A/N: Noticed the Star Wars reference in the previous chapter? No? I thought so, it's nothing big anyway..

Anyway, this chapter is HOT, and I'm really looking forward to read your reviews on it, cause I've never written anything like this before.. so please review when you're done reading :)

and, don't worry this isn't the last chapter

Pairings: NamixZoro

Author: Elnora

Disclaimer: Me do not own se One Piece, se One Pece belongs to se sensei-Oda and not me…

Remember thinking and 'speaking'

Part IV

Silence filled Nami's head. It filled the empty space between her and him. you coud hear distant birds squeaking. She had so much to tell him that you could almost hear her emotions speaking... She regretted so much for everything that happened. Her head bent down to stare at her feet again.

'Nami?'

'What is it?' She said, a little angry, fighting the tears once again. That came out a bit too harsh. She feared his reaction to that. She wished she could be everywhere else but here. But then again she really hoped that he would hold on to her and demand her to tell him the truth.

'I-I'm sorry… I thought that you… God I feel so stupid.' Zoro growled lowly. He let go of her quickly and disappeared. Nami's eyes filled with tears.

'I can't…' She whispered and dropped to the floor and hid her face.

I just can't let you. Though it's what I want the most.

She dried her eyes and looked up at the sky. There was never any sweet mommy comforting you. There was never anything that fit her. The only good thing happening to her was meeting Ruffy and his crew. Paying Arloong, to get the city as they had agreed, would go wrong no matter what because of the agreement that bastard had with that marine rat. If it wasn't for Ruffy and the rest, that is. Now Arloong haunted her again. She bit her lips and punched her hand into the deck of the ship. There was so much anger that would never leave her.

Don't tell me that you could possibly believe, that though I'm dead, you will be able to live a normal life.

Arloong's voice echoed in the back of her head. That was what her told her just before he died.

And he was right.

…

Nojiko was alone in their house and Nami was trapped almost day and night to draw maps to that horny shit-head. What kind of childhood is that?

Most of the abuse seemed to be because he could.

Just because he had the fucking power…

For the first time in her life, she had the chance to be with a man that she really believed she could trust and love.

And she was too weak.

She rose unstably to go to bed. How did a great evening like this end like that? She sighed to herself.

As she slumped inside she glanced longingly at the door to the boys cabin.

I'm the one who's stupid.

The following evening things had settled down. People were still talking about the night before. It had been some time since the crew had gotten that drunk. Sanji had prepared a big nice meal to celebrate their friendship.

Nami felt better after crying out yesterday. She had been laying in the sun playing cards with Chopper, Usopp and Ruffy. Reading the newspaper and practically taking a day of. The weather or their course, barely changed.

She walked into the kitchen to join her friends at the table still laughing at some joke with Chopper.

They ate and listened to Usopps thunderous adventures, while Chopper seemed to be the only one believing in him.

The light in the kitchen was dim and nice. The weather was warm.

When every piece on the table was gone, Nami insisted on washing the dishes. Sanji insisted that he should to do it, but Nami had already begun. Everyone left Nami to the dishes, which fitted her perfectly. She needed something to do.

She jumped when she heard tramps and someone entering the galley.

'You don't have to help me Sanji.' She said smiling not looking up.

'He knows,' the swordsman said, and began to help her wash the dishes.

She tried to reach eye contact but he never even peeked at her once. She got nervous but locked her eyes at the plate she was doing. Her hands was shaking a bit and she put all her effort into preventing them from shaking.

Nami could feel Zoro getting impatient with Nami. Obviously he couldn't get out of the kitchen again fast enough. He shone with sadness.

'I didn't ask you to help me.' She tried, trying to sound nice.

No answer. Nami mingled with the glasses, but almost before she was done washing one he practically ripped it out of her hand.

He did again with the second glass.

Nami held her breath steady.

What the hell was his problem.

He did it again, but that was to much. Before Zoro had grabbed it Nami tossed it to the ground.

'Goddammit Zoro, what the hell is your problem?' They were both red from anger.

'It was going to take all night!' He sneered.

'I didn't ASK you to help me! Stop messing with me! I'm not somebody you can drag around were you'd like, like you do with Ruffy!'

But Nami regretted it the minute she had said it, though they both knew it was true. Zoro advanced towards her taking very fast steps. She backed away. She bumped into the wall behind her and Zoro's strong hand grabbed her by the collar. Nami gasped scared. This was the first time in her life she had been afraid of Zoro.

Zoro face was inches away from hers.

'You stupid bitch!' He screamed into her head.

Nami would dodge his yell and turn her head.

'Look at me when I'm talking to you.'

I hate him I hate him I hate him.

'Let go of me Zoro…' She whimpered. She couldn't get back at him now. She was scared.

She forced herself to meet his eyes.

I'm stronger than this.

'I'm not one of those kind and blank women, you always picture them to be.' She whispered.

I will not get upset. Or else all I have fought for is lost. I'll go to his level.

Her feet almost lifted from the ground.

'Please let me go.' She whispered again.

'WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?' Somebody yelled and kicked Zoro very hard in his face. Zoro was knocked backwards and Nami fell helplessly to the ground crying.

Sanji ran over to her and tried to make eyecontact but she hid her face.

'Nami! Are you all right? Nami talk to me!' Sanji shook her desperately.

'Nami! Did he hurt you? Nami did…' Sanji's voice became a distant sound, as the fury inside Nami grew. She pushed Sanji to the floor.

Nami stepped over to Zoro who had just got up.

'That I am not what you prefer me to be! How dare you touch me….!

I sure as hell am not a lower being than you!' She yelled and stalked out of the kitchen.

'Stay here when I'm talking to you!' He yelled after her. Nami turned around to stare at him.

'SHUT UP ZORO! When you do not call me stupid bitch you tell me what to do! NOW you grab me by my collar because you are angry! What's wrong with your twisted mind?

Do you not think I've had enough of this? ALL MY LIFE men have told me what to do or used violence towards me! I've been abused my whole childhood!

I'm NOT one of your whores whom you can torment because you cannot maintain your issues yourself!

You were about to hit me if it was not for Sanji! Were… Were you gonna kill me… I… I can't…' Her voice trailed of and she collapsed to the floor and hid her face.

Time stood still

From all the yelling everybody had to be standing there to stare at them but she didn't care. Her insides screamed. Screamed for peace. Screaming at the man in front of her.

'Sanji get the fuck out of here.' Zoro growled.

'You don't really think I'll let her alone with you!

'GO Sanji!' Nami yelled. This was none of his business. Sanji left them alone in the kitchen.

Silence was complete. Nami looked up at Zoro. Tears streamed down her face, but not a sound escaped her lips. Zoro hid his face in his hands letting them slide over this green short cut hair.

'You're breaking my heart.' She whispered and looked away before their eyes met.