LITS: Thanks to all you people who I haven't put up here! I appreciate your
reviews!!!! Your comments mean so much to me! BEWARE: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS
RAPE!!!! Oh, by the way, I just got a blog, it's depressing but if you
want to see it, here's the address:
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the chapter, P.s. I don't own Beyblade but I do own this strange yet
confusing lizard compass. I don't think it works too well. . . .
BIG THANKS AND COMMENTS TO. . . .
SilveryKitsune: Rei and Max: O.o Make love? Lits: *winks at Kitsune* So happy that you like the story! Thanks for explaining the rape thing Kyoko. I would have been red as a tomato if I had to explain! ;)
Cute Dragon: :D I love the kissing part too, I didn't think I'd add any shounen-ai till later. . .
WolfSapphire200: Thanks so much for your encouragement! It means a lot to me!
KeenaSky: Kewl! I'm so glad you like my story! It's my first try at yaoi so I'm happy that it's working out okay. You're comment about my angsty talent made me swell with pride! :D
Celria: Too bad about the writer's block. Here, I've got just the thing! A hug, a wink of encouragement and your own, official ice pick to hack away at the pesky block!
CrEaTiVe-LoTus-BlOsSom: Okay, okay, don't get your boxers in a twist! ;D here's the next chap!
Lily Carroll: MmMmMmmmm, *imagines choco cake*. Lily, or Ms/Mrs. Carroll, what can I say? You have such great encouragement and comments to make! I'm so happy you like my story! ~~~~~
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~!~!~!~LAST CHAPTER~!~!~!~ Max's POV
What was I supposed to say to that? I'm not killing myself, though, Rei was wrong about that. Rei, don't cry, please, don't cry. I'm so sorry. Damn it! Why won't my mouth work?! God, Rei, if I knew for sure what was happening to me, I'd tell you in an instant. Rei, don't cry! I blink as the world swirls around me, but I don't feel dizzy. Then my vision is clear and there's something warm on my face, I touch it with my hand. I'm crying. I'm crying but not for me, I'm crying because Rei is crying. Suddenly Rei is in my arms, he's shaking. I can't believe he's in my arms. I can't believe he's crying. I can't believe he's crying *for me*.
"Max, please." Is all he says between quiet sobs. My arms tighten around him. I don't want to let go. I don't want to face Josh, but I can't let him hurt you. Rei, I love you but I'm sorry. . . ~!~!~!~
Max's POV
His sobs are breaking my heart. I can't believe I'm hurting him so much. . .
"Max!" Intruded Josh's nasal voice. I took one last deep breath, inhaling Rei's foresty scent and let go of him. I'd never felt so detached in my life.
" Rei, just, forget about it, it's not important. I need to talk with Josh." I said before turning my back to his penetrating golden eyes. Josh watched Rei leave with narrowed gray eyes before addressing me.
"We're leaving." He stated. I looked up in surprise, 'what the hell was he playing at?'
"Don't look at me like that, you agreed to be mine. We leave today." I opened my mouth to protest but I was met by the back of his hand. My jaw snapped shut, closing on my tongue. I stumbled back, hissing in pain. Josh grabbed one of my arms and glared at me.
"*Never* talk back to me. Never." He said in a quiet yet deadly voice. I nodded, tasting my own blood flood my mouth. Damn, my tongue hurt real bad.
"Go pack your shit and tell your team captain something. We leave in half an hour." He said, throwing me to the ground. I stumbled and landed on my palms. I got up slowly, expecting more pain but felt nothing. Taking advantage of Josh's short lived patience, I went to my room and began packing. 'God, I don't want to leave. I don't want to remember, please, don't let me remember.' I thought as I packed my belongings. But I can't help it, the memories flood back, taking over my mind.
~~Flashback to When Max was visiting his Mom ~~
"Hey Max, I'm home! When you're finished your homework, come on out and we'll have dinner." Called Joshua. Max looked up from his math homework and moved his chair back so he could see his older brother in the kitchen.
