Dear Journal:
Sasuke tries to be so strong…but he's so vulnerable. Today Kakashi sensei let me in the cell again at night…so I decided to help Sasuke train a bit. Sure he's blind and maybe in a little pain…ok he's in pain…but no pain no game right? Damn…I just want to take his mind off the pain and the fact he's blind…I want him to train harder to compensate for that…as much as he can train in a cell.
But my heart is aching journal. It's been five days since that incident…and only 9 more days before his execution…will I survive this ordeal? I don't want to see him die…hasn't he suffered enough? What am I going to do…?
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Naruto landed softly in front of Kakashi, who looked at him boredly. Naruto grinned sheepishly as Kakashi sighed, opening the cell for Naruto.
"You have to cut the visits short…and put some time in between each visit…I think Hokage-sama is starting to suspect…" Kakashi told Naruto. Naruto nodded as he entered the cell.
"Sasuke…I'm back…" Naruto whispered as he walked towards Sasuke, who quickly sat up and stretched his hands before him. Naruto smiled sadly as he grabbed one of Sasuke's hands and sat down. Sasuke immediately began to trace Naruto's face…his nose…his scars…his lips, and finally he smiled.
"Naruto…" Sasuke whispered as he pulled the blonde in for a kiss. Naruto held Sasuke close and kissed him back as deeply and as full of love as he could.
"Any better today?" asked Naruto. Sasuke nodded and smiled, his hands going over his closed eyelids.
"It's not painful anymore…maybe a little sore…but I'll be fine…how many days?" asked Sasuke. Naruto frowned as he sighed.
"Nine more days…" Sasuke's smile faltered slightly as he nodded. Naruto felt badly for Sasuke…here was his lover and only friend awaiting death. He couldn't take that kind of pain…it felt worse than being shunned by the village.
"Naruto" Sasuke said. Naruto tilted his head in confusion.
"What is it?" he asked. Sasuke thought for a moment, and then placed his hand on Naruto's cheek.
"When that day comes…don't watch…" Sasuke said.
"Wait…what? I'm not going to abandon you Sasuke…much less then" Naruto said. How could Sasuke ask him that? Sasuke frowned.
"I don't want you to suffer…at least it'll be less painful for you"
"I don't care about my pain Sasuke…I care about you…I'm not going to leave you…no matter what" Naruto retorted.
"No…dobe…I care too much about you to just let you see my execution…you've had enough pain…you don't need anymore" Sasuke said.
"Sasuke…can't you see this is my fault…I have to be there…I need to see…be there for you when it was me who condemned you…Sasuke I…" Naruto closed his eyes as he felt the sting of water. Sasuke smiled, feeling his lover's aura change and the mood. His hand felt the water droplets and he wiped the tears away.
"It wasn't your fault love…I have to atone for what I have done…and this is the only way…I'm glad it was you who brought me back…because I was able to spend every moment with you…can't you see it Naruto? You are my ray of light…and with you…I'm at peace…that's why I can't have you there…because then my ray of light will be shrouded in a darkness that I've caused…" Sasuke whispered. Naruto looked at him as he was hugged close to Sasuke.
"Sasuke…can't you see that I love you too much to leave your side…I'm your ray of light…and I want to be there…to guide you through the path…so you can be with them again Sasuke…please…just let me….once…" Naruto whispered as he kissed Sasuke softly.
Kakashi sighed inwardly at the situation. Being this close to the two has really softened him up…and he couldn't stand the sight of the two and their predicament. But as a good shinobi he had to suck it up and become cold hearted…though he wanted to help the lovers…there was nothing he could do but watch…just like Naruto.
Naruto pulled away from the kiss, gently caressing Sasuke's cheek. He smiled as Sasuke leaned into the touch, his hand over Naruto's. Naruto sighed as he hugged Sasuke close, the two just sitting next to each other in contentment.
"Naruto…be free…" Sasuke whispered. Naruto looked at him confused.
"What are you talking about?" asked Naruto.
"When I'm gone…don't hesitate…find someone…I hear Gaara is single…" Sasuke said. He mentally smacked himself for that notion. He didn't want Naruto near anyone…but he knew his time was coming up…and he knew that Naruto couldn't live in the loneliness anymore…he was being selfish if he told Naruto to remain alone forever. Naruto snorted.
"You're joking…right?" asked Naruto. Sasuke shook his head.
"I'm not going to find anyone else Sasuke…no one will take your place in my heart…and don't ask me that ever again…you're the only one I want and even if…even…if it isn't forever…it is still precious…" Naruto said. Sasuke sighed as he lay back down on his bed.
