A/n: I make it pretty clear in this chapter. But just to make sure everybody understands, everybody knows that Chris has his old life memories, even at school! The kids at school have a rough idea of what happened to him, since as he said, The charmed family is always a good source of gossip in the magical community, since they are so powerful

CHAPTER IV:

My eyes must have revealed the truth cuz her eyes got watery. She kissed my, by now, more than burning forehead and sat down beside me to grab my hand.

I just wanted her to leave, I couldn't deal with this conversation now. I didn't know what I wanted to tell her. My headache was killing me and my fever probably got even higher. It shocked me when, as if nothing had happened, she said softly.

-"Do you remember how we found out you had the other Chris's memories?" She was speaking so calmly, it kind of got on my nerves

"DEATH MOM! You are going to DIE!!!!" I wanted to scream. "Stop acting so calm! Who cares how you found out?" I didn't really remember. I just thought everybody always knew about it. Of course, that was stupid. I mean, It's not like I was born with a sign on my forehead saying 'I remember the other Me's life.' I just never really wondered too much how they found out.

I searched for my voice, but I had probably lost it somewhere on the trail. I couldn't find it so I simply shook my head instead. What did that had to do with anything? Well… I didn't know at that moment. But again, my mom is not stupid!

-"One day when you were three, you asked me if I was going to die. I answered I wasn't going to die right then and you told me, "Mommy, promise me you'll never die." I explained to you that I couldn't promise you that, that everybody dies at one point.

Your answered was completely unexpected. You wanted me to promise you I wasn't going to die until Wyatt was very, very old. Or better you said, you wanted me to promise you I wouldn't die until after Wyatt died. Of course, I was shocked, it wasn't the regular answer to this type of questions.

So I asked you, "Why?" I can still remember your pretty baby face and looking at me with your big green eyes that always seemed so wise. Your expression turned way too serious for a three year old baby as you answered, "Because I like Wyatt a lot better when he is nice! I don't want Wy to turn evil! Wyatt was a lot nicer to everybody before you died and he is good. He was always good, no matter what they say. He tried, he was just in too much pain and he couldn't handle it. He lost his mind. I know how he was feeling. I was in a lot of pain too and it was hard." That definitely was not the answer I was expecting.

I asked you how you knew that, hoping there was any other explanation. Then you told me, as if it was the most common thing in the world, "Because I remember."

Her eyes were getting watery. She squeezed my hand comfortingly while whispering, "Everything is going to be fine, honey. Nothing will happen to Wyatt this time. "

I looked at my mom even more scared than before. She knew everything, I didn't know what to do or what to say. After that everything became a big blur. The room started spinning. I couldn't faint right now! That would prove her she is right. Worst, that would keep me in bed and guarded 24/7 for another century! I could feel my whole body shivering underneath the blankets. How did it get so cold all of a sudden? I must have said I was cold, or my mom must have seen me shivering, cuz I recall she covered me with tons of blankets as the room kept fading away.

I could hear my mom's soothing voice from the distance, trying to calm me down and promise me everything was going to be fine. The faces started spinning with the room as more people seemed to come in. Different, confusing voices beside my bed jumbled with the different, confusing voices of my delirium. I could see a multitude of Wyatt's of different ages, lives, and moral inclinations mumbling stuff that I couldn't quite figure out.

Someone put something really cold on my forehead, I tried to shake it off. I was already cold enough but a pair of hands wouldn't let me! I tried to fight them but they seemed to be so much stronger than me.

I heard Paige screaming, "Leo!" In my ear and my head dinned with pain! "Loud!" I think I managed to say cuz she left the room to call for him somewhere else.

Where was dad? Why he was leaving me alone? My other's life abandonment issues kicked in full gear with my delirium.

I could hear Patty crying and screaming, saying she wanted to come in. I guess she was outside my room. Patty is my favorite cousin. She looks up to me so much, it's kind of weird and scary. I mean, I would look up to Wy if I was in her situation, but no. She always wants to be with me and like me. That makes her a pretty determined girl, so I bet she did get inside my room.

Patty and Penny are Paige's twins, they are eight. As I already wrote, they are as popular as you can get when you are eight. Patty has red hair and blue penetrating eyes, that remind me of Wyatt's. She is a little magical oriented-sarcastic-hilarious girl. I love her, she is totally the best little girl ever!

