When Will My Reflection Show
Emma's PoV
Ah, bed is nice and warm. Not my bed though. I've got my eyes closed but I know enough to tell that this is not my bed, particularly as there are arms around me, not girl's arms...boy's arms. What did I do last night? I pretty much remember bickering with Erika over the use of my make up then us turning on Rhia with our pillows before going to sleep. Which leads to the question...how did I get here? Who's bed am I in. I'm almost too scared to have a look. I know, I know. Emma Potter, universal flirt, too scared to see if she's sleeping with a boy? I'm insecure ok! The flirting is a way of getting the attention that Harry gets. Not that I complain but it can be a bit troublesome.
"Hey, fur face, you going to lessons?" Came the sound of one of the boys who I knew bullied Bo.
"No, I'm feeling a bit ill, tell Flitwick I'm sorry." Bo croaked making me jump. I sat up and glanced at Bo. Bo put a hand over my mouth. I was a bit too shocked to say anything anyway.
"Whatever." Came the reply. There was the sound of the boys leaving the dorm room and closing the door. Bo looked so cute. He looked all sleepy, his hair was messy and he looked tired. He opened up the hangings a fraction to glance out into the room. He then let go of my mouth and turned to me.
"How are you feeling?" He asked me. I opened my mouth but wasn't able to reply. Bo just looked at me seriously.
"I-I...how did I end up here?" I asked.
"You don't remember?" Bo asked. I shook my head uncertainly.
"Should I?" I asked. I knew I should move out of Bo's bed but it was so much comfier then my bed. Maybe that's what you got for being a head student. Bo looked at me like I was a bit thick.
"Oh, I thought you would have known. You came to the bed." He said, "You actually came to my room last night but you weren't yourself." Bo said. I raised an eyebrow.
"How?" I asked.
"Well, you're eyes were all...red" Bo said. I laughed.
"Don't be ridiculous, my eyes are green." I said. Bo looked at me seriously and just looked at me. I looked into his brown eyes. "You're joking right?" I asked. He shook his head. I quickly tumbled out of his bed and looked around. "Mirror!" I demanded. He slowly pulled himself out of bed and handed me a mirror from one of his room mate's trunks. I looked into the mirror and looked at myself. My skin was a little paler then usual. My emerald eyes sparkled in the dim light of the room. I couldn't help smiling. I loved my eyes, I loved my red hair, I loved my mum for giving me my eyes and hair. I looked myself over once again before handing the mirror back to Bo. He was looking at me in a way he'd been doing since I saw him again over the summer. I hadn't failed to notice it. It reminded me of the way most boys looked at me, but there was something more in the way Bo looked at me.
"Thanks." I said to him with a smile. He gave me a weak smile and put the mirror away. "So why does he have a mirror?" I asked with a smirk.
"Patrick's vain." Bo said. He turned to look at me again. I gave him a smile and suddenly felt rather awkward. I felt like I should do something, it was probably because I'd woken up next to him.
"Ok, well..." I bit my lip. "I should get to lessons." I said uncertainly. Bo nodded and looked away. I'd never really seen Bo look so vulnerable then when he was with me. It was really strange, it was really cute as well but as nice as Bo was, he just wasn't my type. I prefer the 'bad boys' as Rhia likes to say. I went out with Patrick last year until I discovered that he was the one who bullied Bo. Patrick and I used to sneak out all over the place, then my next boyfriend, a boy called Michel Corner. Yes I know he was Ginny's ex, and he's now dating Cho but he's a player...I'm a player we got along just fine. It was great!
"Ok, yeah I guess." Bo muttered.
"Are you going to lessons?" I asked softly. Bo shook his head.
"Day before the full moon." Bo said. "I've been told not to go to school on that day remember?" He asked.
"Oh yeah." I said with a frown. How could I forget? "Well, if I don't see you later good luck." I said. I went to him and gave him a quick kiss on the lips as I always did on the full moon. Bo and I had discovered in my second year that for some reason a small kiss from me seemed to calm his wolf. Yes he did sleep most of the time but when he didn't take the Wolfsbane potion it called his wolf. This kiss was different though, as I began to pull away I felt Bo's arms around me. I tensed slightly.
