Summary: Kagome Higarashi a happy go lucky teen with everything a girl can want. So why is she so unhappy. When locked in her room she tries to stop her pain by replacing it with physical pain. She seems to have lost all self-control. So, what happens when she meets a half-breed dog demon will he be able to save her? Pairing I/K and M/S major Kikyo bashing here people My first fanfic ever so plz don't hate me and review and give me ur honest opinion on how to make it better Rating might go up
Disclaimer: NO I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA there I said it for the 100th time already ok I wish I did, but I don't ok
Sry about the last chapter being so short I'll try to make it a bit longer ok.
A/n: I use to be and still am a self-Injurer myself and I use to be bulimic so I know exactly what Kagome is going through. So some of the events from this story are taken from my real life experience. So thanx and on with the story then.
Italics thoughts"Quotations" speaking
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-Lyrics from Linkin Park's Crawling
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The nightmare (Chp. 2)
Kagome's bedroom88
"No, leave me alone help plz help somebody help me!" Kagome thrashed around her forehead was beaded with sweat and her blanket was twisted around her ankles. She was having a nightmare.
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"Help, plz somebody help me plz!!!!!" Kagome was surrounded by darkness and it wouldn't let go it just took a hold of her and held her captive. "Plz can't anybody hear me?" Plz somebody anybody" Kagome tried holding back her sobs but to no avail. Soon sobs could be heard echoing through the never ending darkness. " That's it cry little girl no one's going to hear you no one's going to save you." "Who-who's there?" You don't recognize me? Aww that's to bad because I know who you are? How, I don't understand." Who are you?" Oh Kagome silly I'm you of course." Huh?" Kagome's jaw practically hit the floor, there before her stood a replica of herself an exact look alike except for her cold menacing eyes other than that she could be Kagome's twin. "What do you want with me?" I'm here to give you some friendly advice. "Friendly advice?" Yes, to give friendly advice. You see the thing is Kagome you're not needed anymore; nobody wants an ugly, worthless, useless girl like you. "Wha . . . what are you talking about?" It's really not that hard to understand Kagome nobody needs you anymore you're an ugly, moronic, fat, worthless piece of shit, who nobody loves and nobody wants so why don't you just get the hell out before it's to late." By now Kagome's mind was racing her thoughts getting jumbled she was hurting inside. She thought about these things before, but now her biggest fear was a reality these words were finally spoken aloud. " No it's not true it. . . it can't be, Kagome said between sobs. " Oh but it is, too bad though nobody cares. "No it can't be it just can't." Soon darkness enveloped her and wrapped it's cold arms around her making it hard for her to breath. The pain was just unbearable everything all of her biggest fears have come true. She tried getting out of the darkness's grip but the more she moved the tighter it held. "HELP PLZ SOMEBODY HELP!"
Kagome began to thrash around trying to pry herself out of its hold.
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"Kagome. . . Kagome?" No answer. "Kagome open the door are you alright?" "Yeah mom I just fell that's all, Kagome said hoping her voice didn't give away anything. " Oh alright dear as long as your alright." Her mother was just about to leave when, "Oh yes Sango called said to meet her at the mall at 3:00." Alright thanx." Man that was some dream. It was just a dream, but it felt so real. Well I better get ready to go to the mall I wonder what time it is. "2:30, Holy shit I'm gonna be late Sango is so going to kill me!"
A Shower and 4 outfits later (15 minutes later)
After changing outfits like 4 times Kagome finally decided on a white mini skirt a pink halter top that said young willing and eager on it and a white zip up sweatshirt jacket over the shirt, white K-SWISS sneakers with pink stripes on the side and a matching pink and white purse; her hair she tied up into a neat pony tale and had on pink hoop earrings: she wore black eye liner and clear lip gloss. She gave herself the once over in the mirror and decided that this was the outfit. She glanced at her clock. "Holy fucking shit! It's already 3:15 Sango is so going to kill me.
Kagome raced down the stairs and out the door and down the shrine steps. Damn we really need an elevator, she thought. She jumped in her black convertbible just in time to hear her favorite song by her favorite artist BoA.
09. 心ã®æ‰‹ç´™ (kokoro no tegami)
(letter of my heart)
wanna be, just wanna wanna be
don't forget every beautiful days.
wanna be, just wanna wanna be... (×2)
Kagome started singing along with the song letting the wind play with the loose strands of her hair as she drove along the streets of Tokyo.
tsuioku ni ukanda kimi no egao
osanasa ga mada nokotteru
atarashii machi ni wa naremashita ka?
genki de kurashite imasu ka?
nando to naku kimi no yasashii
kotoba ni ah... hagemasarete kita
kitto kakegae no nai mono wo
kimi ga ita kara mitsukerareta
tomo ni sugoshita hibi no subete
douka wasurenaide ite
Forever dream
repeat
shitsubou no hate ni wa egao no nai
namida no sora ga tsudzuiteru
dakara boku wa donna koto ga attemo
makenai tsuyosa shinjiteru
yowai jibun dare no sei demo nai to
kimi wa oshiete kureta ne
kyou to iu hi ga asu ni kakaru
kibou ni michiteru hashi naraba
boku ga boku rashiku iru basho ga
kitto sono saki ni aru to
omou yo
repeat
kitto kakegae no nai mono wo
kimi ga ita kara mitsukerareta
tomo ni sugoshita hibi no subete
douka wasurenaide ite...
kyou to iu hi ga asu ni kakaru
kibou ni michiteru hashi naraba
boku ga boku rashiku iru basho ga
kitto sono saki ni aru to...
As the song ended she had just arrived at the mall
(A/N) BoA is a Korean pop singer and the song that you just read is a song on her 3rd Japanese Album called Love and Honesty. Although I am not Japanese or Korean I am Puerto Rican I really love her songs. My friend Yunsu is South Korean and she is an exchange student but anyways for my 14th b-day she gave me 5 of her cds. Neways just wanted to say that BoA is so kewl lolz on wit the story!!!)OH yah I forgot she sings Everyheart you know the ending song for Inuyasha.
Kagome parked her convertible and jumped out of the car not exactly ready to run into a very pissed of Sango.
END CHAPTER
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THANX a bunch sry the chapter is still short I promise as the story gets going they'll get longer and better. Yah and you all have to totally hear BoA's Korean and Japanese cds they totally rock
Inuyasha- hey how come I ain't in this story yet?!?!?
Inuyashafanaticlmv- your gonna be in it next chapter promise but for now sit down and shut the hell up!
Inuyasha- Hey you can't talk to me like that
Inuyashafanaticlmv: Yes I can cuz you're my bitch!!
Inuyasha- like the hell I am
Inuyashafanaticlmv- oh don't worry my little Inuyasha you will be soon enough( laughs evilly)
Inuyasha- 'sweat drop'
Inuyashafanaticlmv- well thanx a bunch and review plz