Journal:
Tomorrow is my turn to watch over the Uchiha's cell. In two weeks his eyes will be removed…and in four his execution. What do I feel…pain…or joy? It is hard to understand journal. Sasuke…he's always been a part of me. But now, he's just a memory nearly forgotten. Who am I kidding? I never forgot him. I continued on my path of the ninja, never going back on my word. Showing everyone my strength, I never showed them my weaknesses.
I wonder though, if Sasuke knows of my weaknesses? Does he know everything about me like I know everything about him? His soul…his heart…his emotions and his pain? It's too confusing for me journal. I just don't see it…what others see in me. They see me as a future leader…as a strong man who can make a difference, but I see the truth. I see nothing but an empty shell…that's not right…more like the demon shell that Konoha truly despises…more than they despise the Uchiha's betrayal…after all…the villagers blame me for his betrayal.
So typical…I get blamed for everything. Sometimes I just want to say dammit it all and leave everything behind…let them hate me more and just unleash this pain to the world. But I can't do that…if I do that I'll be proving them right, and my reason is to prove them wrong. So here I am journal…trying to prove something that may be futile…after all my reflection only shows how lost I truly am.
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Naruto opened the cell, placing the plate of food on a small table in the cell of Sasuke. Sasuke stared intently at Naruto, who did not say one word to him.
"Dobe" Sasuke said, tempting Naruto in hopes to see the Naruto he knew. Naruto closed the cell and stood guard in front, ignoring Sasuke. Sasuke's eye twitched as he walked towards the cell, his head looking through the small window bars that showed any sign of life.
"Naruto" Sasuke tried again.
"Uchiha…there is no reason for you to speak to me…so please let me do my job" Naruto answered coolly. Sasuke frowned visibly. Where was the Naruto he knew? The Naruto that always kept getting stronger and yelling to the world his powers?
"Naruto…in two weeks…I will lose what I value the most" Sasuke said.
"Don't worry Uchiha…your eyes won't be of much use here…" Naruto spoke. Sasuke closed his eyes and rested his forehead on the bars.
"You really are a dobe" Sasuke said. Naruto growled slightly as he turned to look at Sasuke.
"Cool it Uchiha" Naruto warned. Sasuke smiled slightly. He could barely see the old Naruto.
"Well…you don't know what I mean…so you must be a dobe" Sasuke instigated. Naruto's eye twitched, but he didn't give into Sasuke's satisfaction. Instead he gave Sasuke the cold shoulder and resumed his position. /Only three more hours…just three more hours before my shift is over/ thought Naruto.
"Fool…I don't care about my sight…what I care about is what I will see before I lose it…" Sasuke answered. Naruto attempted to ignore Sasuke, but his words were getting to him.
"What do you want to see then before you lose your sight?" asked Naruto, curiosity getting the better of him.
"I want to see….my ray of sun" Sasuke said. Naruto turned to look at him confused.
"The ray of sun? What are you talking about?" asked Naruto. Sasuke smirked, the same smirk that always crawled under Naruto's skin.
"Sasuke you bastard" growled Naruto. A glint of what looked like hope and happiness passed through Sasuke's eyes for the brief second Naruto uttered his infamous phrase.
"What? Not my fault you can't comprehend simple words" Sasuke retorted.
"Not my fault you're a spoiled brat who thinks he's speaking wisely but is saying nothing but bullshit" Naruto retorted back. Sasuke and Naruto entered a glaring contest through the cages. A few shinobi walked past them, sweatdropping at the scene and deciding not to interfere.
For what seemed like an eternity, the duo stared at each other. They assessed each other, took in the changes of their features, and realized that old wounds can open up, as old hearts were revived with the hidden emotion of passion. Naruto turned around, assuming his position once again. Sasuke's eyes showed a hint of sadness. He closed his eyes and stepped away from the cell, deciding to eat what was given to him, though by now it was freezing cold. Naruto sighed inwardly in relief when he saw the shinobi who was going to take his shift.
"Time's up" Naruto said as he left the other in charge. Sasuke looked up, slightly disappointed that Naruto was leaving.
"Naruto…remember…I want my ray of sun before I lose my sight" Sasuke called out.
"Oh you and your sun rays! And here I thought you were bright! Pun intended!" shouted Naruto as he walked up the stairs. Sasuke chuckled.
"There was a pun in there?" he asked as he sat down. For an odd reason, seeing Naruto acting so childishly…so human, so…Naruto, made him feel at peace. /Will you figure it out Naruto? Will you realize what my ray of sun is?/ he thought to himself as he stared at the dark ceiling of his cell.
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Dammit Journal!
I hate him! Why the hell does Sasuke do this to me? His stupid smart ass comments really irritate me. And that stupid smirk…ah! I just wanted to wipe it off his face…then again…that smile really suits him. Oh what am I saying…its Uchiha Sasuke…the jerk of the planet.
But I have to admit journal, for a brief moment…it felt like before…when we were gennins and when we were happy…well…sorta. Even if it was arguing tonight…it still felt right. I looked at the mirror just now…and I think it's cracking. Is it a good thing? Is it good that the reflection before me is cracking? I can't afford for it to shatter.
If it shatters my whole purpose and resolve is destroyed…and then what will be my reason for being here? But I wonder what he mean with 'my ray of sun'? He wants to see the sun one last time before he loses his sight? Does he want the imprint of the sun in his mind to take to his grave eternally? That bastard can't explain things right…argh why didn't' he just say what it was and got it over with!
For a strange reason I'm thinking about "My sunshine." Funny how what Sasuke said got me thinking of such a lullaby. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine…I guess things can change. He's more like the moon…the pale moon that shines in the night, surrounded by the countless stars that have lost their path and seek the moon for its pale yet bright radiance.
The Moon and the Sun…we really are total opposites…but opposites that match perfectly. My moon…heh…my night.
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sorry for making it short /bows in apologies/ its 2 in the morning…and I'm sleepy…so yeah…my brain stopped functioning an hour ago…gomen…
TenshiKaitou: thanks for the thumbs up lol I don't like cheesy journal entries. I believe journal entries are things that come from the soul lol though my soul is a little angsty oO
Smoking Panda: Honestly I have no idea what the ending is going to be for this fic lol I'm just writing what comes to mind
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