To Reya, From May & Lea!
Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade. Only a big poster of Kai and Ray. Drools
Summary: AU Yaoi / I wanted him to be mine. But he never looked at me that way and I was aware of it. I wanted to tell him that I didn't want to be only his friend, but also his lover. But I was afraid and I don't know why.
Genre: Drama, Romance, Tragedy
Rating: PG13/ T
A/N: Ok, so this is my first Beyblade and my first Yaoi fic. Please don't be very critic of it. It is dedicated to Reya-chan, who today turned 15. Happy birth day Reya! I know that it is spouse to be happy and that what you are about to read is sad. But I got this idea and I wanted to write it down as a birth day fic present for you. Hope you'll enjoy reading it.
Edited by Lea!
Warning: As you may notice this is an AU. So the characters in here are very OOC. Don't like it, don't read it!
AFRAID
I sat in my class and stared at a boy besides me.
He was my best friend.
I looked at his hair and thoughtful face.
I wanted him to be mine. But he never looked at me that way and I was aware of it
After class he turned to me and pleaded me for my notes.
I lend them to him.
He said ''Thanks.'' And hugged me.
I wanted to tell him that I didn't want to be only his friend.
But I was afraid and I don't know why.
A couple of months later the telephone rang. When I picked it up, he was on the other line.
As he cried and explained to me how his long time girlfriend broke his heart, I felt a sudden rage burst open inside me, but I kept it inside and didn't say nothing.
Then, out of the blue he asked me if I could come over, because he didn't want to be alone.
I was there in less than a minute.
We sat on the couch, ate some chips and watched some action movies.
I looked at his sad face but even sad it was very handsome.
I wanted him to be mine.
But he never looked at me that way and that I was aware of.
Then he said that he was feeling tired and that he is going to bed. We said our good byes, but before I left he looked me in my eyes and said ''Thank you .'' Then he hugged me.
I wanted to tell him that I love him, but I was to afraid and still I don't know why.
Next year we had a dance. A day before the big evening he came to me and said that his date is sick.
I also didn't have a date, so we decided too go together as best friends, as buddies without a date.
When the night was over I stood on his door steps.
I looked at him as he smiled at me and looked at me with those handsome blue eyes.
I wanted him to be mine.
But he never looked at me that way and I was aware of it.
Then he said ''Thanks, I had a great time.'' And then he hugged me very thighly.
I wanted to tell him that I didn't want to be only his friend anymore, that I loved him.
But I was to afraid and still, I don't know why.
The days past, so did the months and all of a sudden the day when we graduate high school came.
I looked as he walked on the stage to get his diploma.
He was so handsome, his hair shining, his face flawless. So very handsome.
I wanted him to be mine. With all my heart I wanted him to be mine.
But I was aware that he never looked at me that way.
Before we went home he came to me. He cried and I hugged him.
Then he lifted his face and said. ''You are my best friend. Thank you.'' Then he hugged me backwith all his might.
I wanted to tell him that I didn't want to be only his friend anymore, I wanted him to know that. I wanted to tell him that I love him.
But I was afraid and still I don't know why.
I am sitting in a church. My friend is getting married, he is getting married now.
I looked at him, how he stood before the altar, he was very handsome.
I looked as he said ''yes'' and I felt a pang at my heart, like something just shattered.
I wanted him to be mine, but he loved her and I was aware of it
And I knew, he would never looked at me the way he did at her.
Before he took of with his new wife in to a new life he came to me.
He hugged me and said. ''You came. Thanks.'' Than he hugged me again.
I wanted to tell him, I wanted to tell him how I feel about him, I wanted to tell him that I don't want to be only a friend, that I love him.
But I was afraid and I don't know why.
Years past and now I'm looking in coffin of a boy who once was my best friend.
When they were reading his Journal of his collage days, they also read these words.
''I watch him and want him to be mine. But he never looks at me that way, the way I'm looking him and I'm aware of it. I want to tell him, I want him to know. But I'm to afraid and I don't know why. Maybe I'm just waiting for the right moment, or maybe I just want him to be the first to talk. How I wish that he'll come and tell me that he loves me.''
'How I wish I would. Takao...' I, Kai Hiwatari though as I cried silent tears.
THE END
So what do you think? Review? Flames will be stuck down your asses. -Any problems? .
Ps. You think this was way to OOC, wellI did leave a warning. So it's your entire fault!