Loved and Alone

Awkward Silences

Pairing: House and Cameron

Disclaimer: None of them are mine.

Note: Thanks for all the reviews! You all are so nice!

Dr. Allison Cameron walked into the office, already noticing how slow the day is going to be. Chase was doing a crossword and Foreman was reading a newspaper.

"Hey," Cameron said happily. She was trying to lighten the boring mood up.

"Hey…" Chase and Foreman replied dully. They didn't even look up. They just kept on going with their, oh so, busy lives.

Nice...that helped a lot. Cameron thought. At least House isn't here yet.

House. Just thinking about him made the butterflies in her stomach flutter. I have to stop thinking about him.

She put her jacket on a chair and went straight to the coffee machine. Wow. I actually didn't have to make it today. She wondered why. They're that bored, huh? After making her coffee, she sat down to where her things were and stared at the board. The blank…white…shiny…board. It was so blank, that it almost looked as if it had been polished. Oh dear God. Please don't tell me they did that, too.

"I take it there's no case." She said, pointing out the obvious. She had no choice. There was nothing else to talk about.

She realized no one was answering her. "Hello? Anybody home?" She wanted to start a conversation…badly.

"Well we figured you already knew the answer to that question." Foreman said even more dully than before. He seemed to be more interested in the newspaper than Cameron's point-the-obvious conversation.

Cameron didn't answer. She was about to get up and go to the clinic when she saw House approaching. That's when her body decided to disobey her and stay where she was.

She watched House open the door and saw something. Fear. Fear that he's going to have to talk to me? She turned to pick up a part of the newspaper Foreman was reading. But while she was reading her eyes kept looking up to see House. However, when she looked at him again, she saw exactly what she didn't want to see. His expressionless face.

Cameron stared as he got some coffee. When she realized she was staring, she immediately shot her eyes back at the newspaper and started reading. I hope no one saw that.

But her realization was a little too late. Foreman saw her. He wondered why she did that and what that look on her face was. Of course, he wasn't going to say anything, now. But maybe later. He thought.

House took a sip of his coffee and stared at Chase, then Foreman, and then Cameron. Why does she have to be so beautiful? He decided to scratch that thought out of his mind. "Well, hello to you, too, my busy ducklings." House said sarcastically.

"Hey…" Chase was the only one that replied. But, just as his reply before, it was dull.

Well today is going to go very slow. House thought. "Well, seeing that all of you are so bored, and probably tried everything to keep yourselves busy, why not try clinic duty. Of course I won't simply because my leg is killing me today." And at that, he limped into his office.

"Actually I'll go and try that." Cameron said, getting up.

After clinic duty, Cameron met up with Chase and Foreman at lunch. Chase talked on and on about this new girl he was dating named Jennifer. Cameron and Foreman replied to his dull idea of a conversation with sarcasm. After that, he left, leaving Foreman to talk to Cameron.

There was a long silence as Cameron and Foreman were finishing up their lunches. But Foreman decided to break it. "What's up with you? And don't say 'nothing' because I saw you staring at House this morning. I know something happened."

"It was…" Cameron started to say, and she knew what was going to come out of her mouth next, but she ignored Foreman's comment..."nothing."

"Every time someone says 'nothing', it's a proven fact that it's always 'something'.

"Well I talked to House last night…and it was kind of awkward." Cameron started to blurt out. She wanted to stop, but she needed to get it out. It was killing her inside that she wasn't saying it.

Cameron noticed he wasn't replying so she decided to keep talking. "I told him it was good to know that he can love." Cameron swallowed hard at what she was going to say next. "But he just couldn't love me."

"Do you?" Foreman asked. "Do you 'love' him?"

"I…I don't know." She stuttered.

"Somehow, when you say it like that, it's almost as if you really wanted to say 'Yes I do'."

Cameron hated the fact that Foreman knew her too well. He was right. I did want to say that. I just didn't know if I should. She thought to herself.

There was a long, awkward silence. Foreman then noticed that they were still at outside, sitting at a lunch table. He looked at his watch. "Look's like lunch is over. I should get to my clinic duty." He picked up his leftovers and threw them out. "See you later Cam."

"See ya." Cameron said. She picked up her things and left. But where was she supposed to go? She had nothing to do. She decided that she would go to the office and sort House's mail. I just hope he isn't there.

House was sitting on a couch, far from his office, by himself. He was thumping his cane on the ground. He put his face near the top of it so that when he picked it up it would hit his forehead. Wilson, who was passing by, gave him a weird look.

"What are you doing here?" Wilson asked, confused. He looked at his face. He noticed House was a little…disturbed? "You do realize that your office is across the building from this very spot, right?"

House sighed and stopped the thumping. He looked around. "Oh my god, you're right! I must've gotten amnesia!"

"Ok I get it. You're avoiding Cameron." Wilson sat down across from him. "What did she do now? Give you another present?" He tried to use sarcasm.

House gave him an annoyed face.

Apparently the sarcasm didn't work. "Just tell me. You're going to have to eventually anyway, so why not now?"

House looked at him and sighed. "Cameron told me she," there was a long pause, "that she loved me."

Wilson stared at him even more confused than before. "Did she actually say that?"

"No. But that's what she meant." House saw Wilson's confused face. "She said she was happy I could love, but it couldn't be her."

Wilson was taken back. So she was saying that she loved him. "Okay, so she cares about you. Why do you care so much? Usually you wouldn't and you would just pushher away."

"I wanted to correct her." House said shamefully.

Wilson swallowed hard. "Correct her on which part? The part where you can love or the part where she said it couldn't be her?" Wilson asked almost scared of what House might do.

"The second part." House said with fear.

Wilson stared at his friend. Never in 5 years have I seen him like this. So concerned… about…a woman. Wilson thought about this. I never thought I would ever see him love again.

"Maybe you should try talking to her about this." Wilson knew it was a bad idea. But, hey, if he could love again who knows what could happen.

"Yeah and maybe your marriage will actually work." House replied.

Damn…at least I tried. "Point taken." Wilson just realized that he still had a patient to attend to. He looked at his watch. Shit. "I have to meet with a patient, so I guess I'll see you later." Wilson got up, but right before he left he said, "I still think you should talk to her, though."

He left House to think the idea. Damn him. He tells me what to do in this type of situation, yet his marriage is a wreck. Maybe… House knew what he had to do. He got up and left, leaving only a warm spot on a couch. Maybe talking to her isn't such a bad idea.

Author's Note: Please review! Sorry this chapter was so crappy. I couldn't think of anything good. No flames please. Constructive criticism would be great, though! Also, I'm not a House/Cameron shipper, but I'm not against the idea either. What I'm saying is that this story can go both ways. Just a warning.