yer a boy?!?!? hell i didn't no that! i didn't no any boys had the nerve 2 write! GOOD 4 YA! ^_^

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AN: EVERYONE THANKS FOR THE REVIEWS! I LOVE THEM! Any-who, I'm not saying I'm not a guy and I'm not saying that I'm a girl! I'm not going to reveled that till later! Hehe…AM I A BOY OR A GIRL? (I like that song…for got who its by)

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***Soda POV****

After Darry called Dr. Dawn and she arrived at our house, it seemed like right when we took a step forward we took two steps back.

Pony sat on the couch, in a ball, rocking back and forth, not saying a word.

"Pony, why aren't you talking to me? Whets wrong?" Dr. Dawn was asking Pony.

But my little brother said nothing. He continued to rock back and forth.

This was freaking me out, when I leaned over to touch him, he pulled away as if I was made of fire or something.

"Pony, you need to say that you want help. I need to hear you…Please."

"No one can help me…No one can cure me of my demons"

I had to bite the inside of my lip to keep from gasping…demons…my little brother had demons….

"You're right there, Pony."

"What?" I looked up Darry who was sitting on the other side of Pony stood up looking at her.

"Pony is right. No one can cure him," she turned back to Pony "but we - and everyone else who loves you- can support you."

"I…"

"Yes, Pony?"

"…I'm alone…"

"No, you are wrong there. There many people who are just like you, who feel alone…But, they're not. Let me show you Pony."

"I can't…"

"Why not?"

"…." I touched Pony's hand but this time him didn't jerk away.

"Pony?"

"We can't pay the bills I've already piled up…"

"Pony, bills don't mean nothing to us as long as you get better." I said and I knew Darry was thinking the same thing. "We love you, and we just want you to get better."

There was silence between all four of us. Dr. Dawn didn't take her eyes away from Pony's., until he looked away.

"I want help…Dr. Dawn."

She smiled then, and gave him a gentle hug, like mom would when one of us were hurt. "I'm glad, and we want to help you…"

******Darry POV**** Two Days Later

I shut Pony's suit case and locked the two metal clips. Today we were placing Pony in a hospital. It wasn't really a hospital, just a group home for kids with physiological problems.

Pony was someone who they called a self-mutilator, self-injurer, a cutter…there were many names for him…them…I didn't know anymore.

I watched as Pony placed a few personal object in a smaller bag and zipped it up with his thin pale hands…

No one, not Dr. Dawn, Sodapop, Ponyboy, me or any of the gang knew how long he was going to be gone away from us, we just knew he'd be back when he showed signs of recovery.

"Its time we should be goin now." I said, glancing at the clock…I wished I didn't.

"Yea…" Was all my baby brother said.

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The drive to the Home was about two hours away from our house. Dr. Dawn drove in front of us, in her tiny sports car.

We were out of the city before we even knew it…and the country appeared out of no where. It amazed me…like when I was younger…going to the country with mom and dad…how the city would vanish and the beautiful landscape of the country took its place…

Pony was between Soda and I, asleep. Soda was looking out the window, stroking Pony's hair…Damn, tears were starting to fill up…I couldn't cry not now. I've always been the strong one.

I did not want to do this, I didn't want to put my baby brothers welfare in the hands of strangers…but it had to be done. I couldn't loose another member of our gang, another family member…my brother. I couldn't…and I wouldn't.

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We arrived at the group home after being on the road for 2 hours and 15 minutes

Pony was wide away then starring at the large blue and white house.

I looked to be half the size of the freaking white house and it was two story too.

We had stooped a group of boys who were playing basket ball and were now looking at us.

Slowly we piled out the car, Pony was clenching to Soda like a drowning person would cling to a lifesaver.

"Hi!" One of the boys who were playing basketball came up to us, smiling brightly. "My names David."

Pony said nothing, he just stared at the boy, he was tall about my size, dark red hair with barely visible freckles.

"You must be the new guy." David continued. "We've been waiting all day!"

I blinked, can you say 'too much sugar'?

"Um…" Was Pony's reply.

"C'mon, I want you to meet some people? Play basketball?"

"Not really…I race….running I mean."

I found myself letting out a sigh of relief, he was opening up to someone.

"Wow! Cool!" He switched the basketball that he had from one hand to another, and grabbed on to Pony excitedly. "C'mon…we've been waiting to meeting you.

Of course my baby brother was stunned, "Um…ok."

