Title: One more night.
Author: Shiobhan.
Summary: Alexander shortly after Hephaestion death. His thoughts.
Disclaimer: I do not own Alexander, movie wise or history wise. I do however own the lyrics in this story, they are mine and mine alone.
Notes: this came up in a sudden flare of inspiration. I wrote the lyrics first then wrote the story around it. I hope it makes a little sense, because it reflect Alexander deteriorating state of mind.

One more night.Shiobhan.: Alexander shortly after Hephaestion death. His thoughts.: I do not own Alexander, movie wise or history wise. I do however own the lyrics in this story, they are mine and mine alone.: this came up in a sudden flare of inspiration. I wrote the lyrics first then wrote the story around it. I hope it makes a little sense, because it reflect Alexander deteriorating state of mind.

ONE MORE NIGHT

A gust of wind blew past him.
Alexander turned from his position at the window to face Hephaestion. Instantly he saw still face and horror dawned on his face, quickly replaced by a look of naked anguish and he screamed. He screamed Hephaestion's name while his soul was shredded to pieces.
Alarmed guards and servants flooded the room, surprise and fear clear on their faces, but he ignored them. Pain, grief and loss overwhelmed him so he did the only thing that could bring him a brief respite; he curled himself up beside his long time friend and soul mate.

I wish for one more night in your sweet arms
But your body is so cold and empty
Your soul has departed this world
You left me all alone
In this cruel empty world.

Looking back he couldn't remember how much time he spent curled up beside his Hephaestion, but looking back it was too short. Once they took his body away he was really gone. His brave, valiant, sweet, gifted Hephaestion.
The time shortly after his friend's death was vague and unclear, but somehow he made it through, but he couldn't remember anything but Hephaestion's face always hovering just outside his reach.

I wish for one more night with you
I can let you go; I want to be with you
Hear me, hear my cries of anguish
Please come to me once more
Because I love you with all my heart and soul

The world didn't stop existing, but life went on much as it always did. Not so for Alexander. He spent his nights with Bagoas, chasing a brief spark of life to chase the darkness away, but these moments were brief, too brief before grief and loss overtook him again. He mourned his friend, but he didn't know how too. So he drank. He drank and drank to numb the pain, but the pain always came back, with a vengeance. Worse than before

I wish for one more night to hold you tight
To feel your heart close to mine
My heart is breaking, I close my eyes
And see you so near, but just out of reach
I want to hold you one more time

He spent the nights he wasn't with the young eunuch staring out in the night recalling past memories of his time with Hephaestion till it made his head hurt. His existence was pandemonium. Now that Hephaestion had left him, his life was in shadows where before there had been light.
He wanted it to end, but he couldn't. He snarled at the shadows closing in, while another part of him embraced them. He hoped it would end soon. He could not go on any longer. Not like this. Not without his Hephaestion. If only he could escape to that part of his soul that was Hephaestion, he could have peace.

One more night I open my heart and soul to you
I am a shadow of my former self
And empty being without you to fill me
My heart is in pieces, my soul is torn
But I will keep my promise to you

Soon I will hold you once more