass sinking as they each climbed into their beds.
'Hermione?' Lavendar tried once more.
Seeing if I'm alive, Hermione presummed bitterly, uncurling from fetal position and crawling back underneath her covers.
If I don't go to sleep, I can't wake up, if I can't wake up then I'm most likely stuck.






The mornings sun broke through the heavy drapes at the crack of dawn; her roommates stirred slightly, familliar morning groans breaking the soft silence.
Hermione slipped quietly out of the covers and stood up; wavering slightly on the spot, she placed on hand on the side of her cheek, feeling the coldness explode against the heat of her hand.
Her breath rose, visible in the fridged air cirruclating throughout the room; the silence as cold as the area around her.
Wrapping her arms around her body, she quickly stridded over to her closet, where she pulled out her clothing, including her heavy winter cloak.
Odd type of wheather for sping, she thought, bemused.
Changing quickly, Hermione sat back down on the edge of her bed; waiting for Lavendar to wake.
A few short minutes later, Lavendar awoke, noticing the coldness for the first time.
'Blimey, it's freezing!' she exclaimed, rubbing her hands together furiously, the faintest colour of pink rose to her cheeks; goosebumps began to form across Hermiones' arm.
'Yes, strange, isn't it?' Hermione commented, rising from her bed and walking towards the window.
Outside, the wind blew gentley, causing the tops of trees to quiver as mother nature blew her soft breath slowly against it's branches. The lake lapped against the shore as the wind hit it's surface; the light mornings sun shinning brightly, reflecting off the lakes blue glassy top.
'Only a bit of wind...' Hermione said, trailing off.
Lavendar looked up at her uncertinally 'Are you feeling better?' she asked cautiously, looking up at her with a slight frown.
The pit of her stomach dropped low, causing a nervous, anxious feeling to overtake her body once more.
'Yeah...thank-you for asking.'
'Sure...' Lavendar said slowly, climbing out of bed and walking slowly towards the lavatory.
'Lavendar?' Hermione asked, her mind struck with a sudden question.
'Yes?' Lavender stopped and turned around, her expression curious.
'When's the last time I woke up?'
Lavender raised her eyebrows ' Dunno, when did you wake up this morning? Or do you mean earlier?'
Hermione shook her head 'No...I mean, before I woke up earlier, when is the last time I woke up?'
Lavender thought for a second, her face scrunched up with consentration.
'Oh, I don't know,' she said at last, sighing with exasperation.' You've been asleep for awhile, I came up from dinner and you were asleep.'
'I was asleep?' Hermione blinked, confused.' Lavender...remember, the other night, I had a nightmare...I woke you up...you asked if it was more then a dream that had upset me...you asked if it was Harry, oh please, tell me you remember,' Hermione pleaded, wringing her hands nervously.
Lavender looked lost.
'Last night?'
'Oh...no, this morning...? Oh, blast it Lavender, I don't know!' Hermione lifted her hand to her forehead, shielding her eyes from Lavanders bemused expression.
'I don't remember anything about a nightmare, except perhaps the one you had a few hours ago-'
Hermione shook her head, and raised up her hand to silence her.'No really, it's not a big deal. Oh well,' she gave a faint smile to cover up the look of destorted worry clouding up her face.
'See you at breakfast, all right?'
Hermione walked over quickly to her bed side and picked up her book bag, swinging it over her shoulder. 'Lavander?' she asked before walking out the door.
Lavander poked her head outside of the lavatories door, her toothbrush in her mouth, paste foam dribbling down her cheek.
'Mhmmf?'
Hermione paused for a moment, smiling,' Thanks.'





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**A/N: I'm so, so, so sorry about not updating! This past month has been HORRIBLE. Completely horrible! School work has been piling up. I've been catching up with that. There is a new Quarter of school starting so it should be easier and I'll be updating quicker. I have the outline for the next three chapters– the last three chapters. Thank you all very much for reading and reviewing, supporting this story and everything! Thank you so much!

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