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In our room, Leo shut the door behind me and leaned against it his arms cross. "Your wondering how I got it?" I couldn't do anything but nod…this guy, he just amazed me and scared me all at the same time. "After I left the room, I ran into your hyper friend in the hall while he was making a fuss to see you. So, I just plucked it from his pocket." He shrugged as if it was no big deal.
"Why?" I asked, watching as he crossed the room over to his side.
He shrugged again, "I'd knew you'd need it."
"But I don't."
He chuckled slightly, "Don't tell me, you want to get better, right?"
I nodded, "Sooner I get better, the sooner I get to go home." I plucked up one of my bags off the ground and I began to take out some of my clothes and placed them in the near by dresser.
"I thought the same thing…I've been here for six months kid. No one gets better…they get worse."
I tried to ignore him, he was wrong, but the stinging at my side told me he was right.
"You said you started cutting cause some of your friends died?"
I nodded, and picked up another bag…a heavy one, that had all of my reading books. "Why are you here?" I asked before I could stop myself.
"Nothing big, I was sexually abused by my uncle when I was 7, started cutting. Also, I'm a boarder line anorexic." I stared at him.
"I didn't know that a guy could have an eating disorder…" I murmured.
He looked at me and his onyx eyes seem to say: You're fucking kidding me, right?
"Dude, the way you look I thought you had an ED."
"The way I look?" It hit me then, I hadn't realized. I barely ate anything…some days I ate nothing! "Man, I'm fucked up bad…" I said out loud.
"We all are…" Leo turned his back to me and sat on his bed. "Get use to this place, kid, you'll be here a while."
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Journal,
10:00 PM
It's Friday…I arrived at this "house" yesterday…I'm suppose to be asleep right now. But I decided to make an entry in you. Since…we'll I didn't want Mrs. Martin to waste good monkey on a notebook that might never be used.
Well, anyway, today was hella boring. But, Leo smiled at me! I don't know why I'm happy about that…but I am. Leo's a cool guy, I can't believe I was scare of him…well, I'm still scared of him. But…well, I guess in the um…30-40 hours I've been here, I've gotten use to him.
Anyway, --------
I stopped writing when he heard a scream. The main light of the room cut on and he saw David standing at the door. "C'mon, one of the girls is going into cardiac arrest!" He yelled and disappeared. I got up, and turned to Leo, who was still in bed.
"Coming?"
"Its nothing new." was the only reply he gave me.
I took it as a no, and followed David out and down the hall way to the girls wing. Nearly everyone was gather in front of the door way. David pulled me through the crowd and my eyes met a gruesome sight.
He girl from lunch the previous day was sprawled out on the floor. She looked like the skeleton that his since class had…the time that it hall feel from its hook and down into the ground…that's exactly what the girl looked like…just with hair and skin.
I watched as a few of the on staff 'doctors' do CPR on her.
"Come one Elizabeth!" Another girl screamed, she was hysterical. Her own thin hands pulled at red hair. "Elizabeth, don't leave me!"
"Call it…" I heard Mrs. Martin said, as she stroked Elizabeth's cheek.
"But Yvonne (E-von)…" Mr. Philips said and stepped out of the crowd.
"Charles…its no use." She stood then and grabbed a blanket off the bed. "Call it."
"Time of death 10: 17 PM. Friday." Someone grabbed a chart and wrote down the time that was said. I watched as Mrs. Martin cover up the young girls body, tears in her eyes. "So-som-eone call the coroner."
"Elizabeth…!" The girl cried out, and I turned away then…I had witnessed another death. I also noticed the David wasn't beside me anymore. I pushed my way back through the crowd .
I found David inside the art room, painting. He just splashed colors onto the board and tore it up dumping the torn up paper to the ground.
"David?"
He smeered the paint onto the paper and turned to look at me, "She was just 12 Pony…just 12!" He sholders began to shake, "She didn't have to die…no one here has too!"
"David…"
"Every week, someone dies…this whole place is a death trap…it is…" He grabbed his short red hair with his paint covered hands…that's when I noticed that other girl…the one crying in the death girls room.
"Are you related to that other girl?" I asked out of curiosity.
He nodded biting his lip as more tears ran down his freckled cheeks. "She's here because of me…she found me hanging in my room, when I tried to hang myself…she saved me…then I dunno she started throwing her food up…and…mom she blamed me. For everything…Pony…I can't take this…I…can't."
There was nothing I could do…but stand there.
I should've held him but, I could…the voices wouldn't let me. Let him destory his own self, like that girl did. Don't get involved.
That night or shall I say morning, I couldn't get to sleep until well past 1:00 AM…anyway, I had a nightmare. My first nightmare since I've been here.
I'm walking down a dirt road, panting. I guess I've been running. All of a sudden the firt road ends and my feet step down on lush green grass. I look behind my shoulder but the dirt road wasn't there…it was just gas and hills that stretched for miles.
I let a smile appear on my face I feel so free…so free in fact I began to run, jump and laugh. Once I tire out I stop and collapse on the grass the smile never fading from my face…
…never fading until a freeze carries the smell of smoke to me…
Something burning.
But, I continue to lay there, my eyes shut…I began to sweat…gosh it was getting hot. I open my eyes then, I'm no longer surrounded by grass but by fire…I'm inside a burning building!