Penny's blond hair and gray eyes started breaking hearts at the age of five. That kind of upsets me a little, I don't particularly enjoy having guys goofing around my baby cousin. But Wy freaks out so much every time a guy comes near the girls, that it is easier to leave it to him! I just pity what their lives will be like when they get to be teenagers. That is, if Wyatt doesn't turn evil this time, of course! Anyway, Penny is outgoing and chatty to an abnormal degree and also super sociable.

I have one more cousin, Prue. She is Phoebe's daughter, she takes after her mother in looks; brown hair, brown eyes. But she definitely takes after her father in personality; super shy and quiet. Prue is Wy's favorite. She was born the same day as the twins. Let me tell you that day was HELL in the house. I mean, we manage to fight demons every day, no problem. But honestly, as much as I love my cousins and my brother, I hope none of them ever gets pregnant again! Did I mention the three girls are destined to be the future Charmed Ones? Yes, the future Charmed Ones!

GEE, one wonders why I have an inferiority complex! Maybe, being born the powerless scum in the middle of the most powerful magical family in the world! Wyatt gets to be the double blessed, the little girls are the charmed ones, my mom and Aunts are the charmed ones too and my dad is a freaking elder… and, and, and…AND ME?? I just get to die in the past! Aren't I the lucky one? Life is so unfair!! How come they forgot about me when they were assigning powers?

Coming to this point, I started wondering if that was why dad wasn't coming. If he didn't care about me because I was so powerless. Ok, ok, I was being unfair to dad. He has always been there for me in this life time, and he did all he could to make up for his flaws in the other one. But give me a break, I was burning with a fever. So, sometimes that excruciating thought, which tortured the other me so much in his past life, just happens to come to my mind! Especially, when I call dad and he takes a while in coming. I am just waiting for him to abandon me at any moment and that scares me.

I think I might have started calling him in my delirium. Cuz he suddenly appeared in front of me, right when I was thinking about him. He muttered some kind of excuse to Mom and ran to my side.

-"Hey buddy! How are you?" he muttered in my ear, caressing my sweaty, damp hair.

Honestly Dad, do you really need to ask? I probably looked like one of those dead zombies we get to fight once in a while. I wanted to answer 'peachy' sarcastically, just to piss him off. Too bad I couldn't make my mouth articulate anything that didn't sounded like a bad taste groan. Did I mention that I hate being sick? Cuz I do! I don't know what is more annoying, having everybody treating me like I was a china doll. Or the fact that I can't even make witty sarcastic remarks because I can't gather the strength to do it.

I have to admit the tingle glow was a blissful relief, once again. After my dad healed me, everybody left the room. Except Mom, Dad and Wyatt, of course. My mom sat beside me and she and Dad both made me promise I was going to calm down. Which kind of promise is that? How could I calm down? It was ridiculous! But I was at the point where I would have promised anything in order to have them treat me like their overprotected son. Instead of as their overprotected agonizing china doll!

-"Ok, Wy." She said, "I want you to stay with him for the next half hour. Play something fun, relax, do anything you want… but keep his mind from coming back to thinking whatever is upsetting him, ok?"

Well, that wasn't that bad. I could think of a lot of things worse than spending some time with Wyatt. Since, my fun and luck can never last, she finished…

-" I'll bring you dinner in half an hour and then you can go to bed."

-"Does that mean I can get out of my bed till then?" I asked sarcastically with a big smile. Who knows…maybe miracles can happen.

-"He he, you are so funny sometimes, Chris." my mom imitated my sarcasm.

-"Is that a yes?"

-"Yes, that is a… yes, keep pushing and I'll force you to eat and go to sleep right now."

-"You guys are no FUN!" I whine. They weren't and I was so bored!

My mom came and kissed my forehead and whispered in my ear, "Baby, I don't know what happened or how it happened. But trust me on one thing, no matter what happens to me, Wy will be just fine. Don't worry about him, he has the best brother in the world. You made sure he had better start, had a better father, and you will make sure he always be ok no matter what happens, ok?" I nodded, speechless. "I am very proud of you, Chris."

Apparently, the whole mushy-mushy thing, I was talking about earlier, affected the whole family. I am even starting to wonder if a demon possessed them or something. Scary!