"Josh, what kept you? You were supposed to be home an hour ago. You know Mom and Dad aren't going to be home till tomorrow, right?" Said Max.
" Yeah yeah, I know. I had to pick up something, is a salad with macaroni okay with you?" Max grinned lopsidedly. It wasn't like Josh knew how to cook anything other then macaroni.
"Sure, I'm done so I'll come out and help you." Answered Max before turning back to his homework.
"It's okay, I'll cook. Just set the table for me, kay?" Max muttered a yes before closing his books and shoving them back into his knapsack. He collected cutlery and dishes and went to set the table. It was barely a half an hour before supper was done and the two of them sat down to eat.
"So, how was school?" asked Josh. Max shrugged.
"The usual. Nothing exciting. How's college?"
"Okay. Mom's one of the substitute professors and it's horrible. She always has her eye on me and she takes every opportunity to embarrass me. I hear Dad's going to let you work in the hobby shop." Max beamed with pride and took another bit of his macaroni.
"Yup! I can't wait! You know what Josh, you make the best macaroni and cheese I've ever had!" said Max. Josh simply smiled and continued eating. The rest of the meal was eaten in a comfortable silence.
"That was good. I'll take the dishes back." Said Max. Josh nodded, watching him carefully.
~~Max's POV~~
~ I'm feeling awful tired. It's not like I didn't get any sleep last night.~ I thought as I started to wash the dishes. Suddenly I was finding it really hard to stand straight and my arms felt so heavy.
"What's wrong with me?" I muttered, holding onto the counter. I quickly became aware that Joshua had come up behind me and he had wrapped his arms around my waist.
"What. . .are. . .you doing?" I asked, finding it hard to form words. I felt Josh laugh against my back and pick me up. I tried so hard to struggle but I could barely move. Josh took me into the bedroom and lay me down before climbing on top of me and started to remove my clothes. I moaned and tried to push him off but he swatted my hands away and smacked me.
"You. . .you drugged me. You put. . .it. . .in my food. . .why are. . .you. . .doing this?" I said. Josh smiled cruelly and bent down to kiss me. I thought I was going to be sick as I felt his tongue enter my mouth. I bit down as hard as I could and the coppery taste of blood filled my mouth. Josh pulled back with a cry and punched me hard in the face. He seemed to loose interest with kissing as he undid my pants and pulled them down.
"You're such a pretty boy. Do you know how long I've wanted you?"
"Stop. . .Josh, please." I said, tears welling up in my eyes. He ignored me and moved my legs. Fiery pain shot through me as he thrust into me.
"AAAAAAAAAA! JOSH! NO!" I screamed until my throat burned. I thought he would rip me apart.
"You're mine, Max, all mine! I control you Max, I've made you mine. You're my whore." Panted Josh. I wanted so badly not feel the pain that my own brother was inflicting on me, to not hear his words!!!!! His breath was hot and sticky against my neck as he thrust in and out of me and his nails dug deep into my shoulders and neck, drawing blood. God, I wanted to die so bad. I closed my eyes, trying to imagine myself somewhere else, somewhere where I couldn't feel anything, but every time I opened my eyes, I saw his dark lust filled gray ones staring back at me. Finally, his body shuddered and he collapsed on me. He fell asleep still inside me. It was hours before I could move and I shoved him off of me. I immediately went to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I made it as hot as I could bare and scrubbed hard at my skin.
"Josh, why? You've made me so dirty and it won't go away!" I said. Eventually my skin started to bleed from my scrubbing but I didn't stop until my body felt numb. No more pain, no more guilt, no more shame. . . Then the tears came and I couldn't stop them. I sat down in the shower and cried. My world was caving in and there was no way out. I slowly became aware that the hot water had run out so I turned off the shower left the bathroom. I crept into my own room and locked the door. I changed into a green turtle neck and blue jeans and opened the door to leave when I saw Josh standing outside. I immediately slammed the door and tried to lock it but he forced his way in and grabbed me by the throat.
"What's the matter Max? You didn't enjoy yourself last night? I did, you're such a tight little whore, let's do it again soon." I whimpered as his other hand roamed across my body, stopping in between my legs.
