Chapter IX:

"I am sorry." Chris told me as soon as everybody left, walking towards me and sitting on the floor, beside my bed.

"For what?" I asked confused, I mean, what could he be sorry about? He hadn't done anything wrong at all, on the contrary, he had risk everything to come and help me, the same way he had selflessly risked everything to go to the past and saved Wyatt.

"I am sorry that you had to live with my memories and be haunted by them all the time, I am sorry that they make you go through things like this and force you to make such tough decisions." He barely whispered shyly, staring at the floor ashamed.

I felt horrible for him, I mean… I bet if he could have chosen his memories, he would have definitely lived a very different life, it wasn't his fault that his life had been a living hell most of the time. "Well… you had to live them… that oughta be a LOT worst." I told him.

"Yeah… still you had to live with them since you were born. It must be really hard to struggle with those memories as a baby. I mean I HAD a happy childhood! My life started to go to hell after my fourteen b-day!"

"As you said, I was born with them… I don't know how it is to live any other way Chris, so don't worry about it!" I smiled at him comfortingly.

"That's the problem you don't even know how it is to sleep without the nightmares, how it is to relax, how it is to close your eyes and don't see the dead bodies of your family and friends, how it is to find peace at least for one second, how it is to feel anything else but guilt…" His face contorted in an anguish grimace and I knew he was talking about how he felt more than how I felt. I smiled at him sympathetically.

" I learnt to do that, Chris… When I wake up from my nightmares, I have a great father and Brother to run to… a mother that comforts me and a beautiful green and blue world to run to… my world is not grey and black like yours… and hopefully it will never me. And having your memories allowed me to know this amazing human being that I once was, this great fighter that saved the world, sacrificing everything, even his own life to achieve it, this great human being I hope I can once be but I seriously doubt I will ever be able to fill his shoes… I won't trade the nightmares, the fear, the pain for not knowing who you are, never… I am glad I got to know you this way and now personally, Chris… honestly glad, and I wouldn't trade anything for that." I said consolingly, smiling, he smiled back at me happily. " I just wish you hadn't go through all that… I wish you could had a happy life like the one you offered to me… but there is no way you can blame yourself for the awful memories I have… you wanted them less than anyone… they are all Gideon's fault and you saved us all, not haunt us… understood?"

Chris sighed and nodded with a tiny smile.

"So what are we going to do about, mom?" I asked finally.

Chris sighed again.

"The million dollar question, right? The crucial moment in our existence!" He told me.

I nodded. " You understand why this is so complicate, right?"

"Of course… not only your fate, mom's fate, Wy's fate is at risk… but the fate of the world might be in jeopardy!" WAY to tranquilize me Chris! I thought after his remark… but I just nodded.

"Well… actually mom knows what is bothering you, she just doesn't know when, grandpa knows when but doesn't know how and Wy knows everything! And we know Wy… he is worst than Aunt Phoebe when it comes to keep a secret."

I chuckled and we heard a groan from outside the door.

" And yeah, we know you are listening, Wy… We can sense you pacing frenetic as a dog in a cage outside." Chris snigger.

I honestly hadn't sense Wy before… but I guess I had too many things in my mind…

"Yeah, WY... GO AWAY! We are trying to have a private conversation in here!" I yelled at him, more amused than upset… but now, conscious that he was there, I couldn't avoid sensing his distress " Wy… stop tripping, you are making us even more nervous!"

I could sense my brother stopped pacing, reflecting for a second, he orbed away… to Emma's… Emma's? What the hell would he go to Emma's at two in the morning for? My brother was a weird dude… I give you that… Still… I didn't have time to think about that right now.

"So what are you saying, Chris?" I asked them.

"That everybody is going to find out eventually, and they will use any method in the book; Wyatt's little backfired attempt of a spell proves it! Better get all the straight facts from the source and without any awful consequences… What do you think?"

"I don't want to think anymore… That is why I called YOU here, right?" I smiled tragically. Chris chuckled and shuffled my hair.

"That's right kiddo… everything is going to be fine!" He hugged me " I promise, I'll make sure everything turns out ok, ok?"

Wrapped in his arms I remembered how the heavy strains of the feeling he had to save the world took a toll on Chris' body and mind every day of his life, consuming his mind, soul and heart… as he fought hard to keep them. As he fought hard to save the world from the monster his brother had become, without becoming a heartless, drained monster himself.