"Bo, what are you-" I started to say but I felt Bo's lips on mine again. I didn't know what to do! I had a boyfriend. I was seeing Jason now. He was my boyfriend. I couldn't return the kiss? I didn't know what I was doing as I put my arms around Bo's neck and kissed him back. I felt Bo's tongue hungrily venture into my mouth. That's when I came to my sense.
"No!" I shouted as I pushed Bo away. "I have a boyfriend Bo." I said, I didn't wipe my mouth because I liked Bo's mouth on mine...for some reason. I just looked at him.
"Oh Merlin, I'm sorry Emma." He said hitting himself. "I'm so sorry. I'm tired and I'm not thinking straight. I think waking up with you in my bed just flipped my mind slightly and you're so much younger then me. I'm being stupid" I looked at him confused. If I didn't know any better I'd say he loves me but that's ridiculous. Why would Bo love me? Well more then he would love Rhia or Hermione? Bo looked at me.
"Please don't say anything to anyone." He said desperately. I opened my mouth to speak but Bo gave me that look he could do that made me stay quiet. "Please, not even Rhia."
"I can't hide things from Rhia, she's like my sister." I said quietly. Bo put his hands to his hair, he felt like he was going to pull out his hair. I went over to him and put my hands on his. "Don't pull out your hair." I ordered him. Bo looked at me and slowly let go of his hair. I lowered his hands and gave him a smile.
"Emma, can we just forget about what happened?" He asked. "I can't believe I just did that. I didn't mean to do that and, well..." He suddenly stopped. He sounded as though he was getting more and more awkward.
"I need to get to lessons." I said with a sigh. He nodded and I let go of his hands. "Will you be ok?" I asked him. Bo nodded and sat on his bed. I gave him a weak smile and left the room. I closed the door and leant against it. Whoa! Bo was a good kisser. I put a hand over my chest where my heart was pounding so hard against my ribs. I frowned slightly before going to get changed.
"Ok, I made up a new song." Rhia said flipping through her notebook. I nodded and stood with the guitar slung over my shoulder. We had officially been given permission by Dumbledore to rehearse in the room of Requirement. I wasn't really paying much attention. It was the full moon last night. Bo should be in the hospital wing at the moment. I really wanted to go and see him. I always did on the full moons. I knew that Rhia knew about my anxiety but since I told her about what had happened between me and Bo she wanted to keep me away from him. I knew her reasoning to do so but I was really anxious.
"Cool, what is it?" Orion asked, spinning a drumstick in his fingers. I found that so irritating sometimes.
"Um, well, they're some...they're not really Rock songs but I thought we'd give them a try." Rhia said.
"But we only do Rock." Kara said, turning to Rhia.
"I know, it's just that I didn't feel like writing any." Rhia snapped. "I write what I feel ok." Kara held her hands up.
"Ok, sorry." She said. The other three started bickering among themselves over what song to start playing first. I took off my bass guitar. I played Bass and guitar for the band because I'd been playing longest though I preferred the guitar. I picked up my guitar. It was dark blue with a few light blue streaks across it. It had a photo of me and Rhia stuck on the front from when I went a bit crazy a few summers ago and decided to decorate my guitar. It was a picture of me and Rhia pulling faces at the camera. That was it, I had to let it out. I didn't care if they weren't expecting me to make up a song, I had to make up a song. I had the worst voice of everyone in our band but I just...did I say I didn't care?
"Look at me, You may think you see who I really am, but you'll never know me. Everyday it's as if I play a part, now I see that if I wear a mask I can fool the world but I cannot fool my heart." I sang into the magical microphone that we'd set up. I looked at my guitar as I played the chords and tune how I thought it should go. The other three turned to look at me like I was mad. I knew why, I never sang, I never wrote the songs. I wrote the music but not the songs. In fact I hated making up the songs because I didn't like people knowing what I was feeling most of the time. I didn't see what was happening behind me but suddenly Orion joined in by giving me a basic beat.
"Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me. When will my reflection show who I am inside?" I was very aware that Kara and Rhia could sing this so much better then I was doing now. Rhia's voice was the most amazing voice in the world but she was too shy to sing. Which was really weird considering who her parents are. I made up the rest of the song on the spot. Rhia and Kara looking utterly confused. When I finished I put my guitar down and sank into a chair.
"Oh my god." Kara said slowly.
"Shut up and leave me alone" I muttered moodily. I was in a bad mood now. That wasn't the best of ideas, to sing. Rhia just looked at me and then looked at her note book
"Um, ok" Rhia said slowly. "Um, well do you want to practice Happy ending?"
