Kællupha Serren

This extraordinary and enigmatic name

Which my throbbing heart does proclaim

A face so cool, so calm, so kind

That haunts my ever cautious mind

At night I can't sleep free of fears

For in my every dream she reappears

Her hand gently caressing my cheek

Turning me into someone mild and meek.

Oh, you never cease to torment me

And yet it is you who have set me free

All these new sensations

Which seem like great aberrations

I am immersed in them, unable to escape, not wanting to

All this I endure because of that encounter with you

And yet, though I am tortured so

I know I shouldn't have let you go

It was too much, to show me such love

And now I cringe and wince and sob

Because I shall never know again

The love you shared with me then

That memory that sears me even now

It has comforted me somehow

Knowing that once, though for but a moment

In an angels arms, my life I spent

Please, I want to see you once more

Though the very sight of me you may abhor

But I must hold on to that sliver of hoping

That it is not for naught that I am so groping

I am not the man I once was

A monster, a vile human carcass

But you have healed me and warmed my heart

And now I loathe the moment we had to part

Allow me at least to say this to you

For that instant when you loved me, thank you

Forgive me for realizing so late

For being utterly blinded by my hate

I shall forever want and miss

The memory of that heartrending kiss

You don't know how I yearn to be

Where you are, so earnestly

Fool that I was, I never knew

That you had given a love so true

I merely stood without response

Making you go away at once

But how, oh how can I find you once more

To speak of the love that I'm yearning for

I'm trapped in a snare of my own making

For this stupidity, now my heart is breaking

Was it a nightmare or a wonderful dream?

A fantasy is all it would seem

But why is every detail so etched in my every thought

And why I am I weak from feelings I have fought

I now face a dark and melancholy future

Bleeding from wounds that nothing can suture

Strange that now when the empire has truly shone

I'm miserable and I am entirely alone

The bitterness of your farewell

Has plunged me into the depths of hell

The suffering I am experiencing is a small price to pay

For the grave sins I've committed before today

I know that I've done some unforgivable deeds

And I'm on the painful path where my destiny leads

But if granted one last glance at your face

I'll accept isolation for the rest of my days

I whisper your name constantly

They think I'm losing my sanity

It could be that I am going mad

If in loving you that is to be had

In flames so immense I now burn

But not of hatred but of love spurned

I shall find you, no matter what

You must be well aware of that

What you had done has left me incomplete

So I shall strive to become replete

O wait for me, and let me find

Some peace of soul and mind