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The day you saw me...

What does it mean to die?

Even though I slept soundly, my thoughts carried me to the present, sitting in my room with the knife in my hand...watching as my own blood flowed, staining my uniform and dripping down to the floor.

I wiped the tears from my face, covering myself with blood...it wasn't the pain that hurt, it was the reasons why I did this that did. I hated myself, the strange outcast that I was . No one in that god forsaken place knew me, what right did they have to judge me? I sighed deeply knowing that this was what life was like. It wasn't my fault I wasn't born Japanese, it wasn't my fault that I was adopted...or was it? Either way after tonight it wouldn't matter. I had made up my mind that it must be done. I had no friends, my parents were so mad at me that they yelled at me telling me I was adopted, even though I knew I was adopted. I was a western girl, raised in Japan since I was six months old, abandoned by my true parents. Those ignorant bastards, I hope they pay.

I couldn't control it any longer, I sobbed loudly.

I stopped crying as I heard my doorbell ring. Slowly, looked out my window. It was a girl from my school. Kagome I think it was. I quickly wrapped up my arm, wondering what she wanted.

I made my way to the door and opened it, there she stood, with a smile.

"Hello!" she said to me cheerfully,

"Uh...Hi..."I started, wondering what the hell one of 'Them' wanted.

"I just came to see how you were doing, I thought you looked lonely so I decided to introduce myself to you, and don't worry about the other girls, they're just jealous because they're not as unique as you are."

I blinked a few times wondering what sort of drugs this girl was on. No one, and I mean no one, should be that happy.

"Uh sure..."

"Well aren't you going to invite me in?" she smiled more as she entered my house.

"Um...yeah come in...I guess" my hand clutched my wrist, the one with the fresh cut in it. I checked to see if the blood would soak through the bandages. I nervously looked down at the blood splotches on my shirt, she then noticed them too.

"What happened to you? Are you ok?" she looked worried. No one worries for me so why should this girl?

"Uh...yeah...I just cut myself a little, it was just an accident, I'm fine though." I was getting more irritated, all I wanted was for her to leave. There were things I still needed to take care of, like sending myself into the Abyss.

"Look...I have homework I need to do."

"Oh that's ok so do I, we can do it together," she piped up cheerfully.

I shook my head slightly, this girl cant take a hint. "And...my parents are going to be home soon, unfortunately I'm not allowed to have people over."

A hurt look came over Kagome's eyes "Oh well then...maybe tomorrow we can hang out! Go shopping perhaps? Come on it will be fun!" her eyes seemed to light up, I knew she wouldn't take no for an answer, hell it might even be 'FUN'. I sighed slightly and nodded to her in defeat. "O.K. sure then, 4pm fine?"

She smiled as she walked through the door, "4pm it is...meet me at my house, it's at the local shrine!"

I sighed and shut the door, a pink piece of crystal caught my attention, it looked somewhat valuable "It must be Kagome's...I'll give it to her tomorrow when I meet her." I bent down to pick it up, as my skin touched the shard I gasped, it felt as if something shot right through me. Shaking my head I grasped it, the feeling dissipating as fast as it came. I slowly walked up the stairs, a feeling of nausea coming over me with each step I took. I felt dizzy and my vision started to blur. I looked down at my wrist and saw it streaming; blood. My eyes trailed down the carpet and saw a line of blood reaching down the stairs.

"No...I cant die now...NO! I wont die...not yet..." I lightly fell as I reached the top stair, my fingers feeling the smooth yet jagged texture of the crystal piece.

As my eyes closed I thought I saw the shard glow a dull pink...it might have been my imagination, a final thought made by a dying girl.

I awoke in the shadowy softness of dawn. I immediately threw the covers off in a panic, grabbing my wrist in fear...nothing...not even a scar. But in my hand I held the pink shard.

I still felt a slight dizziness come over me but for the most part the sickness was gone. I walked down the hall toward the stairs. Not a trace of blood showed. I entered the kitchen and looked around, I noticed a note on the table:

Nai

The dishes need to be done, I'll be home after work. Oh and Kagome called.

Love Mom.

I smiled slightly wondering what happened last night, it was as if my attempt at suicide never happened. I knew I slit my wrist before Kagome came...I felt myself dying when she left. I saw myself bleed...the eternal sleep washing over me. But here I was alive and well and my mother acted as if nothing happened. Maybe I was hallucinating, having an acid flash-back. I regretted doing drugs at the Tokyo raves, but what's done is done.

"GOD I'M SO SCREWED UP!" I yelled at the ceiling. I gasped as I doubled over in pain, I felt a sharp pain in my wrist, I looked down and all I saw was the crystal shard still in my hand.

"Wh-what's wrong with me?" I started to cry softly. Fear building up in me, a fear of life, a fear of death. I no longer knew what was real, if anything was truly real.

I looked at the clock, I decided I should just shower and get ready, besides it was already 1:30 pm. I went up stairs and placed the piece of crystal in the pocket of the clothes I would be wearing that day.

I turned on the shower and stripping out of my clothing I looked at myself in the mirror, my dyed, blood-red hair reaching my thin waist. My green eyes, almost cat like in shape, shed no light of happiness. My skin was so pale it could be compared with snow, people hated me because I was gothic? Or because I wasn't Japanese? Or maybe because I was just different. No one knew me, what right did they have to judge me? Besides I never looked that weird at school, I didn't wear make-up there and I always wore my uniform. I tried to fit in but I guess my attitude and they way I thought wasn't good enough for them. Maybe because I refused to conform.

I stepped into the shower feeling the warm water wash away my worries, my pain, my misery, for once I felt at peace.

I shut my eyes soaking in the ambient noises, the running water , my own breathing, it felt as though time slowed just for me, but if any thing it sped up.

I sighed deeply getting out of the shower and turning it off. I felt so confused and I just wanted to know what was wrong with me. I dried myself off while getting dressed in a pair of black pants that were ripped at the knees and I slipped into a dark purple shirt that cut off at the shoulders. I went down stairs put on a pair of boots and walked out the door.

As I exited my house and walked down the street everything seemed different, it was as if I was seeing the world in grey. I mean, it still had colour, but it was a dulled colour, it wasn't as bright and vivid as I remembered it. The colours were off and it felt that I was inn a world apart from this one, everything seemed slower. I came up to the Local temple and I saw her, Kogome, and a boy in a red kimono running into a small shed-like building.

I ran after them calling out to Kagome, I felt a pain in my leg. From my pocket I pulled out the jewel shard, it began to glow again and my wrist began to bleed.

"Oh GOD!...not again!" I started to panic, the blood pouring down like a river, the dizzy and sick feeling returning. I slowed down trying to calm down, covering my slashed wrist in a petty attempt to stop the bleeding. By then Kogome and the white haired boy disappeared, my only mistake was in following them.

I entered the small building and saw a well, I slowly made my way over to it and carefully peered inside...Nothing. I turned to leave my vision blurring and my breath grew short I struggled to breathe. My head fell low with defeat, I was tired., oh so tired. I wanted to sleep.

I stumbled over myself and fell backwards into the well. I had no energy left to scream so I shut my eyes, but the only pain I felt was the pain my hand, I looked at it and saw the Shard sinking into my skin, being absorbed.

I smiled slightly as a feeling of energy passing threw me took over, I was covered in a blue aura.

"So...this is death." I sighed to myself as I kept falling, the sleep took over.

This concludes chapter 2 hope you liked it please R&R. Another Good job by my editor Mr. BunnyButtons