"No." I said.
"Ok, um, Together?" Rhia asked.
"No."
"How about an upbeat song?" Kara suggested.
"No." I muttered.
"Yeah!" Orion shouted. "Please, please, please!" He begged.
"Ok." Rhia said, "Emma pick up your bass." She said. I mumbled and held onto my guitar. "Emma!"
"FINE!" I shouted at her.
"Emma, just because you can't see Bo doesn't mean you have to get all snappy with me." Rhia snapped at me.
"I'm not getting snappy at you." I said, "I'm just pissed off!"
"Over what?" Rhia asked. I looked at her. What was I pissed off at? Well recently people had been rubbing in the fact that Harry was so precious again. More attacks on Muggles meant that Harry was in the limelight again. Bo was confusing me and Jason was out with some Aurors doing some field medicine.
"Over everything!" I said. "I don't want to do this."
"Come on, just this one song, I know you love it." Kara said. I looked at her and threw my guitar on the floor before picking up my bass.
"EMMA!" Rhia cried as my guitar gave a snap.
"Who cares?" I muttered. I knew I'd regret it later. "What are we playing?"
"Mickey." Kara said with a grin. Orion grinned and Rhia laughed. It was the first song they'd actually learnt to play and Emma usually liked it.
"Fine." Emma sighed.
"Wicked." Orion said, he loved the piece because it was the only one he didn't mess up in. I rolled my eyes and played the song anyway.
"Emma." Rhia said. I turned to look at her. We had left the instruments in the room of requirement. They would be looked after until we needed them and my guitar would be returned to my dorm room.
"Yeah?" I said.
"You wanna go to the kitchens?" Rhia asked. She looked at Kara with a look I knew. She wanted to talk to me in private. Kara rolled her eyes and carried on with Orion, who was walking down the corridors with a bounce. I went with Rhia as we head down towards the kitchen. "What was that about?" Rhia asked.
"What?" I asked.
"That song, you've never made one up before." I shrugged.
"I don't know. I just felt like making up the song. Is that a crime?" I asked.
"No, just wondering." Rhia said. She turned to look at me. "You fancy going to go and see Bo later, like on the way back?"
"Of course." I said. She smiled and linked her arm with mine. There were some people coming out of the great hall as we passed. I knew them all by sight, all boys in the year above. One of them flashed me a grin, I answered with a smile. He came up to me and took my arm.
"Hey, look I was wondering, if you're not going with anyone already if you would like to go to Hogsmeade with me." He asked me. I looked at him. He was ok. Brown hair, thin body slightly on the skinny side though.
"What's you're name again?" I asked, looking interested. Rhia rolled her eyes.
"Leo." He said with a smirk. Thinking he was in there was he? Yeah right.
"That's such a nice name, it means lion or something doesn't it?" I asked. Leo puffed out his chest slightly. "I would love to go with you but I'm afraid I'm going to have to get back to you on that." I said, knowing full well that I was already going to go and meet Jason. Leo looked at me with a smile.
"I can wait." He said with a wink.
"I bet you can." I said touching his chest playfully. I looked to Rhia who was shaking her head in amusement.
"What about you then Black?" He asked. "You free?"
"Yes but I'd rather not go with you." Rhia answered. Leo's grin faltered but he quickly put it back up again.
"I'll talk to you soon then Emma" He said, he leant down and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. He ran to join a few of his friends.
"Ravenclaws...will they ever learn." I muttered. Rhia laughed.
"No, I don't think they will." Rhia said. "They're supposed to be clever as well." We both laughed as we head to the kitchens. Rhia reached forwards and tickled the pear in the portrait and the portrait swung forwards. We climbed into the hole and into the kitchen. We were met by a mass of house elves.
"Harry Potter's sister!" squealed a house elf with a huge tower of hats on his head. He had mismatched socks and a small scarf around his neck. I forced a smile at that I sent to Dobby the House elf. I hated being addressed as that.
"Dobby." Rhia said with a smile.
"What can Dobby be getting for you misses." He asked.
"Um," Rhia looked at me. I shrugged.
"Chocolate muffin?" I asked. House elves rushed around.
"A couple of cookies please" Rhia asked. Dobby suddenly went humble.
