It was to days after I had gotten out of the hospital when the guys invited me to go watch a new movie that had came out in the drive in.

It was some new movie about the old west, I wasn't really paying attention to it at all, I just sat there biting my finger nails until Soda grabbed my hand. "Stop that."

I gave him a small smile, and he released my hand looking back at the screen.

How long do you think you can last…I'm sure you can find some kind of glass laying around here, c'mon Po-

"No." Dammit, I caught myself too late…I said it out loud.

"What?" Two-Bit was starring at me, I'm glad he was the only one who heard me.

"I was thinking…um…do you wanna go and grab a coke or something."

"Sure, this movie isn't in my taste and I wanna check out some of the girls anyway." He gave me a quick wink and stood up, and I stood with him. "We'll be back guys." He told the others.

I noticed Darry gave me that look when he was worried about something. But, I just gave him a smile then Two-Bit and I left.

The line was pretty long, I guess other people didn't like the movie either. Two-Bit was leaning against the railing as I was, his arms crossed.

"So you gota' appointment with that lady doctor tomorrow?"

"Dr. Dawn? Yea," I nodded, scooting up when the line moved. "Better her then Dr. Griffin." I had a smirk remembering that old bastard.

"That's tuff I guess."

I noticed that Two-Bit was uncomfortable, I guessed he didn't know what else to say. Why did he bring it up in the first place.

We remained silent until we got to the front where we placed our orders.

"I'll have a large pop corn, large coke, one of those big pretzels with mustard, nachos with cheese-but don't put those jalapenos peppers on it, just the juice- and some…hmmm chocolate covered Bon-Bons. Hey Pon, should we get anything for the others?"

I stared at him with disbelief…"Um…they already have some stuff."

"In that case add a Hot Dog to my order! Thanks doll!" Two-Bit winked over at the woman who gave him a blank stare before moving on, getting the food.

A man came over and asked for my order, "I'll just have a medium diet Coke." He nodded and grabbed a cup walking over the soft drink fountain dispenser.

"A diet Coke?" Two-Bit stared at me. "Kid, you're loosing a lot of weight. Why are you on a diet?"

"I'm not…I'm just," I paused trying to think of something. "If I ever get back on the track team I want to be in shape." The man came over with my coke, and I paid for it walking slightly past Two-bit so those behind me could order.

"Well, right now the online shape you have is the shape of a stick. The guys are worried." The woman brought over Two-Bits order and the price of it all and he paid.

"Sorry…" I said quietly, and we both walked over to the gang.

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5 minutes later I hadn't even taken a sip of my drink. "Steve, you got a cancer stick?" I leaned forward to look at my 'former' enemy.

"Yea, sure." He began to reach into his shirt pocket with Darry stopped him.

"I don't think so lil' buddy. You don't need it."

"Aw Darry, please?" I begged, but he shook his head. "What is one little stick going to hurt?"

Not much is you don't do with you WANT to do…

"Fine, but only one." He settled back in his seat as Steve handed me the cigarette and lighter.

"I'll be back." I called and rushed off before anyone stopped me.

I settled against the other side all of the bathroom and lit the slim white stick. I inhaled deeply, the smoke burning the back of my throat. I stared at the cigarette the color of the red hot embers glittering from under the gray ashes.

They are begging for you to use them…they are nice and hot…C'mon Pony boy…C'mon…

The voice hissed in my head, things started going out of focus at that intense.

C'mon…

I brought the cigarette to my lips and in healed again, once move the orger colors embers flickered brightly.

I took the stick from my mouth raised my shirt where I clumsy placed it against the top of my hip bone. I hissed as pain screamed throughout my body, and I twisted the cigerrte until the pain subsided and the hot embers were smothered out.

I slide down the wall, letting out a long sigh…I felt so good. But not good enough.

I flipped opened the top of Steve's silver lighter and the flmae dancer appeared before me. Her hips moving slowly…her hands above her head…she danced for me…the flame dancer dance…

Danced…

…she danced until she reached my side where she bit into my flesh, her hot body rubbing into to small area of my skin…

The pain that the flame dancer brought to me was the pain that I needed….\

But I had to let her go, I flipped the top back down onto the flame dancer…she was gone.

I stood up, shakily…and dropped the now bent and half used cigarette to the ground. I sighed deeply trying to get rid of my shakes. What she fuck did I just do!

You did what you wanted to do.

No…But, the voice was right. I wanted the pain, I needed the pain.

All truth, I'd do anyway the get the pain.

I sighed once again and walked back towards where my gang was…

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The next chapter should be added today!