A/N: Here goes more, any suggestions on Sawyer and " girwl" commentary, let me know via- review. Read on!
Chapter 3:
Disclaimer, I own no Lost people, wish I could own a polar bear but mama won't let me.
Sawyer woke with a start. The little girl was snoring loudly in his ear. He'd been sleeping in and out, waking almost every hour from his haunting dreams. Everyone on the island thought him to be the arrogant loser. He was, he'd admit, but no one cared about how it happened. He kept hearing his mother's screams in his dreams. He sat up and rubbed his eyes, the starless sky and dim light on the horizon told him that it was almost sunrise. He sat up and gently laid the little girl on his backpack pillow and covered her with his blanket. He sat, smiling at her. It brought him back to his memories worth remembering. The beautiful girl... the only precious thing his horrible life... ( A/N: I don't know exactly how to start a flash back so, FLASHBACK)
" Sawyer, you jackass! I'm god dang pregnant!" A hand slapped him from behind. Sawyer's Heart sank. Not now, woman, not at the best part of my gam, he thought! Renee's eyes where filled with tears.
" Are you sure!" He couldn't believe it, Not a ...kid!
" Yes, I know I am, I don't just throw up in the morning for fun! I am! Oh GOD! I am."
" Maybe its your husband's baby, maybe he got you pregnant!" She gave him almost sly smile.
" Sawyer, I haven't slept in the same bed as him in the past 3 yars." her face had changed back to terror.
" WHAT THE HECK AM I GONNA DO!"... ( end of flashback)
Sawyer shuddered as a cool breeze ran through the cave's clearing. That should have been the happiest moments of hi s life, if only he had cared.
" Sayewer?" The little girl had opened her eyes. He knelt down next to her and put the blanket back around her shoulders.
" Hey, you need to go back to sleep, I'll watch over you." Even he was surprised with his wording.
" OK, Sayewer, seep." Her eyes closed once again. Sawyer sat and watched her for a moment, thinking hard. He hadn't noticed Kate's eyes open...( Flashback)
" Is it done?" Sawyer stood up as Renee walked up to him in the candle- lit restaurant. She grimaced and sat down.
" Thank God its over." She said and took a big sip of the drink Sawyer had ordered her. She sputtered.
' I figured, with a baby on the way and all, that you shouldn't drink alcohol." he said, rather timidly compared to his usual self. She stared at him for a moment.
" Damn, this sucks worse then sleeping with my husband, and that really sucked!"... ( end of current Flashback) ( New flash back, same restaurant, 3 mo's later)
" Damn Sawyer! I can't go on like this!" She exclaimed. She looked up into his eyes
" I'm not ready fo a child."
" What do you mean?"
" You know what I mean."
" Tell me!" Sawyer knew what was coming, but he wanted her to say it.
" The clinic says it will only cost about 1000, and it won't interfere with any other pats of me if I ever wants to have children later!"
" What would that save, Renee?" He realized that he was yelling. She stood up.
" Who would have thought it, a no good loser like yourself having a soft spot for a baby fetus! I thought you were a rebel!" The restaurant manager was walking over.
" I don't need you, I'll go myself." The manager gave both of them hard stare. Sawyer lowered his voice.
' I called your husband, Renee, he knows, and you know how he fells about children." Her eyes began to widen with fury.
" He loves them, you bastard." Sawyer put his signature smirk back on.
" Thank you very much for the complement miss." The restaurant manager walked over
'"Excuse me, uh Sawyer! There is a man name Tom outside, he says it evolves the insurance agency." He pointed to the door.
" 'Scues me babe, job business."
Out the back door and into a dark alley, a tall man with a tn trench coat stood up against the wall. He greeted Sawyer like an ld friend.
" Heard all about it, man." he said, sitting down on a trash can Sawyer followed suit.
" It won't affect work, you can be sure." he said. His voice was quite certain.
" When is she due?"
" About six months." Tom smiled.
" Excellent, I have a job for you in Blakersview, North Carolina." Tom paused, Sawyer's expression had not changed.
' Theirs a gorgeous little southern belle who's 70 year old husband is in the money, a bit of fresh meat like you will turn her over, it should take about 5 months for you to work your magic..."
" Can anyone lese take the job?" Tom looked at him in amazement.
" Can anyone else? Brother, this is your job, 3.2 million is the prize money."
" What should I tell Renee?" Tom smiled.
" That your " Insurance company" is doing a stint in North Carolina for 5 months, she'll buy it, especially if she bought that you love her." Sawyer pause.
" 3.2 mil, huh, I'll do it."... ( New Flashback)
" You dirt bag! You arrogant criminal, I'm calling the police!" Christiana pushed him down her front steps.
" Its all perfectly legal, a member of your wedlock has signed the money over to me, I have no obligation."
" They'll believe me, I know they will."
" OK, go tell them, all about your steamy affair with me, aren't you supposed to be running for govaner on the propaganda that you're an innocent southern lady?" Her eyes got very wide with fear.
" Fine, take it! And let me never see your face here ever again!" She screamed and slammed the door. Sawyer go into his car, check in hand, and drove to the airport.
Once he was seated on the plane, he got out his cell phone and called Renee's number. He had, on a slip of paper, what he'd say if her husband answered. A woman answered.
" Hello?"