"Why are you so stubborn?" asked Sasuke.
"That's my line…" Naruto said with a smirk. Sasuke chuckled as he pulled Naruto over him, kissing him deeply.
"Time's up…" Kakashi said. Naruto pouted slightly as Sasuke sighed, his expression saddening. Naruto kissed Sasuke one more time before he got off.
"I'll be back in two days Sasuke…" Naruto said. Sasuke nodded as he remained laying down on the bed. Naruto left the cell and nodded to Kakashi.
"Thanks sensei…" Naruto said. Kakashi nodded as Naruto walked away.
"Naruto…the day before…come here…" Kakashi said. Naruto looked at him puzzled, but nodded nonetheless.
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Dear Journal:
I was in Sasuke's cell again. I told him I was going to see him in two more days…there's not much to say except I wish I could do something…I can do something…but that would mark me as an S-class criminal…but…if I tell Sasuke…will he agree?
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"Are you insane!" shouted Sasuke. Naruto rubbed his sore head. How the hell did Sasuke manage to smack him upside the head if he can't see?
"But Sasuke…we both will be running away from Konoha…and we can be happy" Naruto whispered. Kakashi sighed inwardly. He knew he was going to be forced to separate the two if it continued.
"Naruto…you disappoint me…" Sasuke said.
"What?"
"To think that way…maybe Tsunade-sama was right…being close to me will taint your thoughts…maybe it's best if you just don't see me anymore…you'll keep getting ideas and jeopardizing yourself when I don't want to be saved Naruto" Sasuke said seriously. Was Sasuke serious?
"You can't be serious Sasuke? I'm doing this for you…for us…" Naruto said, too hurt to form words. Kakashi remained quite and listened intently, knowing that Sasuke was right, and knowing that Naruto believed it too.
"Naruto…don't see me anymore…" Sasuke said. Naruto stared in disbelief. Here he was trying to give them a future…and Sasuke was refusing it?
"I get it…" Naruto said.
"Do you really?" questioned Sasuke.
"It's not important isn't it? You only sought consolation in despair…that's all I am right…and because I'm getting serious…you want to stop it…" Naruto said. Sasuke sighed inwardly. Naruto just didn't understand. Kakashi sighed loudly. He knew Naruto was dense…but not THIS dense.
"Very well Uchiha Sasuke…I won't see you anymore" Naruto said as he walked up to the door where Kakashi opened it for him. Naruto quickly disappeared and Kakashi locked the cell door.
"Ma…he's dense" Kakashi said. Sasuke sighed as he hugged his knees close to his chest.
"Maybe its better that way…I can't destroy his dreams…destroy his future for the sake of a love that will not last. I can't have him help me escape so we can live together. What kind of life is that? Running away constantly, not being able to be happy and settle down? We can't have that kind of life…he doesn't deserve that kind of life…he deserves better…" Sasuke said. Kakashi knew Sasuke was right.
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Naruto stared at his journal. He couldn't believe Sasuke was serious…he simply couldn't understand things.
Dear Journal:
He refused my idea. He…even told me to not see him anymore…to not be with him anymore…does that mean we aren't an item anymore? I don't understand anything anymore journal. I just want him to be free….is that so much to ask?
Naruto put the journal on his nightstand and stared out the window. He was hurting…and he didn't know why Sasuke suddenly broke everything off in such a way.
/gaki/ a voice said in his mind.
"What is it?" asked Naruto annoyed.
/listen brat…are you that stupid/ kyuubi asked. Naruto sighed.
"What are you talking about now?" asked Naruto. Kyuubi sighed in Naruto's mind.
/You love him don't you/ asked Kyuubi.
"What is it to you?" Naruto said, just wanting to be alone at the moment.
/He's right you know…you're judgment has become clouded…your emotions are causing you to make mistakes…quite visible mistakes…things are better that way gaki/ Kyuubi said. Naruto sighed.
"What do you know? You're just a blood thirsty demon" Naruto said. Kyuubi snorted.
/Even demons know what love is and what reality is. Look at you gaki…sulking and acting so petty over something you know it's true/ Kyuubi said.
"I know dammit! I know already he's right! But still…I…I just want to be with him…I want to make him happy…why can't we be happy?" Naruto asked, at first shouting until his voice was nothing but a whisper.
/Because…some things are just…not meant to be. Listen gaki, don't blow it…the love and bond between you two…don't blow that off because you want to live a life of an enemy…don't put him through that once again…he came back because of you…keep him here with you…even if it's short lived…make him happy…/ Kyuubi said. Naruto closed his eyes as he felt the tears coming.
