Aftermath
Chapter 10
A few weeks later,
Jason was walking out of Kelly's when he bumped into Elizabeth. She looked
up at him.
"Hey, how's Courtney doing?" Jason looked at Elizabeth.
"She's getting the help that she needs," he replied, as he was about to walk away when he turned around.
"Thank you for helping Courtney when she needed the help."
"It was nothing; I just know how hard it was for me when I lost my baby.
I guess I just knew where she was coming from with losing her baby."
"Well I should be going now," Elizabeth as she walked into Kelly's.
"Goodbye," he said.
Jason sat down on the bench and started to think of Courtney and everything
that she had gone through these past few months. Suddenly he felt someone
touched his shoulder, he looked up and saw Carly. She sat down next to him.
"Thinking about Courtney, aren't you?"
"How could you tell?"
"Because I am doing the exact same thing," she said with a slight smile.
"I miss her so much, "Jason replied. Carly put her arms around Jason.
"I know you do; I miss her too, but she had to do this to get better so you and her can get
back together and go back to where you were before this all happened."
"But Carly that is the thing, I don't know if me and Courtney can get back
together. She has been through a lot these past few months."
"You still love her, don't you?" Carly asked. Jason looked at Carly.
"Of course, I do, I have never stop loving her."
"Then everything is going to be just fine," Carly said, as she stood up.
"I'll see you later, Jas," Carly said, as she walked away from Jason, but
then she turned around and sighed. I hope I am right and that is Courtney
and Jason are going to get back together.
Meanwhile in the rehab center,
"So that is why I started taking drugs. I know now that I should never have
started, but it was just so hard to forgot about everything that happened to
me."
"Thank you, Shelly for sharing with us today," the therapist replied
"Well who it is going to get now," the therapist said, but when nobody
volunteered, the therapist looked around the circle. She pointed to Courtney.
"You. You haven't said one thing since you got here, so why don't you tell us why you are here, Courtney Matthews."
"I don't know what to say."
"Just take it slowly, you can do it," the therapist said.
She took a deep breath before she began."Everything started the day that I lost my baby; it was the worst day of my life and then to find out that I could never have another child that just about killed me. I had my chance for a child, but I ruin it," Courtney said, as tears started to fall down her cheek.
"I'm sorry," she said, as she wiped away her tears.
"No, you are doing fine, Courtney. Please, go on." Courtney started talking again.
"I lost a part of myself that day, and tried to get it back, but I couldn't, not until, I got a neck injury and started to take pain medication. Then it made the emptiness in my heart go
away, or so I thought and I was back to myself, only I wasn't. I started to push the man
that I love away, and I lost him in the process," Courtney replied.
"Is that why you are here now; you got addicted didn't you?" Courtney then started to cry.
"Yes I did, I thought that would never happened to me, but now I know it can happen to anybody."
"Did your husband leave you too because you had a problem, and he couldn't
handle it anymore?" another patient at the center asked, bitterly. Courtney shook her head.
"No," Jason has been great during this all, she
thought to herself.
"Then explained to us why you think that you had lost the man that you
love?" the therapist asked.
"Because when I started to take drugs, I push him away. I never told him how
I felt, and now, I don't know if we can ever go back to where we were
before, and I don't ever know if there is a relationship between us
anymore."
"I can't do this anymore," Courtney said, as she started to cry. The therapist nodded.
"No, Courtney you did really great today."
"Now for your assignment today, I want you to write to the person that you
think to the person that you push away the most, it can be your mother,
boyfriend, whoever you want."
"Do we have to send it to the person?" a woman asked.
"No, this is just for you to do, I won't even read it. It is just something
for you to think of, and think about what you to did to the people that you
love during your addiction."
Courtney stood up and was about to walk away from a woman came up to her.
"Hi. I'm Janet. Thank you for sharing your story. I lost a baby 5 years
ago. I know how you feel, I still have the emptiness inside of me."
"Did you take drugs like me, to get over it?" Courtney asked, not sure if
she should be asking this question.
"No, I started taking drugs for a whole different reason, but I know what
you went through losing a child, I had three miscarriages, and then I
finally had a child, but now I could lose that all." Courtney couldn't believe Janet's story, she didn't know what she would do if she had to go through what she went through, more than once.
"I'm sorry," Courtney replied. Janet smiled.
"No, don't be sorry, why don't we go and have some coffee in
the cafeteria," she asked.
"Sure," Courtney said, as she walked away with Janet towards the cafeteria.
Carly was sitting on the couch when Sonny walked up to her.
