Above the Heights of Heaven, Below the Depths of Hell

Chapter 1: Entering the Gates of Heaven

Sakura leapt up in joy and bid her mother good – bye as she fluttered away, flapping her wings gracefully. The first ones she would find would be Syaoran, Tomoyo, and Eirol. She was still friends with those three, even after the Card Captor days. Tomoyo died a few years before Sakura did, leaving Eirol and Sakura pained, just as when Syaoran died. Soon after the death of Tomoyo, Eirol died. Sakura always guessed it was because of loneliness and depression that Eirol died. And of course, he had an empty spot in his heart that Tomoyo had once filled. Sakua saddened at the thoughts of her old life, before she was an angel. (A/N: Sorry my tablets are so bad... but I don't know what to write on them! ;)

--Flashback--

She climbed out of her luxurious car alone and carried three bundles of flowers. One of cherry blossoms, one of plum blossoms, and one of yellow roses. The sky overhead was cloudy, even though it was still daybreak. The rain poured down on Sakura's auburn strands of hair and then down onto her angelic face, even though she didn't seem to notice it. She stood motionless, almost like she was completely unaware of her surroundings.

She stood a moment or two like this before she made an action towards one of the graves beside the many in the gloomy graveyard. Sakura kneeled down gently and placed the cherry blossoms next to one grave. Tears slid down her face as more memories flooded back. This tablet was engraved with:

R.I.P.

Li Xiao Lang

Small Wolf, we hope you rest at peace.

Above the heights of Heaven, where you now reside.

Point your nose at the darkened night skies,

Toward the shining moon,

You raise your voice and howl.

Shine like the moon, in the darkened night skies...

Shine...small wolf...shine.

The stone tablet was simple but yet it meant so much. Sakura felt pain strike her body as she started to cry more. More tears dripped down her face, but were concealed by the rain. The graveyard was dead silent except for the occasional howls of the wind and the sobs of Sakura. "Syaoran," Sakura said. "I hope you're happy where you live now. I miss you so much; I couldn't explain it in words. Syaoran...don't forget me. You just can't. You promised me! I love you! For eternity! Remember that. Please remember. Look. These cherry blossoms are a symbolization of our love. They're Sakura blossoms. My favorite blossoms, and you always said they were your favorite too. Because...because...they reminded you of me. Let these help you remember, let these help you never forget. Never forget our love, Syaoran. It's more precious than anything in the world."

"I will remember...Sakura...I will...remember..." Sakura thought she heard a voice, but turned only to hear the howling wind at her back. She sighed. There was so much more to say, but she had to move on.

Next to this one, Sakura set down purple blossoms. If you looked closer, they were really plum blossoms. This one was engraved with a message as well.

R.I.P.

Daidoujii Tomoyo

Tomoyo, Tomoyo,

Bloom, Tomoyo, Bloom.

Just like the beautiful plum blossoms you are.

Angelic face, dressed in lace,

Bloom, Tomoyo, Bloom.

Hope you will always be happy in Heaven,

And shine like the radiant angel you are.

Amen.

More tears. They would not stop. "Tomoyo, why did you have to leave? You were the best friend and cousin a girl could ever ask for. Did you know Eirol died so soon after you because he missed you so much? I know that was the reason of his death. I don't know why I didn't die too, because I missed you just as much. Eirol is probably up there with you now, along with Syaoran...and I'm the only one here. I hope you're happy up there, my best friend. Some day, we will rejoice in Heaven, all of us, together. Thanks for being there always when I needed you...thanks for listening to me when no one else would...Bloom...Tomoyo...bloom," Sakura sobbed.

Sakura stopped in front of yet another gray, cold, stone tablet. The last grave she would visit, Eirol's grave. Sakura did not read this or any of the messages, nor did she want to. But each message was fixed in her head, never to disappear, because they hurt so much.

R.I.P.

Hiiragizawa Eirol

Black sleek hair,

Mysterious flashing eyes,

The sun's reflection,

Shine bright, Eirol

And, rest in peace.

Amen.

By this grave Sakura set down yellow roses that were as bright as the sun. "Eirol, look here. Yellow roses, resembling your sign...the sun. You will finally live at peace Eirol. Up in Heaven with Tomoyo. I'm glad you got what you wanted. I wish I did too," Sakura cried softly. "I will, though, someday. Somehow. I'll be up there with you, and Tomoyo, and Syaoran. All of you. And Eirol, thanks for being my master, for teaching me how to be a card mistress. You were wonderful. Without you, I would have never met Syaoran, Meling, Kero, Yue, Spinnel Sun, or Ruby Moon. And Eirol, one more thing. I hope this will make you feel better...I see you, Eirol, as Eirol Hiiragizawa, and not as the recarnation of Clow Reed. Thank you, Eirol, for being there in my times of need." Sakura said. "Shine bright Eirol, and rest in peace," Sakura said softly, quoting from the tablet.