"Miss Black is too nice." He said, "No one is ever saying please to Dobby."
"Well they're just rude." I said to Dobby. Dobby seemed to shuffle his feet. Rhia and I looked at each other with a smile. We were quickly given the food then offered more.
"Um, no it's fine, really. I think we can eat this." I said.
"Come again!" Squeaked a house elf.
"Don't worry, we will." I said. Rhia and I tumbled out of the kitchen laughing.
"Good old house elves." Rhia muttered. I grinned at her and we went back up to the main hall. "Emma, what are we going to call our band?" Rhia asked. "We've been rehearsing for like two months now and we still haven't come up with a name." I thought for a moment. A name, I really hadn't thought about it. How exactly did you come up with a name for a band? Just pick a random word? Ok, lets try this.
"Thriller." I said randomly.
"Thriller?" Rhia asked amused.
"Yeah, you know like the Michael Jackson song." I said. Rhia grinned.
"We will propose it to Kara and Orion" Rhia said.
"Definitely." I said, I linked arms with Rhia as we went up the stairs.
"What's up with you and Jason, Have you heard from him recently?" Rhia asked as she stole a bit of my muffin.
"Yeah, he's just passed his fourth assessment. He's just got two more to go then he'll be a fully qualified Healer." I said excitedly. Rhia laughed.
"I have to admit that I'm surprised you're going out with Jason, he's not the kind of guy you usually like-"
"Who's this?" asked Harry from behind. I turned quickly and hit Harry's arm. Ron was looking away awkwardly, no doubt what happened the other night was still on his mind. I was merely making a point of the fact that I can control ANY guy that tries to do anything to me. Even if it is a detention.
"Jason." Rhia said with a smirk.
"Who? The healer?" Harry asked, he looked to me.
"Yeah, he's my boyfriend." I said with a smile, turning slowly on the balls of my feet.
"But-he's-Come with me Emma." Harry said. He grabbed my arm and pulled me through the school
"Hey! Let go." I said to Harry. He let go near the hospital wing and carried on walking. "What's wrong with you?" I asked rubbing my arm.
"Jason is five years older then you."
"So?"
"Mum and dad don't like it. They told you not to see him." Harry said. I glared at him.
"And you're going to tell them are you?" I asked him. "You take the fun out of everything in my life."
"I just don't want you to get hurt in stuff that I bring about. You know that." Harry said.
"And it's ruining my life. You're too protective, everything that I do you tell mum and dad. No wonder they prefer you." I snapped.
"They do not prefer me!" Harry retorted. He stopped by the doors to the hospital wing.
"They so do, and don't deny it. Are you going to go and tell them now?" Emma asked.
"No." Harry said. "Dad's here." He said grimly. I grinned.
"He is? He actually came to see us?" I asked. I was incredibly surprised, Dad had never come to see us before...no, he came in our fourth year but that was different. I went to the hospital wing and burst through the door. Bo was sitting in one of the beds reading a book. I gave him a nervous smile before going to mum's office. Mum was sitting on dad's lap laughing about something.
"Please don't do that." I said, "Do you want to scar my innocent mind?" I asked. Dad looked at and grinned.
"Emma!" He said, mum got off Dad and let dad come to hug me.
"It's only been one day week." I wheezed as he hugged me tightly. He let go of me and gave me a smile.
"Where's Harry?" He asked. My smile faltered very slightly. "What?"
"Didn't you just talk to him?" I asked.
"Well, yes we asked him to get you then come back." Lily said.
"I think he went back to the common room" I said. Dad sighed and sat down. "How's work?" I asked.
"It's stressful. I wish I was still an auror." Dad muttered. Mum took dad's hands and smiled at him.
"I don't, you're safer as the minister" Mum said. Dad gave her a smile before looking at me.
"How have you been Emma?" He asked. "You been behaving yourself?"
"Do I ever misbehave?" I asked innocently. Dad raised an eyebrow and I gave him a grin.
"Well the things I've heard in the week I've been here-" Mum said giving me a glance. I scowled slightly.
"What have you heard?" I asked. Mum gave me a knowing smile before wrapping her arms around dad's neck.
"I have to check on Bo." She said. She kissed dad on the cheek. "She's just like you used to be." She muttered to dad.
"I heard that." I said.
