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I want to run away
Never
say good bye,
I
want to run away
And
never wonder why:
Faith
sat feeling broken down and defeated, someone
new
had come into her life and she had trusted them
and
they had screwed her over, just
like
usual.
Gwendolyn
Post. Faith had really believed she had
found
someone to be in her corner, but she had thought
that
before. For instance she thought
that
about Buffy, only to find out she was sleepin
with
the enemy. Literally. Angel, a vampire.
It
turned Faith's stomach to think of the two of them.
She
thought she had felt something growing between
her
and Buffy, only to find out it
was
all a lie. She had just sent Buffy away, it had
been
hard and she had hesitated, but it had been for
the
best. She was somewhat surprised to find herself
crying
and all alone. Well crying at least, she was
always
alone.
"Faith,"
she looked up in alarm to see who had spoken,
surprised
to see a woman standing at the foot of her
bed.
She started to jump up; to ask her what she was
doing
there, but then a feeling of calm took over her.
"Who
are you?" Faith asked as she stared in awe at the
woman.
She was very tall and her skin had a greenish
tint
to it, where it showed through the layers of
billowing
white fabric. Her hair was white
blonde
with pale pink streaks; Faith couldn't help but
find
her beautiful.
"My name is Jiya," she smiled.
"Jiya?"
Faith rolled the name around in her mouth,
finding
it warm and almost liquid in her mouth, she
started
to close her eyes, feeling sleepy all of a
sudden.
"The
powers that be sent me. They wanted it clear
that
your pain does not go unnoticed by them. They
know
the great losses you have faced."
As
if a movie was turned on, Faith saw the faces of
everyone
who had left her in her mind. Mom, grandma,
brother,
watcher, Gwendolyn. And
now
she had pushed Buffy out. Anyone she cared for
left.
Faith found herself crying again.
"So
they know about my pain? Very comforting
considering
they're the ones that caused it," she
cried,
loosing composure. "Was it a lesson?
A
test? I'm I their fucking guinea pig? See how far
they
can push me till I crack? Cause let me tell you I
am
almost there?"
"They
didn't have a choice. They are offering to make
some
amends for you," Jiya spoke softly, her words
soothing
Faiths raw emotions. "You get one desire,
name
it and it's yours." Faith barely considered the
options.
"I
want a new life, the whole thing. Don't make me a
slayer
and let me have the normal life I should have
had."
Jiya was quiet for a minute as she considered
this,
Faith waited, holding her breath.
"You
realize everything you would be giving up?" Jiya
asked
finally, Faith laughed bitterly.
"You
mean this dump?" She asked, looking around the
room.
"I'll take my chances without it."
"This
means you will never have known anyone here, not
Buffy,
not any of them, and they won't remember you."
Jiya
sat on the edge of the bed next to Faith.
"They don't remember me now," Faith said softly.
"As
you wish," Jiya placed to warm fingers in the
middle
of Faiths forehead. For a second it felt like
fire
rushing through her body, images and memories
being
ripped from her, new ones replacing them.
Then
nothing.