Chapter 3 – Seth's thoughts.
I can't believe she tells me this now.
I've spent all my life loving her, but somehow the moment she told me, I didn't know what to feel.
She has been my life for the past seventeen years, and everything I've done has been for her.
But she treated it all in vain.
If I go back to the beginning, that's where it hurt the most.
I can remember her laughing in my face when told the boat was named after her.
"What? Who are you?"
Who am I? Try the guy who's been watching you from afar ever since he was ten years old trying hard to figure out who the hell you were.
Each and every day more and more of you, Summer Roberts unravelled, and I saw the real you, so innocent and vulnerable. You were scared to let someone into your heart again, after your mother left you.
I saw her walk away, and I saw you crying silently, but shielding your eyes from your father so he wouldn't see.
Oh I remember very well Summer, so don't think that I don't care. Whatever we may have been through, I was there and I always will be.
I know you were angry when Anna came along, and yes I treated you badly then, and I knew I was a jerk to leave you five months ago and I'm sorry ok. I'm sorry.
But it wasn't all down to me Summer; you played a part in it too.
It may be selfish of me to say that, but it's true.
Our first kiss – you denied it, when Anna was my girlfriend before you – you tried to sabotage it and, when we were boyfriend and girlfriend – you refused to acknowledge me in public.
All it took was for me to stand up there on that kissing booth and declare my love for you.
It's something I'll treasure forever, because back then in that moment, I knew you were in love with me.
I had waited so long, and now, finally we were together.
Then there was our little break up, which lasted for like, not even a day. We got back together… then I left.
I told you the reason why, and you said we'd get through it.
How could you have been so sure though?
Remember when Marissa and Ryan broke up and it was just the four of us? That was awkward.
I didn't want that to happen to us. Part of the gang was leaving, for good and it wasn't going to be the same.
So that's why I left.
But then we returned and part of me, I admit hoped that things might go back to the way they were.
How wrong I was, because you were Summer Roberts. Of course things weren't going to be the same.
I saw you with Zach and it was like being punched in the stomach. But then I saw the way you looked at me. I still meant something to you, still your Cohen.
Now you say you saw this 'sign' and it reaffirmed to you what you had to do.
Apologise.
Tell me that you loved me.
You had broken up with Zach and you cried on my shoulder.
I didn't know what to do. I don't think things will ever be the same again Summer. I want them to, believe me.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything Summer.