Max: Hey! I'm so happy you decided to read this! LITS! You have a reader!
LITS: WHERE?! *pulls out binoculars* Yahoo! I thought you'd all ditch my story since I took so long to re make it! Thanks to all you patient reviewers! If you read all five of the chaps last time, you'll recognize some parts from the previous story. Still, there'll be some twists so don't worry, I'll keep ya guessing!!!!
Max: Hmph, yeah right, anyways.I'll do the disclaimer! Lost In The Shadows doesn't own Beyblade! So there! But if you really want to sue someone then sue Adyna. Apparently she has a stash of money hidden-
Adyna: FINISH THAT SENTINCE AND I'LL SCREW YOU FOUR WAYS FROM TUESDAY!!!!!
Max and LITS: *sweatdrop*
LITS: er.is someone a little moody today?
Adyna: NO! *leaves room and slams door behind her*
Max: hehehe.er.anyways, READ AND REVIEW!!!!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
As soon as I finished the meal I forced myself to sit there. The food made my stomach ache and I couldn't stand much more of this.
"Hey, Max, you okay?" asked Tyson in between bites. I blinked. No, I'm not okay. I want to die so I don't have to live another second of my life in misery.
"Yeah Tyson. I'm fine!" I said with a smile. I don't know if it's possible but I've forgotten what it feels like to really smile. Finally, I excused myself and went to the bathroom. Luckily there was only one bathroom, sink and such included. I stared at my reflection for a moment before turning on the sink. I hated who was staring back at me. I quickly washed my hands then lifted the toilet seat and pushed two of my fingers into the back of my throat. My stomach heaved and my dinner came back up. Tears stung my eyes as I choked slightly and went to the sink to wash my mouth out. As soon as the taste was out of my mouth I went back and thrust my fingers into the back of my throat again. It took another minute before I was done and everything was out. Part of me, a big part, is afraid that the boys will find out. They're the only friends I've ever been able to make. They'll think I have an eating disorder and I'll never be able to look them in the eyes. To tell the truth, I haven't really had to worry about my weight. I have a fast metabolism. It's just. . .I made a mistake once and purging just became a habit. . . along with other things. . .
"Are you alright in there?" called a voice through the door. I quickly flushed the toilet and washed my hands and face.
"Yeah, just a minute!" I opened the door and went back to my seat. ~~~~~~~~
"Sorry you guys, there was a line up." Max said sitting down.
"Don't worry about it, it seems like Tyson's not done eating the restaurant out of business." Said Kenny, watching Tyson. I smiled lightly before taking a sip from my soda to rid my mouth of any after taste that my dinner gave me. ~~~~
Rei's POV
Max's face was slightly flushed and a little bit of hair around his face was wet. Was he sick? I don't remember him ever complaining of feeling sick. or complaining of anything for that matter. I don't think he's sick, but what could be wrong?
"Hey, I'm pretty tired, I'm going to bed." Said Max.
"It's only eight o'clock." I said. Max smiled and shrugged.
"I'm tired. Good night, oh Rei, I'm sharing a room with you, right?" I nodded. I watched Max leave from beneath my bangs. Behind his smile, he looked so sad. I want so badly to hold him close and be there for him but I don't think he'd appreciate it, coming from a boy and all. Maybe someday I'll tell him, but in the mean time, I can dream, can't I?~~~~
It was ten fifteen before we went to bed. I didn't turn on the light, not wanting to wake up Max. I grabbed my night shirt and boxers and got changed before climbing onto the other side of the bed. It had been, what, ten minutes since we came up here and I could already hear Tyson snoring from the room down the hall, poor Kai. I was lucky, Max didn't snore or kick, like Mariah did when we shared beds. I turned to face Max's sleeping form, he looked so innocent, so beautiful. The moonlight that came through the window played upon his golden hair, making it almost glow. He was an angel, my angel. Argh, what am I saying? Chances are he likes Tyson, if he likes boys that is. They spend so much time together. . .wow. . .I never figured myself to be jealous of Tyson. . . I sighed and turned onto my back. I'd spend the whole night thinking about Max if I don't stop now.
Max's Dream~~~~
"You're such a pretty boy. Do you know how long I've wanted you?" Invisible hands grabbed at me, pulling, pinching, pushing, I wanted it to stop!
"No one would miss you if they found out what a slut you were!"
"NO!!! It's not true! LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled but the hands continued to grope me.
".enjoy yourself last night?" came the harsh whisper in my ears. I screamed and punched wildly at the voice but I hit air. Suddenly my arms and legs fell limp and I was falling. I landed painfully on the floor, unable to move. It was just like that night, all over again.
"No! Please just stop, why won't you-" End dream.~~~~
"STOP!" I yelled, bolting upright in my bed. It took me a moment to realize that I was back in my room. Glancing at the clock, I cursed, 3:00 am. I sighed and wiped sweat from my forehead. Feeling wetness on my cheeks, I realized that I had been crying. ~Baka, never cry. You know what happens when you cry. . .No, he can't get you here, he wouldn't dare.~ I thought. Still, it didn't help to quell the nervous feelings I had. Beside me, Rei sighed and inched closer to me. I smiled faintly and touched his silky black hair lightly. My light, my tiny bit of light that shone in the shadows where I lived. I frowned, thinking of what Rei would do if he knew. He'd probably flip. Shaking my head, I lay back down and closed my eyes, breathing in the scent of Rei. It made me smile slightly, how he could comfort me without even knowing it. . .but he wouldn't touch me if he knew what I really was. . .a whore. . .
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LITS: I know it's short but don't worry, I'm also updating the second chap! Here, I baked these for you while you were reading. *holds up a tray of chocolate chip muffins* Enjoy and DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW!!!!