I looked over at Soda, who was staring wide eyed at the spot that David had once occupied then he slowly turned his head to look at me. "Sugar?"

I shrugged "Or something."

Dr. Dawn laughed, "Lets go inside, we have to sign him in."

****Soda POV****

We placed Pony's bags in his new room. It was bigger then his one at home, but it had two beds in it. The other one was occupied by a boy, with black dyed hair, who was lying on it…his eyes shut. The room stunned me…the walls went from a robin egg blue to…a poster covered wall. Dragons, Guns, Reapers…all covered his wall and in the middle of it was the name Leo.

He didn't seem to notice us until Pony came in with that boy…David.

I shuttered…David was still bouncing everywhere. Talking but not really saying nothing.

I was staring at Pony, I didn't want to leave him…

…my gawd…at night, he can't sleep alone. I looked at Darry, and he seemed to be thinking the same.

"Are you going to be okay…at night?" Darry asked.

"I guess…I dunno." He shrugged and looked down at the ground.

"David…" A nice woman, one of the care takers, Mrs. Martin, started, "Lets leave Pony and his brothers alone…Leo?"

The boy opened his eyes and stood…he didn't look very happy, he pushed past us, knocking into Pony without saying sorry or anything.

That pissed me off…but my concern was on leaving my brother…I couldn't

"I-if you need anything just call." I said trying not to let my voice crack.

"I'll be ok."

"Sure?"

"Mm-hmm…"

Our sentimental moment was interrupted when we heard yelling and running. "C'mon he's family to us!"

That voice…Two-Bit, his voice was unique you couldn't get it confused with anyone's.

"But sir-"

"Hey Ponyboy Curtis! Trying to escapes without saying bye to us?" Two-Bit said, breaking through the door and draped himself over Pony, Steve was right behind him.

"Sorry, Two-Bit. We tried callin' ya." I answered, for Pony who was trying to get over the shock that these two had just appeared.

"Well you shouldn't leave so early."

"Two-Bit, Buddy." Steve laid a hand on his shoulder. "2 o'clock isn't early.

"For you it ain't, for me…" He laughed, "it is."

Then…everyone turned serious…these little grouping wouldn't happened again for awhile.

"I'm gonna miss you kid." Two-Bit gave Pony a squeeze, before backing off.

"Yea…ditto." Steve said, and slightly ruffled Pony's semi blonde hair. Sometimes, Steve Randle, my best friend amazed me.

Silence…

"P-Pony…I'm…" I launched at him then, hugging him tightly. "Get better soon…please?" I asked him through tears. I felt a pair of strong arms go around Pony and I.

"Yea, so you can come home…we're gonna miss you something awful." We both pulled away from him, Pony looked like he was going to cry but he didn't…

"I'll miss you guys too…" He said finally.

There was a light knock and the door and Mrs. Martin stuck her head in. "I'm sorry, but you're going to have to go. It's Dinner time." She said with a smile

As we all walked down the hall Mrs. Martin talked to us. "He can call you whenever he needs to, visiting days are Wednesdays, Saturdays and Sunday…of course you can look at the papers we gave you for sometimes and such…" She stopped at the front door, but Pony came out with us.

It was Thursday…it'll be two and a half days till we could see each other.

Steve and Two-Bit said bye and got into Two-Bits car, while Darry and I slowly piled into our Ford.

"We'll see you Saturday alright?" Darry asked, starting the truck.

"Okay."

"We good, and stay safe…" Darry continued.

"I will."

"We love you…" Darry and I both said at the same time.

Pony didn't say anything, as we slowly started out of the drive. "

"I-I love you guys too!" I heard Pony yell. I smiled sadly, looking into the side mirror.

I broke down then…I felt bad…like I was leaving him…abandoning him.

…leaving him alone to face his own nightmares and demons…

"Its for the best…right Darry?" I chocked out.

I looked at him through my tears and he had his own trailing down his face… "I hope so…" was his reply…

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Preview for next chapter;

Leo dropped his cigarette and stomped on it with a heavy black army boot, smothering it into the gravel below his booted foot. "The demons never go away kid. I've had them all my life, I still have them." With that the boy pushed past Pony, but pause, "Learn fast, kid. Get use to them, or you'll never make it…" Then he was gone, leaving the stunned Pony behind him.

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SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO? …DIDN'T IT JUST SUCK?…bad chapter…Urg!