Chapter VII:
"Chris" I screamed before I could even realize what I was doing.
"That's me kiddo, and you… so how have you been?" He asked casually, as if we knew each other forever, and then we did… I had all his memories and he saw me grow up from up there. Not only that, but… we were one and the same…
Only… we were not the same… now fear invaded me…and my low self esteemed kicked in full gear… what if he hated me? What if he thought I was a disgrace for his genes?
I tried to speak, but words wouldn't come out of my mouth. I could see Wyatt, he was also staring at the new comer in Awed, probably also wondering how would Chris react towards him.
"Chris, you shouldn't be here!" Grandma spoke.
"I couldn't leave them like this grandma!" He excused himself and something in his eyes was reassuring. I could see in those eyes that I knew so well, that he was sorry for going against what grams and grandma wanted, that he was scared of what might happen, but overall that he really wanted to help us, and that he was willing to hurt the matrons of the family and to face what ever punished they impose on him so I wouldn't have to face this on my own.
"But…" She interrupted.
"No buts… I am sorry, I really am… but I really need to talk to them." Then I noticed something else, Chris wanted and feared to meet us, as much as we wanted and feared to meet him. "Do you think you can leave us some privacy?" He asked her sweetly.
My grandma walked to him, kissing his cheek and barely caressing his arm.
"Be careful dear" She said as she faded away.
Chris looked at us shyly and sighed heavily, I could tell he was as nervous as we were but he decided he had to be the "adult" in the room. So slowly and almost shaky he approached the empty spot grandma had left.
"Tough decision we have to make, eh?" he asked walking towards us trying to fake a reassuringly smile.
"I am sorry!" Wyatt snapped before I could react.
"Sorry for what, Wy?" Chris asked sweetly, He knew what he was talking about, heck… I knew what he was talking about, but Chris was just trying to make Wy feel better.
"For what happened… for all that I did… for everything." He mumbled absentminded, with a lost and terrifying stare lost in space.
"You didn't do anything, Wy" He said patting his knee.
"Yes, I saw it… it was horrible! I saw it all!" His face contorted with pain and fear. I realized for the first time since Wy told me about the spell he cast, that he had actually seen it all, and the implications of that.
I mean, I had those memories all my life, they are unnerving and sometimes they do bring me close to a nervous brake down… but I am used to them, I was born with them.
I looked at the other Chris and I could sense he was thinking the same I was. His memories also distressed him, but he had lived them, they had formed one after the other and not all together in a mass of horrendous and dismaying memories. He had time to assimilate them.
Heck… we were the good guys in our memories… none of those were luxuries Wyatt had.
I "really" grasp the whole meaning of my brother statement for the first time; I understood why he had been so edgy and scared all day. When he cast a spell to ask what was upsetting me so much, what I was hiding, he got everything that upset me, he got EVERYTHING that I was hiding. And it was ALL at once. I knew those memories… Chris knew those memories… we were conscious of how it might affect someone if they got them all at once and unprepared.
Wyatt had seemed to manage to keep it together the whole day, probably for me, I guess; but now it seemed that seeing the other Chris relieved him of the "older brother and always composed and in charge" duty, or maybe seeing him just triggered the memories he saw or something.
I put a comforting hand on his lap, he grabbed mine and squeezed it. The other Chris looked him straight in the eyes, worried. Wyatt seemed to be in a horrible trance, he wasn't saying anything, he was doing anything, other that squeezing my hand so hard I thought he was going to break it. But in his eyes you could see all the fear of the world, his mouth was tight and so rigid, I thought he might break his jaw.
"The one thing we needed!" I thought sarcastically, though scared to death. What if by triggering all the memories back Wyatt lost it again?
"What did you see, Wy?" Chris asked him softly. He didn't answer, he was still lost somewhere, and it wasn't a pretty place for the look on his face. Chris and I shared an understanding and terrified look. "WY!" Chris yelled at him, still nothing. 'WYATT, snap out of it NOW!" he commanded firmly, shaking him a little. Wyatt seemed to react, and looked at him, a tear crossed his face. "Wy, you said you saw it all. What did you see?"
"I saw his life, my life... His memories… like Chris has yours… Wyatt's all he did, all he felt." I would have gloated about personal gain and the consequences of trying to invade my privacy, but looking at Wy's pitiful state I couldn't even think about anything but comforting him.
His baby blue eyes filled with water as he told Chris" I didn't mean to, I didn't want to do all that… I tried to stop the memories once they began… They were horrible! But I couldn't! The imagines kept on coming, the murders, the pain, the loneliness. I am so sorry, Chris. I didn't mean to…"Chris hugged Wyatt, that oddly enough was as big as him or even bigger.
"I know you didn't, it wasn't you, Wy. Remember that!" he said soothingly, lovingly. My hand still squeezed by his tight grip.
"I saw it all Chris, it was me…in one level or the other…it was me… like he is you. All that I did… how am I ever going to be able to forgive myself?" My brother asked and I felt sorry for him, he looked so guilty.