LITS: WHERE?! *pulls out binoculars* Yahoo! I thought you'd all ditch my story since I took so long to re make it! Thanks to all you patient reviewers! If you read all five of the chaps last time, you'll recognize some parts from the previous story. Still, there'll be some twists so don't worry, I'll keep ya guessing!!!!
Max: Hmph, yeah right, anyways.I'll do the disclaimer! Lost In The Shadows doesn't own Beyblade! So there! But if you really want to sue someone then sue Adyna. Apparently she has a stash of money hidden-
Adyna: FINISH THAT SENTINCE AND I'LL SCREW YOU FOUR WAYS FROM TUESDAY!!!!!
Max and LITS: *sweatdrop*
LITS: er.is someone a little moody today?
Adyna: NO! *leaves room and slams door behind her*
Max: hehehe.er.anyways, READ AND REVIEW!!!!! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
As soon as I finished the meal I forced myself to sit there. The food made my stomach ache and I couldn't stand much more of this.
"Hey, Max, you okay?" asked Tyson in between bites. I blinked. No, I'm not okay. I want to die so I don't have to live another second of my life in misery.
"Yeah Tyson. I'm fine!" I said with a smile. I don't know if it's possible but I've forgotten what it feels like to really smile. Finally, I excused myself and went to the bathroom. Luckily there was only one bathroom, sink and such included. I stared at my reflection for a moment before turning on the sink. I hated who was staring back at me. I quickly washed my hands then lifted the toilet seat and pushed two of my fingers into the back of my throat. My stomach heaved and my dinner came back up. Tears stung my eyes as I choked slightly and went to the sink to wash my mouth out. As soon as the taste was out of my mouth I went back and thrust my fingers into the back of my throat again. It took another minute before I was done and everything was out. Part of me, a big part, is afraid that the boys will find out. They're the only friends I've ever been able to make. They'll think I have an eating disorder and I'll never be able to look them in the eyes. To tell the truth, I haven't really had to worry about my weight. I have a fast metabolism. It's just. . .I made a mistake once and purging just became a habit. . . along with other things. . .
"Are you alright in there?" called a voice through the door. I quickly flushed the toilet and washed my hands and face.
"Yeah, just a minute!" I opened the door and went back to my seat. ~~~~~~~~
"Sorry you guys, there was a line up." Max said sitting down.
"Don't worry about it, it seems like Tyson's not done eating the restaurant out of business." Said Kenny, watching Tyson. I smiled lightly before taking a sip from my soda to rid my mouth of any after taste that my dinner gave me. ~~~~
Rei's POV
Max's face was slightly flushed and a little bit of hair around his face was wet. Was he sick? I don't remember him ever complaining of feeling sick. or complaining of anything for that matter. I don't think he's sick, but what could be wrong?
"Hey, I'm pretty tired, I'm going to bed." Said Max.
"It's only eight o'clock." I said. Max smiled and shrugged.
"I'm tired. Good night, oh Rei, I'm sharing a room with you, right?" I nodded. I watched Max leave from beneath my bangs. Behind his smile, he looked so sad. I want so badly to hold him close and be there for him but I don't think he'd appreciate it, coming from a boy and all. Maybe someday I'll tell him, but in the mean time, I can dream, can't I?~~~~
It was ten fifteen before we went to bed. I didn't turn on the light, not wanting to wake up Max. I grabbed my night shirt and boxers and got changed before climbing onto the other side of the bed. It had been, what, ten minutes since we came up here and I could already hear Tyson snoring from the room down the hall, poor Kai. I was lucky, Max didn't snore or kick, like Mariah did when we shared beds. I turned to face Max's sleeping form, he looked so innocent, so beautiful. The moonlight that came through the window played upon his golden hair, making it almost glow. He was an angel, my angel. Argh, what am I saying? Chances are he likes Tyson, if he likes boys that is. They spend so much time together. . .wow. . .I never figured myself to be jealous of Tyson. . . I sighed and turned onto my back. I'd spend the whole night thinking about Max if I don't stop now.
Max's Dream~~~~
"You're such a pretty boy. Do you know how long I've wanted you?" Invisible hands grabbed at me, pulling, pinching, pushing, I wanted it to stop!
"No one would miss you if they found out what a slut you were!"
"NO!!! It's not true! LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yelled but the hands continued to grope me.
".enjoy yourself last night?" came the harsh whisper in my ears. I screamed and punched wildly at the voice but I hit air. Suddenly my arms and legs fell limp and I was falling. I landed painfully on the floor, unable to move. It was just like that night, all over again.
"No! Please just stop, why won't you-" End dream.~~~~
"STOP!" I yelled, bolting upright in my bed. It took me a moment to realize that I was back in my room. Glancing at the clock, I cursed, 3:00 am. I sighed and wiped sweat from my forehead. Feeling wetness on my cheeks, I realized that I had been crying. ~Baka, never cry. You know what happens when you cry. . .No, he can't get you here, he wouldn't dare.~ I thought. Still, it didn't help to quell the nervous feelings I had. Beside me, Rei sighed and inched closer to me. I smiled faintly and touched his silky black hair lightly. My light, my tiny bit of light that shone in the shadows where I lived. I frowned, thinking of what Rei would do if he knew. He'd probably flip. Shaking my head, I lay back down and closed my eyes, breathing in the scent of Rei. It made me smile slightly, how he could comfort me without even knowing it. . .but he wouldn't touch me if he knew what I really was. . .a whore. . .
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LITS: I know it's short but don't worry, I'm also updating the second chap! Here, I baked these for you while you were reading. *holds up a tray of chocolate chip muffins* Enjoy and DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW!!!!