"You were meant to Emma." She said with a smile. She left the office so I was left with dad. Dad gave me an intrigued look and leant forwards onto the desk. I went to sit down in the chair opposite and stared at him in the eyes
"Oh no, you know I can't outstare you." He muttered. I gave him a grin. "So you're a player are you?" I looked at him surprised.
"What? No." I said a bit quickly. James laughed and sat back.
"As long as no one forces you to do anything I don't mind." Dad said. My mouth fell open. "And they can't be any older then Harry." Dad said. I tried to stop a look of guilt spread across my face. Dad seemed to notice and looked at me. "What is it Emma?"
"Nothing." I said quickly. Dad looked at me highly sceptically.
"Who's your boyfriend?" Dad asked.
"No one. I don't have one." I said defensively.
"Emma." He said sternly. I bit my lip.
"He's a healer in training" I muttered quickly.
"Emma! It's not Jason is it?!" He asked. I shrugged
"Maybe."
"He's five years older then you Emma. I will not allow you to see him."
"But you'll let Harry go out with a girl who's older then him or go out with someone five years younger?" I asked.
"Harry's different, he's responsible and he can look after himself." Dad said.
"And I can't?" I asked. Dad looked like he was ready to hit himself for that comment.
"Emma, I'm sorry. It's just been a really stressful week and without your mum around my stress levels have been building." Dad said apologetically.
"Yeah, whatever dad." I said feeling very annoyed. "I think I'll go back to the common room now." Dad called me back.
"Emma, please. I'm trying to be a better dad. Tell me how to do it?" He asked sincerely. I looked at him with angry eyes. Dad's eyes had no effect on me what so ever.
"Stop comparing me to Harry. I can't be Harry, I'm not the child that lived. Just because I don't have a scar on my forehead people treat me differently" I said to dad.
"Emma it's not because of that, you're the youngest in the family. We want to give you the best chance possible." Dad said.
"Kaylee and Jessie aren't treated any differently to Orion or Rhia. Kara isn't treated differently." I said.
"Kara's family is a Muggle family, they're different." Dad said.
"Not really." Lily said coming into the office. "What are we talking about?" She asked.
"I'm going." I said. I left the office as mum asked Dad what he'd said to me. I was about to leave when I heard Bo call my name.
"Hi." He said with a slight frown. I gave him a smile and went to his bedside.
"How are you doing?" I asked him.
"Better." He said. "What about you?"
"Please don't ask. I've felt better" I muttered as I sat down.
"Is it because of me?" He asked. I looked up at him.
"Sort of" I said truthfully. Bo hated it when I lied to him.
"Look, about the other day, I didn't...Do you think we could maybe forget about it?" Bo asked. I looked at him in the eyes.
"Was I that bad?" I asked him.
"No, you were amazing it's just that...I don't want it to ruin our friendship" He said like it was a difficult thing to say. I gave him a smile.
"If you want it like that then sure. I could try." I said to him. Bo grinned. "I have to do some homework." I said, "I'll see you later." I got up and kissed his cheek. I was half way out of the door when Bo called me back.
"Emma," I turned around, "Just out of curiosity, of all the guys you've kissed where was I-" I smiled, I didn't have to hear the rest of that question.
"At the top." I answered before he could finish. Bo grinned even more, looking happier with himself.
"Thanks." He said
"No problem." I said. I blew him a kiss with a cheeky smile and Bo laughed. I left the hospital and bumped straight into Malfoy and his cronies.
A/N:-I haven't updated in a while cause i've been busy and annoyed. I vaguely asked people to tone down on the HArry/Rhia stuff. Now, i've sorted out what's happning and i'm not happy with it but if it'll get people to be quiet about HArry and Rhia then I'm going to have to do this story line. I'm getting fed up of people harassing me about it. Even my friends at school are harrassing me. Does it not occur to some people that I am the author and just let me do what i want but nooooo, even my best friend complains about HArry and HErmione being together, just cause she read that scene about Rhia and HArry int he snow in Beyond the end! Thank you to those of you who respected my wishes with the whole..no HArry/Rhia stuff. I'm not ranting at anyone really it's just that i'm getting a bit annoyed, i've asked in several Author's Notes for people to stop Harassing me about it but it doesn't seem to have worked. As Kaylee knows, i've had to change everything, but at least the general storyline works. My main plan for the story, the relationships screw up some of the minor subplots though. NEver mind. Next chapter will be up when i have time to finish it.