Obsession or Possession
Chapter # 5 My Broken HopeOnce again, Shido woke but this time with the feeling of loss and emptiness. Why had he even tried to escape, what more was left for him? The second life he had built for himself was gone, his loved ones were out of his reach, and him and empty shell of eternal miserable life and regret.
He reluctantly opened his eyes, ocean blue met the ceiling. He didn't dare look to the one beside him. Shido found himself at a loss for words, he wondered why he was damned to live such a hollow life. The sorrowful vampire took a deep breath lying comfortably on his former mates heaven soft bed.
This made him think, ' what is heaven like? Is there such a thing as heaven?'
He wished his whole world would black out then, for a candle never to cast a light in his eye again, to pass on and be free. Would he go to hell, or had he been in it his entire existence?
'If there is a heaven, Riho would be there,' thought Shido, she would be dressed in a garb of white and wings that would enclose him in a warm embrace, welcoming him home.
But again the silence brought him out of his longing reverie to Cain who was sitting deathly quiet next to him. Without moving his head, Shido brought his eyes to meet Cain's emotionless face. His arms were crossed and his sleeves singed. There was no anger in his cat eyes, he was just staring, boring a hole into Shido. He hadn't moved an inch, looking to be a dark ivory statue in the dim room. Occasionally the dancing laughter of a candle crossed his features, Cain was neutral.
Yet, silence never lasts forever, as the occupied chair creaked when Cain uncrossed his arms and moved towards the bed. Shido could see the tiny microscopic dust particles swirl with the sudden movement in the light of the candelabra.
Cain picked Shido up, sat, and then laid him back down to rest on his chest. Stroking his hair soothingly, Cain rested his chin atop Shido's lavender mane. Shido just decided to lay limp in his former lovers arms, he listened for a heartbeat but his findings were true, Cain never did and never will have a heart. It's true Cain did love Shido, but it was an arrogant love, and one sided.
Cain finally spoke, " I thought I had lost you Shido, this feeling you are feeling now I have felt ever since you left."
Shido felt a rumbling vibration from Cain's chest when he spoke. Looking down he got a closer glimpse of Cain's tattered shirt.
"What happened to you?" asked the now timid vampire.
"When I pulled you in I was scolded by the sunlight, but I managed to shield you," Cain said, his hair looking disheveled.
He couldn't believe it, but he actually felt a tinge of guilt.
'No Shido! Get a hold of yourself! Break free! Get out of this scum's arms and leave him for good!' screamed a voice in his head.
But Shido felt nor had the power to resist, he felt weak in his former masters hold. Was his will shattered when he was deprived once more from death?
"Why can't you let me go?" whispered a barely audible Shido.
"Because I love you Shido," Cain simply retorted moving across the bed to hover over his rebellious creation.
"I am to tired and weak in this state to scold you, but as punishment for your insolence I shall claim you once again."
Alarm went off in Shido's mind, he thought Cain was being too nice and for a change he was enjoying it, until the arrogant selfish bastard resurfaced again.
The young vampires eyebrows met, "do not even attempt to put your disgusting mark on me Cain!"
"Shido your body cannot resist the call of my caress, I shall overpower you," teased Cain with laughter.
WARNING!Kinda lemony stuff up ahead
Shido went to sit up but was pounded into the headboard by Cain's aggressive masculine forum. Cain took both Shido's wrists and held them above his head with one hand, leaving the other free to unbutton his shirt. The blonde vampire lowered his head, his mane of golden hair flowing off his shoulders. He licked up Shido's abdomen torturously as if savoring the taste of long forgotten wine. Shido squirmed beneath him, causing a smirk to play across Cain's lips. He moved upward more to tease one of Shido's taut nipples.
Shido clenched his teeth, wondering how long he could take such torture. His vampire instincts were taking control, which was exactly what Cain had hoped for.
"Listen to your instincts Shido," breathed Cain against his flush skin.