" Hello miss, is Miss Renee Meinike at home at this time?" There was a pause.
" Miss Meinike is currently in he hospital, she had her baby 3 days ago." Sawyer dropped his phone. He had missed it, he had missed it. He picked it up again and regained his composure.
" Oh well tell her on behalf of Sawyer Insurance company, we would like to congratulate her on the new arrival, what'd she name the boy?" Another pause.
" I'm just her maid, but I know he had a girl, I think it's named Malia Annette Meinike." Sawyer almost dropped the phone again. Not a girl! What could girls do other then be taken advantage of, he didn't know anything else. He definitely would not have kept the baby if he had know it was a girl.
" Good day sir." and she hung up... ( End of flashback)
" Sayewer! Time to play." The little girl was pulling on his arm. He looked up. Kate was up, but sitting next to Jack, talking. This little girl was the only girl on the island who would talk to him.
" Ok, what'd you want to play." She pulled him over to a patch of mud. She jumped into it, splattering herself and Sawyer with mud.
" Fun! Fun fun fun!" She sat down right in the middle of the patch.
" C'mon, Sayewer!"
" Oh what the heck." and he sat down with her... ( flashback)
" Brian, this is our insurance agency manager." Renee was giving Sawyer a look of pure death.
" And why is our insurance manager coming to see our baby?" sawyer smiled.
" Haven't you seen our commercials? We go to your weddings, funerals and anything else we can make it to!" He gave Sawyer a weary look.
" Would you like to hold Malia?" Sawyer froze. He did, very bad, but a girl... But he reached over and scooped up the little bundle of pink blankets.
" Hey." He moved the blanket off her face. She was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. From that moment on, Sawyer loved her. She opened her eyes and cooed...( New flashback)
' You missed it Sawyer! You missed her first step and her first word, she kept asking where you were, Brian's starting to wonder! Come home! Where are you?" Sawyer groaned.
" I'm in New Mexico, it was urgent, but I've almost got her..er finished."
" You'd better be." She hung up. Sawyer didn't want to go back to see Renee, he wanted to see Malia. He had spent every moment he could with her. But he had a hard job in New Mexico. Tom hated Malia, he said she was making Sawyer soft.
" Who was that, Sawyer?" Lindsay Crardinale opened th door.
" I've gotta go home." He said.
" WHAT, in the middle of the plan, you love me!"
" I do not love you, your rich!" He couldn't believe that had come out of his mouth. Her mouth opened in shock,. Sawyer grabbed his bag
" Good bye." and he walked out of the hotel room... ( New Flashback)...
" Its over Sawyer, I told Brian."
" What? Why?"
" I'm in love with him, again."
" What! Well what did he say about us." There was a particularly long silence.
" Uh, he wants full uh custody of Malia, we need you in court at uh 5'oclock on Tuesday."
" You know I love her, would I get visitation rights?"
" Once every other month, with a social worker." Sawyer just sat in silence, stunned.
' Sawyer, I..." But he had hung up, he didn't want to hear anymore. Renee was taking away the only girl he knew he could love... ( New Flashback)...
" In the present circumstances of Mr. Sawyer's lifestyle habits, I give full custody to Renee and Brian Meinike, court is adjourned." Sawyer remained seated as everyone began to get up. He could feel a tear running down his face. He didn't care though, being a hard ass didn't matter at this moment at least. He had just lost his purpose for life. Renee glanced at him but began to walk faster, holding Malia. She had her hands out toward Sawyer.
" Sayewer?" She was ushered out of the courtroom. He stood up. He had to get back to work, to get his mind off Malia, if it were possible. He didn't want to go back, he even thought she's be his reason to quit, but now that she was gone... He knew he'd never forget her beautiful face, her sweet smile, her curly brown hair...
" What are you doing Sawyer?" Sawyer looked up. Kate was standing over him, a smile on her face.
" Playin' in the mud, you got a problem?" He asked sarcastically. He noticed the little girl was covered head to foot with mud.
" No, but you might wanna see this." She walked back over to Jack, who was holding the little blanket she had been holding the night before.
" There's a message on it." He handed Sawyer the blanket. It was a patchwork quilt that seemed to be poorly made, like it's material were limited. The top blocks spelled Cecilia. The bottom had writing on it. Though it was smudged, it as readable
To whoever finds my baby,
I'm dying, try find me please. Cecilia is my baby, luv her. Help, need help. Find me so I can see baby again for last time
Sawyer looked up.
"Go ask Cecilia about her mommy." Jack pointed to her. She was rolling in the mud.
"Cecilia, is your mommy sick?" her eyes suddenly became very wide.
" Mommy sick, ut mommy want CeCe safe."
" Do you know where she is now?"
" Why don't we wait until tomorrow, we need to finish the hut." Jack aid. Sawyer nodded. Cecilia went back to her smile and Jack walked back over and Kate was about to follow until sh heard Cecilia spoke again.
' You keep CeCe safe, Sayewer, will you?"
" I'll keep you safe Cecilia, I promise nothing will take you away." Kate walked away quickly before Sawyer could see that she had heard.
A/N: Thanx for reviews, sorry for such a long chapter. I have a question for all Lost obsessed people! Is anyone mad ( like me) that there's been three Lost re-runs in a row? Give incite, read on!