Sakura walked slowly, back to the car. Before she got there, she broke down. No one was around to hear or see, but she broke down nonetheless. She fell onto her hands and knees. Tears pooled around her eyes and fell onto the huge mud puddles on the ground. "Drip-drop, drip-drop." You could hear the tears when they hit the puddles. She pounded the ground with her fist, angry at the world. Angry with everyone she knew. But along with the anger was pain, confusion, and sadness all mixed inside. She screamed for no one to hear, "Why?! Why does this have to happen to me?! What did I do to deserve this? Why don't I just commit suicide now? No one will know and no one will care. I want to be up there..." Sakura looked up at the sky so longingly. Inside her with all her feelings, calmness was there as well. The calmness started to rise. "Calm down Sakura. It's not anybody's fault. You get one chance to live your life, so do it right," Sakura told herself. Calmed now, she walked the remainder of the way to her car.

Alone she entered, and alone she left. Now with nothing in her hands she climbed back into the car. She started the car and started to drive away. Before she got very far, Sakura rolled down her window and whispered, "Good-bye...everybody..." The car splashed into a mud puddle, and then drove away.

--Flashback End--

Sakura wanted to cry again, as she was drowned in the sad memory. But she brightened up again, thinking of how she would see her friends so soon. (A/N: Sorry about all the crying!! Ahhh! What was with the shining thing in all the tablets? I didn't know what to say!! And sorry the flashback was so long! ;) Fluttering to and fro, she called over and over, "Tomoyo! Eirol! Syaoran!"

A singsong voice was suddenly heard. It called out wonderingly, " Sakura? Is that you?!"

Another voice accompanied the first one, "Darling, its not Sakura. And you know it. It's not her time yet. Sakura is still on Earth."

The first voice said, "Oh, Eirol. I suppose you're right. I just wish Sakura would get here sooner. We're waiting for her...along with Nadeshiko, and Touya, and Fujitaka. All of us."

Eirol said soothingly, "Tomoyo, dear, when it's her time she will be here!"

Sakura giggled and flew around the corner. She shouted, "Tomoyo! Eirol! I'm fnally here!! I'm finally here!"

Tomoyo turned around to find a fluttering beauty behind her. She grabbed onto Eirol's shoulders and screamed, "Eirol! Eirol! I was right!!!" Eirol just smiled plainly. Tomoyo ran to Sakura for a hug. "Sakura! I'm so glad you're here! I waited so long...I'm so excited! I have to show you around. Tomorrow we should sign up to start our "age"! Eirol and I waited for you so we could all be the same age in Heaven! Of course...our wisdom years in Heaven are older than yours...since we have stayed here longer. I'm sorry Sakura...I couldn't help that," Tomoyo said, her amethyst eyes shining in the sunlight.

"Oh, Tomoyo. It's alright! I'm so glad we're up here together now, we can all rejoice. Wait...Tomoyo, where's Syaoran?" Sakura asked, eyes full of worry.

Tomoyo glanced downwards toward her satin shoes. She looked to Eirol for help. He answered for Tomoyo, "Sakura...I'm sorry. Tomoyo arrived here, looking for Syaoran. When I came to Heaven, I searched with Tomoyo for Syaoran. We don't know where he is. We even talked to the Heavenly Ones about it. They asked Sakiya and Maya. Sakiya and Maya said that there was no Syaoran, or Xiao Lang, to enter Heaven, ever." He stared down at the floor of their house, almost boring a whole through the clouded floor. (A/N: Just to tell you, all the houses in Heaven are made out of clouds.)

"Oh," Sakura said simply. She smiled. "Oh, well." The average person would think Sakura a bit mean, thinking this way. She seemed happy enough, she hid her feelings so well. But Eirol and Tomoyo knew Sakura too well. She wasn't happy at all; her feelings were bottled up inside her. She was hiding behind a plastic smile.

"Sakura, cry when you have to," Eirol said calmly. "We know you feel pain, even greater than all of us." Tomoyo just hugged Sakura, and said nothing.

'The truth was, I wanted to be encircled by his arms when I returned. I wanted to be embraced by him. I wanted him to stroke my hair, and tell me he loved me. I wanted to tussle his messy brown hair. I wanted to hug him, and know he was there for me. Every moment that I was here, I would think he would pop out and surprise me by shouting my name. Then he would twirl me around in those strong arms of his, and hold me tight, never letting go. He' s not here though. All of my thoughts, my dreams, are going to continue being dreams. Reality hurts,' Sakura thought as she lay in Tomoyo's arms.

'I have to stop crying. I can't help that Syaoran isn't here. Tomorrow, in the morning we will search. Tomoyo and Eirol will show me around Heaven. It won't help to continue like this. I have to stop crying. I have to be brave. For Syaoran,' Sakura thought as her eyes drooped. 'I have to...for Syaoran.'

Sakura's vision blurred as her eyelids closed. Everything went dark. Her last thought was to be brave for Syaoran, before she fell sound asleep.

Mona-chan: Ohayo and konichiwa everyone! Oh my god I got 3 reviews! Haha, only three. But that's ok. I'm still really happy! I'm not a really good writer, so every review counts! I've been considering an idea for another story. Ahh! Shame on me...tsk, tsk, tsk! I'm only on the first chapter of this story and I'm thinking on an idea for another one. lol Well here's my thanks to all of those who have reviewed. If anyone wants me to send them an email when I update, please tell me in a review. Arigato!

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