I knew it wasn't fair to put all the burden of what might happen in the next weeks on him, but at the same time, it was such a relief… and I was so tired… so very tired of fighting… and I trusted Chris so much… he was my hero… our savior… I know he could achieve anything he set his mind on.

Lost in his embraced I felt safer than I ever did, I felt more relaxed than I had felt in a long period of time… I couldn't help feeling a warm cozy feeling. " I know!" I said, resting my head on his shoulder and closing my eyes.

Chris caressed my hair softly. "Sleep, kiddo, everything is going to be fine… I am here now…everything is going to be fine."

"You are here now…" I whispered as I surrender to slumber.

I had the weirdest dream ever… I might have fallen asleep wondering why Wy had orbed to Emma's and my unconscious played an awful trick on me…

I dreamt Wy was pacing insanely in Emma's room, alternating between gazing at my best friend sleeping and staring at the floor worried as if contemplating if he should wake her up or not. I guess his tense and restless pace decided for him, waking her up.

Emma jerked up startled and scared, about to scream, till she saw the man in her room was Wyatt.

"Wy… what are you doing here?" She asked stirring sleepy...suddenly she panicked. "Is Chris ok?"

"Yeah… he is fine" He said looking at her… the pain, anguish, fear and another 1000000 awful feelings he was experiencing at that moment clouding his baby blue eyes that were struggling against the tears.

"Then what's wrong, sweetie?" She said… doubting whether to say the last word or not. Her tone, usually playfully cocky around Wy, was now, despite herself, sweet and caring, actually I've never heard Emma speak to anyone as tenderly and sweetly as she did right then.

Wyatt walked to her and sat beside her in her bed. Emma held his hand comfortingly and he smiled at her thankfully.

"I wanted to know what Chris was hiding… I had to know… and I am glad I did what I did… but it's hard to live with the consequences."

She looked at him worried…she probably had never seen my brother in such a weak, vulnerable state; and I bet she definitely never thought he would run to HER for comfort.

She shyly tried moving his unruly hair out of his face, touching softly his skin… He closed his yes, sighing, her touch evidently relaxing him a little.

"Wy… you are scaring me… what did you do?" She said softly.

He looked at her with his eyes full of pain and told her EVERYTHING… remembering the other Wyatt's life, how my mom died, what happened, how horrible he felt knowing how many murders his other self committed…

" I killed my own BLOOD, Emma… I blew them up, I stabbed them, I snapped her neck…" He said… his eyes were filling up with tears as the evident look of horror and disgust in his eyes showed he couldn't get those imagines out of his mind.

Emma couldn't help hugging him, tight…and he let himself be pulled into her comforting embrace.

"Oh Wy… that's horrible… but that wasn't you!" She said caressing his hair.

"How could I ever become that monster?" He cried.

Emma cupped his face and looked into those teary eyes.

"I don't know, honey. I honestly don't… I can't even understand it…" She caressed his cheek "you are just too sweet, too good… I just can't see how you could have ever become that."

"He should have killed me…I don't deserve to live!" He said coldly.

"Oh honey… don't ever say that… it's not true… He would die without you…I am so sorry you are feeling like this…is there anything I can do to make you feel better?" She asked him.

Wyatt sobbed one more time and then he said… shyly… real timid… I've never seen Wy been so bashful about anything.

"Actually there is a thing I have wanted you to do for me for a long time now, but I don't know if you will do it."

"Anything, Wy… if it makes you feel better" And she meant it "What is it?"

"This" Wy said softly, placing his hand on her cheek tenderly and pulling her into a sweet, tender, loving kiss that seemed to last forever. YUCK!

Is my unconscious pulling me a sick, twisted and very disgusting joke? Do I really have to dream about my bro and my best friend making out? This definitely has to be the worst dream EVER. And I had quite a lot of awful dreams.

"I've been wanting to do this for so long" Wyatt whispered when they pulled out from their disgusting lip fight.

"Why?" Emma asked really surprised "You can have any girl you want… any of the older girls would love to be with you." She said humbly.

"I don't want to be with any older girl, I wanna be with you!" Wy smiled, caressing her cheek adoringly…YAICK! Someone please HELP ME! "Why… don't you want to be with me? Did you kiss me out of pity? You didn't want to do it? You can tell me… I'll accept the rejection and never try it again… I promise!" Now my brother's insecurity kicked in.