"Max, if you tell anyone, I'll kill you. No one would miss you if they found out what a slut you were! Got that? GOT IT?!" He yelled, throwing me against the wall. I winced and nodded, struggling to get air into my lungs. He pulled me to my feet and pressed his lips to mine. I refused to open my mouth so he twisted my wrist hard. I gasped in pain as something snapped and his tongue made it's way into my mouth. It was hell all over again.
~~End Flashback~ Still Max's POV~~
Heh, I guess it goes without saying that I've never been able to eat macaroni since. Anyways, that's how it went. Every time my parents left me alone with Josh, he took advantage of me. He'd drug my food then rape me. I learned to throw up after every meal but it didn't matter to him. Even worse, I'd throw up any food I ate, I just couldn't stop for fear that somehow, he'd drugged my food. He liked it when I fought. I hate being helpless but every time, I find myself beneath him, being pounded into the bed. Helpless.
If my friends knew about the r. . .what Josh did to me, I'd kill myself. It's bad enough that it happens but I wouldn't be able to stand having them know. They'd be so disgusted that I let something like that happen to me. Kai would probably kick me off the team and Rei. . .i can't even think about it. I wish I died, God, why didn't I die?
"Max? Why are you packing?" I turned to look at Kai.
"My mom is sick and she wants me there. Sorry but I have to go. I'll call you in a couple of days." I said without hesitation. Kai regarded me with steely crimson eyes before nodding and leaving. How could someone so observant be so blind? I've finished packing and I hadn't realized it. I shoulder my bag and take it downstairs. Rei is there, watching T.V. He doesn't even look at me. Josh is standing outside next to a cab. Josh sees me and motions for me to hurry up. I nod and leave the rented house. Sighing, I take one last look at Rei and get into the cab. Good-bye Rei.
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LITS: Er. . . .i hope you like it! O.oU
Adyna: You're way to self conscious. Just go with the flow.
LITS: yeah, when pigs fly. Anyways, for all you devoted fans, Max and I made these! *Holds up sad Maxie plushies* When you hug them, they smile!!! Heheheeee!
Max: The more reviews LITS get the faster she updates!!!!!
BIG THANKS AND COMMENTS TO. . . .
SilveryKitsune: Rei and Max: O.o Make love? Lits: *winks at Kitsune* So happy that you like the story! Thanks for explaining the rape thing Kyoko. I would have been red as a tomato if I had to explain! ;)
Cute Dragon: :D I love the kissing part too, I didn't think I'd add any shounen-ai till later. . .
WolfSapphire200: Thanks so much for your encouragement! It means a lot to me!
KeenaSky: Kewl! I'm so glad you like my story! It's my first try at yaoi so I'm happy that it's working out okay. You're comment about my angsty talent made me swell with pride! :D
Celria: Too bad about the writer's block. Here, I've got just the thing! A hug, a wink of encouragement and your own, official ice pick to hack away at the pesky block!
CrEaTiVe-LoTus-BlOsSom: Okay, okay, don't get your boxers in a twist! ;D here's the next chap!
Lily Carroll: MmMmMmmmm, *imagines choco cake*. Lily, or Ms/Mrs. Carroll, what can I say? You have such great encouragement and comments to make! I'm so happy you like my story! ~~~~~
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~!~!~!~LAST CHAPTER~!~!~!~ Max's POV
What was I supposed to say to that? I'm not killing myself, though, Rei was wrong about that. Rei, don't cry, please, don't cry. I'm so sorry. Damn it! Why won't my mouth work?! God, Rei, if I knew for sure what was happening to me, I'd tell you in an instant. Rei, don't cry! I blink as the world swirls around me, but I don't feel dizzy. Then my vision is clear and there's something warm on my face, I touch it with my hand. I'm crying. I'm crying but not for me, I'm crying because Rei is crying. Suddenly Rei is in my arms, he's shaking. I can't believe he's in my arms. I can't believe he's crying. I can't believe he's crying *for me*.