"What are you doing?" he asked, as he sat down next to her. She looked up
at him.
"I was just going through our photo album. I was just thinking about
Courtney, and everything that she went through with her miscarriage. She
was so alone during that time. I don't know what I would have done if I
didn't have you when I lost our baby."
"She wasn't alone, she had us and she had Jason. She just choose to be
alone."
"Are you saying that it was Courtney's fault that she got addicted? I can't
believe you, she is your sister," Carly said.
"That is not what I was saying, I'm just saying that Courtney had family
that would have helped through her miscarriage, but she choose to take pills
instead. It was her choice." Carly shook her head.
"I can't believe you, I don't even want to look at you right now."
"Carly, don't." Sonny said, "Stay,"
"No," Carly said, as she grabbed her keys and was about to walk out of the
penthouse when she bumped into Jason.
"What's wrong, Carly?" he asked.
"You should ask Sonny," she said, as she stormed out of the penthouse. Jason looked at Sonny with this confused look on his face.
"What's wrong with Carly now?" he asked.
"Carly and I were talking about Courtney's situation, and I guess she didn't
agree with what I said."
"What did you say?"
"I said that it was Courtney's choice to take pills. She knew that she had
family, but she decided to take drugs instead of talking to us."
"You said that. You don't know your sister very well, then. I'm sure that she
wanted to come and talk to her family about how she was feeling about the
miscarriage, but she blamed herself for it."
"But it wasn't her fault; it was Lorenzo Alcazar's fault that she jumped
into the ocean." Sonny and Jason sat down on the couch.
"There is nothing I can do about that
now. It happened and we have to deal with it." Sonny looked at Jason and could tell that he missed Courtney.
"You miss Courtney, don't you?"
"Do you know how hard it was for me to leave her at that rehab center? I
didn't want to leave her there, I want to take her somewhere else, just the
two of us and make everything better for her, but the problem, I can't make
it all go away."
"Jason, I'm sure it was hard for her to leave you too," said a voice, and
both Sonny and Jason turned around and saw Carly standing in front of them.
"I didn't think you would be back so soon," Sonny replied. Carly laughed.
"I understand that you are worried about Courtney just as much as I am." Sonny
walked up to Carly.
"I am worried about Courtney." She then leaned over and kissed Sonny.
"I know you are," She then turned around and faced Jason.
"I have something for you. I didn't know when the right time would be to give it to you, but I think you should have it," Carly said, as she pulled something out of her pocket.
"This is a letter from Courtney; she gave it to me, the morning before you
left for the rehab center." Jason looked at the envelope, he didn't know if he wanted to open it or not.
"Thanks," he said.
"I'll see you two later," he said, as he walked out of
the penthouse.
"Goodbye Janet," Courtney said, as she waved goodbye to her as she walked
into the room, and sat down on the bed. She sighed. She missed her family
so much, she then took something out of her purse.
But I miss Jason the most, she thought to herself as she lied her head on
the pillow, and started to think about everything that her and Jason had
been through, from the first time that they meet, to where they are now. She
then sat up and got her notebook, and started to write her assignment for
the day.
Dear ...
But she couldn't do it, she then throw the notebook on the ground and
started to cry, All she could think about was Jason and was their
relationship ever going to be the same again, could her and Jason have a
relationship again or was it over for good?
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Meanwhile in Port Charles,
Jason was sitting on his couch when he saw the letter that Courtney wrote on
the coffee table, and he picked it up and opened it.
Dear Jason,
I'm writing this to you just before I got to rehab. I need you to know
that I still love you and I think I always will. I don't want to go to this
rehab center, but I know that is the only one that I can get better. It is
going to be so hard to say goodbye to you tomorrow. I don't know if I can be away from you for three months.
Do you think that you and I could ever have a relationship, again? I don't know
the answer to that, I don't think we can anymore. There is just too much
damage done to our relationship, mostly of what I did.
I just want to say that I never stopped loving you, even when I broke up
with you; it was just because I didn't want you to see me like I was. I
don't know if we can ever go back to where we were, but I want to thank you
for everything that you did for.
I love you, Jason Morgan, never forget that.
Love
Courtney
Jason sighed as he put the letter on the table.
"I will always love you, Courtney Matthews" he whispered to himself as he
walked upstairs to his bedroom.
Meanwhile in the rehab center,
Courtney was lying on the bed, thinking about Jason and everything they went
through together. She then started to cry. " I love you, Jason, always," she
said, as she cried herself to sleep.
To be continued.