"He wasn't you, Wy." I whispered " I know you, you are a great person, a great brother. You are awesome and you have nothing to feel guilty about!"
"Yeah, I watched you guys all my life, and you are an awesome brother, and you would never abandon him" Chris said sadly pointing me " I know how much you care about him, and that you never would do the things he did." And what Chris really meant, but his selflessness would never let him express was… and that you would never do to him the things he did to me.
It didn't matter, Wyatt and I knew what he meant… it was written all over the pain in his face.
Instead of comforting him, that made Wyatt feel worst.
"You might know how much I cared about him, but apparently you definitely don't know how much he cared about you." He said gloomy, wiping his tears "And that is what scared me the most! He cared about you Chris, you were the only living person he gave a damn about. He adored you, he idolized you. He really, really didn't mean to hurt you, he was just too sick… too twisted… his judgment was too clouded by power and insanity, he honestly believed what he preached… there was too much pain to bear, and he thought it was the only solution. What if that happens again?"
My bet is that Chris stopped listening to MY Wyatt's words right after he idolized you or maybe he heard he didn't mean to hurt you, cuz I don't think he heard anything else. His face lit like the Rockefeller center's Christmas tree.
"Do you really think he cared about me?" He said smiling.
Wyatt, still upset, looked at him. Nevertheless, once he saw the smile in the face, and he read all the uncertainty and hope in his eyes, my selfless brother's heart went to him, he couldn't stay centered in his problems when he saw how much it meant to Chris to know his own Wyatt had cared about him.
"I just had a O.D of his memories, trust me they were confusing, horrible, insane and a whole bunch of other horrible and perplexing stuff, but the one thing that it came clear out of them, was that he always cared about you, till the end, no matter how sick, twisted and insane that love was. He was just too blinded to see the consequences of his actions… He honestly believed that what he did was for the best… for the world and mainly for you! He thought he knew what was better for you that is what he did all he did!"
Wyatt saw Chris' expression; he was in awed looking at him. Wy knew and I knew, that half through those words, Chris started to find it hard not to confuse my Wyatt with his own. Wanting so badly to hear his real brother telling him that it was ok, that he had loved him, he was absorbing eagerly every word and soaking himself in them, pretending it was his brother the one talking.
"And you didn't hate me when I left you and went to the past, to "betray" you as you said? Weren't you going to send someone to kill me as Bianca told me?" He asked frighten, expectation sparkling from his jade eyes.
That had been the only time his brother had been really violent towards him. Wyatt noticed the confusion in the articles and smiled, he pity Chris a little, he needed to hear it from his Wyatt so badly. He probably thought it didn't hurt anyone if he played the role for a while.
Wyatt looked at me and smiled, like asking for my permission to impersonate the other Wyatt. On the other hand, he gently squeezed my hand, that was still in his, but he had released his death grip once he noticed Chris needed him to snap out of his trance.
My brother's eyes looked at me and they expressed a thank you. I am not sure why. I asked him later and he told me "for being such a good brother, because I know that you, like he did, will stuck with me to the end no matter what, and you will never give up on me. And no matter what I do, you will still love me!." Which shocked me, it's like SOOO obvious… I mean, of course I will do that! He is Wyatt… I just couldn't picture a life without Wy!
Wyatt looked at Chris.
"No Chris, I didn't hate you… I sent Bianca to get you, because I missed you, and I knew she was the one person I could be sure she wouldn't hurt you. I was pissed, no doubt about it, you abandoned me, and I did think you betrayed me, but I certainly didn't hate you! And of course I wasn't going to send anyone to kill you! I didn't send anyone after you after that, did I? Do you honestly think not having the spell would have stopped me? I just told Bianca that so she would do it! She wasn't going to let someone else go after you, because they would have harm you, the same reason why I wasn't going to let anyone else go after you. I am sorry about what happened to Bianca, it was an accident and you know it, and I did heal her, after you left. I promise! I wasn't going to let your fiancé die… even if she wasn't even close to be good enough for you, and you deserve a lot better, if you ask my opinion."
"Nobody is good enough for me, according to you." Chris chuckled with a face damped with tears.
"Of course not! There is nobody in this planet good enough for my buddy!" Wyatt smiled smugly.
Chris pulled Wyatt into a hug and closed his eyes. I wondered what went through his head… I could infer for the length of the embrace, that he didn't want to let go for sure, maybe that he missed his brother, or that he finally heard what he waited so long too hear, or maybe how lucky I was to have this Wyatt.
But then my Wyatt could still become his Wyatt… I was so engaged in my thoughts, and the other two were so engulfed in their hug that we never heard when the door opened; we only heard the…
FRENCH "Butt kicking" SPARKLES Nahh it's not that hard I think, since is told in first person, is either me or Chris. Tell me if it is confusing. Yeah I could totally see Chris waiting there shyly till people pay attention to him, and with this adorable humble look…! I hope you liked this.
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