"Max, please." Is all he says between quiet sobs. My arms tighten around him. I don't want to let go. I don't want to face Josh, but I can't let him hurt you. Rei, I love you but I'm sorry. . . ~!~!~!~
Max's POV
His sobs are breaking my heart. I can't believe I'm hurting him so much. . .
"Max!" Intruded Josh's nasal voice. I took one last deep breath, inhaling Rei's foresty scent and let go of him. I'd never felt so detached in my life.
" Rei, just, forget about it, it's not important. I need to talk with Josh." I said before turning my back to his penetrating golden eyes. Josh watched Rei leave with narrowed gray eyes before addressing me.
"We're leaving." He stated. I looked up in surprise, 'what the hell was he playing at?'
"Don't look at me like that, you agreed to be mine. We leave today." I opened my mouth to protest but I was met by the back of his hand. My jaw snapped shut, closing on my tongue. I stumbled back, hissing in pain. Josh grabbed one of my arms and glared at me.
"*Never* talk back to me. Never." He said in a quiet yet deadly voice. I nodded, tasting my own blood flood my mouth. Damn, my tongue hurt real bad.
"Go pack your shit and tell your team captain something. We leave in half an hour." He said, throwing me to the ground. I stumbled and landed on my palms. I got up slowly, expecting more pain but felt nothing. Taking advantage of Josh's short lived patience, I went to my room and began packing. 'God, I don't want to leave. I don't want to remember, please, don't let me remember.' I thought as I packed my belongings. But I can't help it, the memories flood back, taking over my mind.
~~Flashback to When Max was visiting his Mom ~~
"Hey Max, I'm home! When you're finished your homework, come on out and we'll have dinner." Called Joshua. Max looked up from his math homework and moved his chair back so he could see his older brother in the kitchen.
"Josh, what kept you? You were supposed to be home an hour ago. You know Mom and Dad aren't going to be home till tomorrow, right?" Said Max.
" Yeah yeah, I know. I had to pick up something, is a salad with macaroni okay with you?" Max grinned lopsidedly. It wasn't like Josh knew how to cook anything other then macaroni.
"Sure, I'm done so I'll come out and help you." Answered Max before turning back to his homework.
"It's okay, I'll cook. Just set the table for me, kay?" Max muttered a yes before closing his books and shoving them back into his knapsack. He collected cutlery and dishes and went to set the table. It was barely a half an hour before supper was done and the two of them sat down to eat.
"So, how was school?" asked Josh. Max shrugged.
"The usual. Nothing exciting. How's college?"
"Okay. Mom's one of the substitute professors and it's horrible. She always has her eye on me and she takes every opportunity to embarrass me. I hear Dad's going to let you work in the hobby shop." Max beamed with pride and took another bit of his macaroni.
"Yup! I can't wait! You know what Josh, you make the best macaroni and cheese I've ever had!" said Max. Josh simply smiled and continued eating. The rest of the meal was eaten in a comfortable silence.
"That was good. I'll take the dishes back." Said Max. Josh nodded, watching him carefully.
~~Max's POV~~
~ I'm feeling awful tired. It's not like I didn't get any sleep last night.~ I thought as I started to wash the dishes. Suddenly I was finding it really hard to stand straight and my arms felt so heavy.
"What's wrong with me?" I muttered, holding onto the counter. I quickly became aware that Joshua had come up behind me and he had wrapped his arms around my waist.
"What. . .are. . .you doing?" I asked, finding it hard to form words. I felt Josh laugh against my back and pick me up. I tried so hard to struggle but I could barely move. Josh took me into the bedroom and lay me down before climbing on top of me and started to remove my clothes. I moaned and tried to push him off but he swatted my hands away and smacked me.
"You. . .you drugged me. You put. . .it. . .in my food. . .why are. . .you. . .doing this?" I said. Josh smiled cruelly and bent down to kiss me. I thought I was going to be sick as I felt his tongue enter my mouth. I bit down as hard as I could and the coppery taste of blood filled my mouth. Josh pulled back with a cry and punched me hard in the face. He seemed to loose interest with kissing as he undid my pants and pulled them down.