-"Thank you, Mom" I smiled widely. Well… whatever, I still have my inferiority complex!

My mom pushed my very reluctant dad out of my room.

-"So… what did Emma had to say. Did anything interesting happen at school?" Wyatt asked once they were gone. For someone that spends every waking moment trying to avoid having to go to school, he sure cares a lot about what's happening at school.

-"You should have stayed with us if you wanted to know," I said absent minded.

-"Well Emma ordered me to leave."

I couldn't help laughing. I mean, almighty Wyatt left Emma boss him around? That was so hilarious. But thinking about it, I realized it was true. Wyatt always did do everything Emma told him to do. Mental note to myself… remember that the next time I need something from Wyatt. I laughed… hard. I don't think that pleased Wyatt at all!

-"What? She is your friend, what was I suppose to do? It's not like you begged me to stay or anything. I just didn't want to bother you guys, you probably had a lot of things to talk about." He was looking at the floor embarrassed. I could see he had wanted to stay and had felt rejected. We had just thought he wanted to leave.

Usually, when everything is fine and I feel my normal inferior self in front of Wyatt, I can't wait to have him feeling inferior too. Just so he knows how I usually feel but when it happens I can't bring myself to enjoy it. Cuz Wy shows that he doesn't think he is the almighty that he is, he also has insecurities and feels as scared and lost as I feel so many times. When that happens I feel so bad for him because I know how he feels. I can't understand how someone so great could think he is anything less than perfect. That anyone in the world wouldn't love to spend some time with him, expressly me.

I looked at my brother, he looked so sad and worried. He also looked drained, like he hadn't sleep in the last couple of days and had lost some weight. I know he had been worried about me at least for a couple of weeks. Wyatt does take the big brother's duty really seriously sometimes, too serious. So, he is always checking in on me to the point of driving me insane, but today I just felt sorry for him. Was Mom right? I didn't think Wy would turn either. Plus this time, I would know which symptoms to look for and might catch it in time to prevent it. That is, if it did start to happen at all in this life.

My headache and fever were rising. I guess Wy realized what I was thinking cuz he snapped me back to reality saying.

-"I thought you weren't supposed to be thinking nasty stuff, bro" He smiled sadly.

I don't know if it was the fever, the fact that my bro was in such a bad shape or that I was attacked by the mushy-mushy demon too but…I got all sentimental and lovey-dovey with Wy.

-"You are a hell of a bro, Wy! And I always want you around when I am with my friends, because you are also my best friend. I just never thought I needed to remind you of that!"

I guess I don't tell my sentimental brother that I love him too often cuz he hugged me, tight. It was so tight I almost couldn't breathe.

-"I love you, Chris. You are the best, best ever. Please promise you'll take care of yourself!"

My brother is… ahh. God… How do I even explain? I mean… DUDE!! You are a sixteen year old guy not a girl. But well, Wyatt is very affectionate with the members of the family, especially with me.

-"OK, air for the little brother!" I kind of worked my way out of my brother's embrace just to deal with mom and supper.

My mom is the best cook in the world but when you can't eat, you just can't eat. No matter how good the food is! But my mom wouldn't listen to reasons.

Mom said she is the one babysitting me that night; Dad replaced her at the club. I am oh-so-not glad to be babysat. I asked her if I could write in my dairy and she was like, 'ok, but then you go to sleep.' So, here I am writing with her staring at me.

I am almost fourteen, come on. I don't need someone to baby-sit me! I can take care of myself. Can't I? I mean, what if she dies in two weeks… I am not ready for that. I do need someone to take care of me, once in a while. I want my mommy and the thought of loosing her is terrifying me. I don't even want to go to sleep, even if I am exhausted. I know that as soon as I close my eyes, my other memories of her death will come and haunt me. That's something I just can't relive.

My eyes are getting watery, I can feel it. I can hear my mom telling me that everything is going to be ok. While I write she is caressing my hair, hugging me, and whispering that it will be fine. I am not much of a hugging person but right now I will stop writing. I need to hug my mom back.

It was so embarrassing after I hugged her cuz I couldn't contain my tears, I was crying all over. Even my mom was shocked, I don't usually cry. I guess my mom realized how ashamed I was, being so weak and all, cuz she kept on telling me that it was ok to cry. That we were going to find a way and that whatever had to happen would happen.