Emma smiled and caressed him back. "Of course I wanted to kiss you, silly" Wyatt smiled broadly. She continued. " I just never thought the double-blessed, star of every sport team, most popular guy in school would look my way."

Wy chuckled…

"And that's me?" Emma nodded. Wy shook his head chuckling "I mean I don't know any other double blessed around… but the rest? Don't you think it's a little too much?"

"Come on Wy…you know how popular you are… and I am only fourteen… I never thought you even knew I exist… let alone, even peep my way!"

He pecked her lips, smiling, amused.

"Well… you would be surprise to know for how long… how did you call me? The double-blessed, star of every sport team, most popular guy in school have been gazing your way… and your way only!" The he suddenly got serious " I just hope that you are not kissing me, just cuz you think I am the double-blessed, star of every sport team, most popular guy in school" I guess that happened to Wy before cuz he was looking at her sadly.

"Do you think I am that kind of girl, Wyatt?" She asked confused, annoyed, yet a little moved he could be so insecure when it came to her.

Wyatt shook his head childishly and grinning lovingly. She pulled him from his collar and engulfed him in an eternal kiss as they both smiled blissfully and silly.

Would someone please be merciful and wake me up or kill me… whatever is easier… I don't care!

"What are we going to tell Chris?" One of the two asked, and of course whenever the important part comes… someone grants me my wish and wakes me up.

I was awoken by the grip of someone in my shoulder and a hand covering my mouth, preventing me from screaming.

Midnight murderer: Tks! I hope you liked this too.

phoebe turner: Well I am glad you liked it cuz there is more Piper/Leo- bonding to come. For now some Chris-Chris and Wy-Emma, I hope you enjoyed it.

Victorious Light: I am so glad you liked it! And hopefully you will be able to keep on reading soon and like the other chapters and this one.

ShhhDon'tTalkDon'tTalk: "Naw, I don't wanna give Piper a spanking, I just wanna cover her sons in whipped cream an lick it off them...slowly" Honey I am all for that! I mean to have them licking it of ME and Me licking it off them… hmm My imagination is having such a pleasant trip right now! Here is your update… and now Ill be writing my own personal whip cream scene for my own gain and pleasure and for my eyes only!

Nikki14u: Oh… tks… I feel humbled by your review… I hope you liked this one too :)… that was so sweet!

Pukah: "No pink elephant, then TT but Piper was the second better choice..." heheh I wonder what Piper would say about something like that… like OK.. are you saying a pink elephant is better than ME? Piper is a girl with quite a character you know! No wonder his kids are like they are! Hmm well I hope you write that new fic, though I know the feeling… I can't finish the ones I have, and I get this ideas for more and more that I want to write! Yeah I know… Chris' death was like the worst thing that could ever happen… and we need to find a reason, we need to keep him alive… GEE we at least need to know what happened to him and if Wyatt is ok or not? It's like DUDES do sth…at least CRYYY he is dead for god sake! Well I hope you liked this chappie 2… And what do you think… is it the pink elephant now? Though it's kind of hard to gag his mouth being an elephant and all… but it could be a magical elephant.. right… after all it is Charmed!

FRENCH "Butt kicking" SPARKLES Well here is the conversation between Chris and Chris, hopefully you are not disappointed… Chris comforting the other Chris, while the other Chris comforts Chris… kind of confusing, but true nonetheless… I mean they are one and the same… so they feel pretty much alike.

teal-lover: Ahh you always move me with your reviews… I am glad I finally made the dolt provoke some kind of emotional response on you… he is kind of a dork, but nice nonetheless…I promise he likes his kids… at least in my fic. I hope you liked the Chris-Chris interaction.

Nathy1000000: No te esperabas que fuera Piper… JE JE JE… es el suspenso que mata! Y ahora quien sera? Por ahí dicen que un pink elephant… pero dudo, los elefantes no tienen manos…ahhh que divina… en serio te gusta tanto mi Chris… aunque ni se comprara con tus Chris y Wyatt y su spell… que me fascina… es mortal, mortal. Espero te haya gustado la Chris-Chris interaction y que no te haya disgustado la escena romantica de Wy… un poco de amor frances nunca viene mal:)