"You're such a pretty boy. Do you know how long I've wanted you?"
"Stop. . .Josh, please." I said, tears welling up in my eyes. He ignored me and moved my legs. Fiery pain shot through me as he thrust into me.
"AAAAAAAAAA! JOSH! NO!" I screamed until my throat burned. I thought he would rip me apart.
"You're mine, Max, all mine! I control you Max, I've made you mine. You're my whore." Panted Josh. I wanted so badly not feel the pain that my own brother was inflicting on me, to not hear his words!!!!! His breath was hot and sticky against my neck as he thrust in and out of me and his nails dug deep into my shoulders and neck, drawing blood. God, I wanted to die so bad. I closed my eyes, trying to imagine myself somewhere else, somewhere where I couldn't feel anything, but every time I opened my eyes, I saw his dark lust filled gray ones staring back at me. Finally, his body shuddered and he collapsed on me. He fell asleep still inside me. It was hours before I could move and I shoved him off of me. I immediately went to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I made it as hot as I could bare and scrubbed hard at my skin.
"Josh, why? You've made me so dirty and it won't go away!" I said. Eventually my skin started to bleed from my scrubbing but I didn't stop until my body felt numb. No more pain, no more guilt, no more shame. . . Then the tears came and I couldn't stop them. I sat down in the shower and cried. My world was caving in and there was no way out. I slowly became aware that the hot water had run out so I turned off the shower left the bathroom. I crept into my own room and locked the door. I changed into a green turtle neck and blue jeans and opened the door to leave when I saw Josh standing outside. I immediately slammed the door and tried to lock it but he forced his way in and grabbed me by the throat.
"What's the matter Max? You didn't enjoy yourself last night? I did, you're such a tight little whore, let's do it again soon." I whimpered as his other hand roamed across my body, stopping in between my legs.
"Max, if you tell anyone, I'll kill you. No one would miss you if they found out what a slut you were! Got that? GOT IT?!" He yelled, throwing me against the wall. I winced and nodded, struggling to get air into my lungs. He pulled me to my feet and pressed his lips to mine. I refused to open my mouth so he twisted my wrist hard. I gasped in pain as something snapped and his tongue made it's way into my mouth. It was hell all over again.
~~End Flashback~ Still Max's POV~~
Heh, I guess it goes without saying that I've never been able to eat macaroni since. Anyways, that's how it went. Every time my parents left me alone with Josh, he took advantage of me. He'd drug my food then rape me. I learned to throw up after every meal but it didn't matter to him. Even worse, I'd throw up any food I ate, I just couldn't stop for fear that somehow, he'd drugged my food. He liked it when I fought. I hate being helpless but every time, I find myself beneath him, being pounded into the bed. Helpless.
If my friends knew about the r. . .what Josh did to me, I'd kill myself. It's bad enough that it happens but I wouldn't be able to stand having them know. They'd be so disgusted that I let something like that happen to me. Kai would probably kick me off the team and Rei. . .i can't even think about it. I wish I died, God, why didn't I die?
"Max? Why are you packing?" I turned to look at Kai.
"My mom is sick and she wants me there. Sorry but I have to go. I'll call you in a couple of days." I said without hesitation. Kai regarded me with steely crimson eyes before nodding and leaving. How could someone so observant be so blind? I've finished packing and I hadn't realized it. I shoulder my bag and take it downstairs. Rei is there, watching T.V. He doesn't even look at me. Josh is standing outside next to a cab. Josh sees me and motions for me to hurry up. I nod and leave the rented house. Sighing, I take one last look at Rei and get into the cab. Good-bye Rei.
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LITS: Er. . . .i hope you like it! O.oU
Adyna: You're way to self conscious. Just go with the flow.
LITS: yeah, when pigs fly. Anyways, for all you devoted fans, Max and I made these! *Holds up sad Maxie plushies* When you hug them, they smile!!! Heheheeee!
Max: The more reviews LITS get the faster she updates!!!!!