Shido's eyes stole amber as he bucked upward. The lavender haired vampire had always thought Cain to be cold but at the moment his touch seemed like scalding hot fire burning at his flesh. Shido slipped a hand away and up to cradle a lock of Cain's golden hair, reveling in the feeling of its soft texture. This brought him to a memory, one of when he was just a fledgling. He had missed the sight of the sun when he was just a newborn vampire and he often looked to Cain's bright golden waves that resembled so much the suns warmth and mirth, it was ironic to say the least. That the very creature who took the sun away from him had given it back. He was however brought back from his wanderings by Cain's mouth descending onto his. He gasped audibly which gave the blonde vampire the advantage of slipping his tongue between Shido's bruised lips. Cain took Shido by the waist and arched him up against his frame and at the same time tilted his head back for better access.
Shido moaned as Cain took it into his mouth and ran his velvety tongue over Shido's pointed fangs one by one. The blonde vampire then sank his own canines into his lovers bottom lip sucking and lapping at the blood that coursed out making him seem to grasp onto life as Shido's hot sweet blood ran through his veins like searing fire so hot at the same time it was cold. Cain shivered at the sensation just a small amount of blood could give him. Looking down into his child's hungry pleading eyes Cain bit his own tongue and continued his ministration on Shido's mouth. As Shido tasted the dominant vampires blood that tasted of old wine, spice, passion and haunted autumn walks in the night. His former masters blood brought so many memories back to Shido but among them all one stood out, a very recent one indeed.
It was of the night his worse nightmares had been realized, the night this all began. The words that wrung through his head and wracked his brain.
xXx
"What are you going to do?" he asked.
"Shido if this time you don't come back with me, I will possess you and take the lives of your precious pets. I'm sure your human companions would be surprised to see you as the one killing them."
"You lie you can't possess me Cain!" Cain laughed.
"Shido I am your creator I control you, half your blood is mine and half of mine is yours. How do you think I brought you here? I controlled your body against your will and made you come. In fact I could make you go back with me by doing just that, but I've been generous and let you have your fun. Your quite lucky I don't make you do other things Shido."
"Bastard you would never be able to do that!" replied Shido.
"I can and will, are we not the distant cousins of the breed we to can possess things."
xXx
'Wait,' thought Shido, 'half your blood is mine and half of mine is yours.' Those words stuck out like a sore thumb and that's when Shido got an idea, one that could end his misery and the rein of Cain.
The feelings of a certain someone's fangs grazing across his neck brought Shido back to reality. Cain was unbuttoning his pants and his own as well in haste. Shido timidly took his hands and stopped Cain's with his own. This was his chance he thought sitting up.
"Not yet Cain, it's my turn," purred the lavender haired Shido.
Cain was surprised at first but soon let Shido lay him back on the bed. His lover crawled over him like a pouncing feline a gleam in his amber eyes. Shido sat on top of Cain, he was thankful he hadn't let his body have its way or Cain would be pounding into him tearing awful screams and moans from his lovers throat, once again claiming him as his mate, sinking his elongated fangs into his neck marking him for a time. He was thankful for that one drop of blood that had freed him from his unwanted passion.
Now he had a plan but needed to make it believable and in a way seductive. He knew just what would appeal to his former lovers tastes as he tore open Cain's shirt with a snarl, the buttons popping off and hitting the near by walls with a clack. Being as devilish as he could he strode his nails down Cain's abdomen drawing blood as he went, this sent a chill down Cain's spine. Delving his tongue up the length of his torso cleaning the blood away leaving a pleasing satisfaction.
Shido began to think of how he would initiate his plan, he would have to concentrate on what he wanted on his feelings. With Cain off guard this would work, just a little more. If half of his blood was Cain's half of Cain's blood was his, he too could make Cain do as he pleased.
Shido pinned down Cain's body to the bed and slid down and back up leaving trails of light kisses pressing ivory to ivory. Then with all his might the small vampire focused his energy on one thing, Cain. His body shook his eyes clenched shut, Shido wanted in.
"What are you doing Shido?" chuckled Cain in amusement.
"Doing what I should have done a long time ago, instead of running from you I'm going with you," he shuddered.