Yeah, Mom… sure! But what if what has to happen is that you die and Wyatt has to turn evil? You don't know what that feels like! You never saw the world of darkness Wyatt created. You don't know how much it hurt everybody when you died. You have no idea how much it hurt to have Wyatt turn and abandon me like that. You have no idea how much it hurt to fight against my own brother. What if that was what was meant to happen?

No… that couldn't be what it is meant to happen. If it is, I will keep on coming back to the past over and over again until I save Wyatt. Even if that means I will have to die a zillion times and have the memories of zillion dark pasts and deaths. I don't care! If it is meant to be then I will keep on fighting, until it's not meant to be any more!

Somehow, thinking of this made almost everything in my bedroom start floating in the air and go smashing against the walls. Funny thing about being sick and angry, it's a pretty lethal combination; no control over my powers. Mom tried to calm me down without any success and gave up. She swore in a way she would never let me swear, and cast a spell. A spell so I would fall asleep and I wouldn't have nightmares. The last thing I heard was my mom's voice saying, 'fuck personal gain!' SHOCKING… I never thought I'd hear my mom using the F word.

April 14, 2018

-"Chris, buddy. Wake up!" I was awaken by a familiar voice.

God, that night sleep felt so good! I hadn't sleep so good since… I was my age in my other life time. Which means, I actually have never slept so good in this life time. Pretty pathetic, but whatever… this life is still better than the other one. At least, it's not like my nightmares are from this life time. I open my sleepy eyes.

-"Grandpa," I said happily.

-"So… how are you hanging on champ?"

-"Much better", I lied sitting up. He came and hugged me, I love my grandpa. I said I am not a hugging person but with my grandpa it's different!

Gomay : Thanks!! I hope you liked this chapter too! I wanted to have the Victor-Chris scene in this chapter… but somehow I started writing and the day seemed to never end! Thanks for reviewing!

teal-lover: THANKS!! I hope you liked this too!! Of course Piper figured it out, more than Chris had thought she did!! She cares too much about her little boy not to realize what's going on, still she also knows he needs his time. I hope you are not disappointed on that, they will have a conversation as soon as I figure out what Chris wants to say. Any ideas??

And yeah… everybody knows that he remembers, that is why he says it sucks that he the charmed ones are always the school gossip and the gossip about him is that he is a freak that died in the past and left all his memories to his babyself.

trina-k: I am not absolutely sure that I wont pull out the best friend- lovers card. But it wasn't in my plans… I was actually thinking it would be a lot more fun to have Emma hook up with Wyatt (though I don't know how the real Emma will feel about that) but you can kind of see in both chapters how much Wyatt cares for what Emma has to say. And I like the idea of writing Chris's upset thoughts about his best friend and his brother being together and his fears of being left alone. Yeah I love Wyatt he is always such a great character to write. And Leo is a lot cornier than Piper! Always… and Wy… well in my mind Wyatt went insane with grief and that is how he turned, I just find that is the best explanation and in order for that to happen, Wy has to be super sensitive, everything has to affect him a lot, Chris is a lot tougher. That is why in all my stories Wyatt is the one that is all affectionate and corny and Chris is the one that keeps him from being overwhelmed with his emotions. Of course Piper figured it out, more than Chris had thought she did!! She cares too much about her little boy not to realize what's going on, still she also knows he needs his time. Thanks for your review!! I hope you liked this chappie too!

phoebe turner : THANKS for your review! I am so glad you liked it. I hope you liked this too! Here is the next one, please keep the reviews coming!

foxhana: Hey I love Chris too, so we can drool about him together!! I wanted to have the Victor-Chris scene in this chapter… but somehow I started writing and the day seemed to never end! Thanks for reviewing! I hope you liked this chappie 2.

ShatteredTears89: WOW! I never thought there was that much suspense in that : ) I feel happy now YEY!! Of course Piper figured it out, more than Chris had thought she did!! She cares too much about her little boy not to realize what's going on, still she also knows he needs his time. I hope you are not disappointed on that, they will have a conversation as soon as I figure out what Chris wants to say. Any ideas?? What is going to happen?? Dun Dun…