"I know…I know…" was all Naruto could say as he sobbed softly.
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"How many days Kakashi-san?" asked Sasuke. Kakashi looked at the time.
"Four days" Kakashi said. Sasuke sighed. It has been three days since he last saw Naruto. He missed the blonde. He wanted Naruto close to him…but he knew the more Naruto was with him, the weaker the blonde would become and the more mistakes he would make. He didn't want Naruto to have the same life he had…the life of a criminal.
Kakashi was set in speaking with Naruto during his break…whether the blonde was awake or not. He waited patiently for his break to come. When he looked at his watch and knew it was his break time, he sighed.
"Sasuke…I'll be back…going for a quick break" Kakashi said as his replacement came in.
"Hai…" Sasuke said as he turned his back to the cell, facing the wall. Kakashi left the building and headed towards Naruto's apartment. He opened the door, knowing that Naruto's old habit was never going to be broken.
"Naruto" Kakashi called out, knowing the blonde was inside. Naruto was in his room, staring out the window sadly. Kakashi entered his room and sighed.
"Ma Naruto…since when are you so pathetic?" asked Kakashi.
"Leave me alone…" mumbled Naruto. Kakashi rolled his visible eye as he leaned against the door frame.
"You know it's in four days…" Kakashi said. Naruto sighed as he sat up.
"I know…"
"You are going to see him the night before…right?" asked Kakashi. Naruto shook his head.
"He doesn't want me there…and I don't want to be there" Naruto said. Kakashi crossed his arms.
"So you are going to let him get misguided in his path and never meet his parents?" asked Kakashi. Naruto turned to him slightly surprised and angry.
"He doesn't want my help" Naruto said. Kakashi smiled beneath his mask.
"Go the night before…you'll see it's going to be worthwhile. He needs you…and you need him…no matter what you two say…" Kakashi said. Naruto averted his gaze and nodded.
"I'll see him…for only a few minutes…" Naruto said. Kakashi smiled as he disappeared in a puff of smoke.
"But I won't guarantee I'll stay" Naruto finished. Naruto took out his journal and began to write his thoughts…even though they were all jumbled up.
Dear Journal:
Kakashi wants me to see Sasuke the night before…I wonder why? I've been thinking of all of this…all these years that Sasuke was gone…all the hate…all those years of building my reflection only to have it shattered in two weeks.
How come Sasuke has so much influence on me? He shattered my reflection so easily…it scared me. I was afraid of our love…and then I was afraid of losing that love. But Sasuke…Kyuubi and even Kakashi are right. Why am I acting so pathetic? The way of the shinobi is a hard and cold one. I am a shinobi of Konoha…and I must assume my responsibilities…the village is first…and I will never betray this village.
I was stupid to think otherwise…
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Wow…six and a little bit of pages…I feel so proud…/sweatdrops/ not…sorry for taking so long…other story got me hooked and this story is so angst…I lost my inspiration because of how the story is going…/cries/
Ly Mizukage: I like this Kakashi too ) he's so cool /hugs Kakashi plushie/ but Tsunade WILL learn…yes she will mwuahahahaha /coughs/
Lady Samurai: I hope you enjoy this chapter…I feel sorry for Sasuke…well…sometimes lol
Momochi Zabuza/hands a box of tissues over/ aww don't cry…hey haku…cheer him up…/sweatdrops/ I hope you like this chapter…I'm sorry about making you cry…I did too cry when I wrote that chapter…it was too angst even for me /sweatdrops/
Red Rose: yeah he lost his sight…wow…I'm actually not going easy on those poor love birds…makes me feel like I'm evil…/teary eyes…/
Srusse87: aww I'm sorry I made you cry…I'm getting that response a lot O.O I didn't know it was going to be so angst…I just wrote it out and I cried too
Lost ninja#1: I'm making a lot of people cry o.o I'm sorry for making you cry…/hands over some tissue/ I hope you like this chapter…it's not as angst as the last one
Tyranimo: I'm afraid he's not going to get his sight back…then again my story just keeps changing o.O won't know till the end tho XD
Bhodi li: you thought that too O.O I thought I was the only one who thought of the Romeo & Romeo lol /hands some more tissue/ there there…don't cry…/sweatdrops and notices how so far all the reviewers have been crying/
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Wow…I made everyone cry…I'm so sorry minna…I didn't know it was going to get this angst lol ja!