" I knew you'd come back to me Shido."
"Like I said before I'll never go back to you, I will never belong to you!" screamed Shido with all the emotion he could wring out of his soul.
Cain began to laugh but was cut short when something in Shido's mind clicked and everything seemed to fall into alignment, he began to fade, not away but into Cain.
Cain was so shocked he began to get up, to rise, and to escape but was held fast as Shido melded into him. Cain wailed and screeched, shot up from the bed and flung himself to the wall across the room, he clutched at his head, tangled his hair and dug his nails into the wall leaving behind deep rivets into the wood paneling. Cain thrust his head into the wall multiple times as if the action would jog Shido out. He couldn't believe it and neither could Shido, Cain never thought it possible for Shido to try and possess him with such little power the vampire had.
"Shido you cannot take this body!" ground out Cain in a hoarse voice.
"I can Cain, this ends here!"
The body of Cain stumbled all over the chamber, two immortals fighting for the right of one body neither one giving in. It was as if both had control and no control at all. Cain's eyes began to leak blood at first but then pure tears and they belonged to Shido, one of the only vampires human enough to cry out crystalline tears. Managing to raise his trembling hand Cain wiped a tear from his cheek and looked at it in surprise.
'I'm crying, true and human tears. How long has it been since I felt the pureness of real tears on my flesh?' thought Cain, ' innocent tears, my dear Shido…'
Shido gathered all his emotion felt his love his passion his fear his sorrow, pain, regret…hate and exploded it all inside of that body, the body of Cain. Cain felt his every emotion all of them he was overwhelmed and doubled over inside and out.
Cain wrenched out a pure howl, not one of pain but of sorrow, remorse and above all guilt. These were his own feelings and he felt them for Shido, he felt Shido's emotion and he finally understood, all the pain and suffering he put his lover through.
"MY GOD SHIDO!" he cried, sobbing outward a mixture of blood and tears.
Shido had the upper hand now and urged the body towards the window, he would be free, finally free.
"Free…"
"No Shido don't do this…I love you," He heard Cain sob.
"Free."
It was at his fingertips, he drew back the heavy curtains of velvet steel, unlatched the window and leaped out as far as he could, towards the sun.
"Nooooooo! Shido!"
'We will die together and end this chapter of our lives for eternity,' thought Shido reaching his hand outward towards the sun the blazing hot and bright wonder he had wished for. He felt it's warmth on his face he felt Riho's soft caress, he saw her smiling down at him. Would he go to heaven or hell? It didn't matter to him because now at least, it's over, finally over.
Then he felt himself uncoupling with Cain's body and they were now themselves, they were now separate and being engulfed by the sun. Shido smiled at Cain and took him by the hand, it seemed as if they were floating there never hitting the ground. It was happening so slowly for them and yet so fast.
Cain wore a face of confusion and then understanding as he too gripped onto Shido's hand.
"Why Shido?"
"You know why Cain."
"Yes, I know why," Cain smiled, " I love you…Shido."
"I…and I love you too Cain." Said Shido a feeling of peace and fulfillment washing over him like a wave upon the sand. At least now Cain knew how he felt, now he could be free.
They both felt the burning sensation of the suns ray along their bodies, never letting go of the others hand they disintegrated into dust. After taking one last look at the sun Shido slid his eyes closed.
"Riho…I'm coming home…"
The End
AU: Hey everyone I hope you all liked the ending! Once again I must apologize for my laziness. School just got out and finals were a real drag, I almost failed math! LOL! I also started a few other stories like a Rip Van Winkle story from Hellsing, and a Sesshomaru Story Quiz for so I've been delayed. Well this is the end I kept looking for a way not to kill them, not to have such a sad ending, but well as it is this ending just seemed so right to me. Even if Shido did get out, what did he have to go back to? Every one he loved was dead. Don't be mad I killed them either, I mean Cain is my favorite character and well I had to do him in that was hard for me! sniffle LOL! Well you guys if you forgive me maybe you could review me and tell me what you think. Till then! - Ambereyedinu