I stand quickly, looking for a why out…but theres nothing! No way to get out!
I panick then and I began turning in circles…there has to be a way out!
Smoke began to fill my lungs and I stop in my track coughing. I collapse again, my lungs are buring as if someone pour acid into them.my hand makes contact with something…or someone…a foot.
I open my eyes and I look up at the figure…Johnny.
He's looking down at me…his puppy dog eyes begging me to save him…I reach up…
But as I do…he's engulfed in flames. He screams in agony…asking me to help him…
But…I…I …
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"Wake up kid!" My eyes pop open, and I look up at an angry looking Leo. "Sheesh, you're gonna wake up the whole house with your hollering!"
"What…?"
"You were having a nightmare, I guess." Leo shurrged and turned walking back to his bed. "It's 5 you only have 2 more hours to sleep. Now shut up…"
I didn't say a thing…I just laid there…in the dark alone.
I hugged myself, wishing it was Soda's arms draping across me…, I went to sleep like that…hugging myself in the dark, alone…
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Visiting hours were sat at two shifts one was at 1 in the after noon, after lunch time, till 2:30 and the other was at 5 till 6:30 half an hour before dinner.
I sat in the game room with another SI, Margo, as we waited to see if we had any visitors.
"Ha!" I said triumphantly "I beat your score!" I smiled at her and stepped away from the pinball machine.
"Well, guess what. I'm gonna beat your score and get my 2nd place back!" He stepped to the machine and started it up. I just laughed.
"Sure…whatever!"
"Ponyboy," I turned to see Mr. Philips who had bags under his eyes, "You have visitors. They're in the first room down stairs." I nodded, and he gave a sad smile.
Margo and I seemed to be the least depressed here, I guess because we were newer then everyone and really didn't know Elizabeth.
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The visiting area was like a large living room. Everything; the wall paper, chairs, couches had a flower design. Which, at times upset teed ones stomach.
But my visitors weren't all who I expected. Except for Two-bit, the others were Cherry, Marcia, Randy and surprisingly Curly Shepard, Tim Shepard little brother.
Two-Bit smiled when he saw, me and they all stood up…everyone, besides Two-Bit looked nervous.
"Hey guys!" I gave Cherry and Marcia a hug, and gave the guys a awkward half hand shake half hug… "I really wasn't expecting you guys."
"Yea, well. Your brothers and Steve had to work and I didn't want to come down here alone, and these guys wanted to see you so I brought them.
"Well, golly. I'm glad you did, I missed you guys." My gawd! I was…hyper, maybe it was the medication…
Curly was looking at me, I guess he was a little confused I mean he was in the informatory for the past few months.
"You're out early…about a month aren't you?" I asked him.
"Yea…good behavior." He said, he seemed kind of embarrassed by it.
"I wished it was that easy for me…" I mumbled, they looked a little worried but I covered it up with a smile.
"When we came in we saw a few people crying." Cherry said out of the blue.
Randy nodded, "Did something bad happened? It kind of scared us…" I amitted slowly, a Soc being worried about a Greaser…something new.
"Yea…a girl died laast night, she was an EDK."
"EDK?" Two-Bit tileled his head, and I had forgotten that they didn't know the 'House Slang' as David had called it.
"Eating disorder kid, she stavred herself…she went into cardiac arrest…"
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"I don't even see why you come anymore!" We all looked over towards where the argument was coming from. I saw Leo arguing with an older woman who had long blonde hair.
"I come because you're my son! Our family is now in depth because of you and your foolishness and lies! My brother is in jail because of your damned lies!" The woman spoke with a slight French accent.
"I'm not lying mother!" Leo, I had just noticed, had a French accent too. How could I have missed that.
"How dare you talk to me like that!" She must have noticed that she and Leo had drawn some attention and started speaking in French "Vous êtes un déshonneur à notre famille!"(1)
What ever said said upsetted Leo to the max. He balled up his hands as if he was going to lash out at his own mother.
"Si je suis un tel déshonneur puis sortez!"(2)
His mother drew back, "Leonard, you don't mean that."
"Yes, I do…" He turned then and stormed out of the room, leaving his shocked and upset mother behind.
"Dang…I wish I knew Spanish…" Curly murmured.
"It wasn't Spanish, Spiral. "I said using my nick name for him…we thought is sounded more tuff then Curly, "It was French. And that was my room mate Leo…"
"Oh my.." Marcia gasped, covering her mouth with her hands. "Does he lash out at you like that?"
I shook my head, "Naw, he's ok…if you don't piss him off."
We talked for about 30 minutes before Two-Bit brought up the subject of his missing switch blade.
"I lost it a few says ago," He said "I've been looking for it everywhere."
I felt guilty then…
Don't you dare, Pony…
The voice said
Don't be weak…
"Oh yea," I said purposely ignoring the voices as they yelled and screamed at me.
You need the pain!
I reached into my back pocket and pulled out the Two-Bit treasure. "I think you dropped it when you jumped on my" I tossed it to him as if it was nothing.
"Thanks kid, you're a life saver." UI knew the real thing he wanted to say was, 'You didn't use it, did you?' or something related…but he didn't.
We talked more on different subjects and they gave me all the work I had missed since I've been out., then 10 minutes before the first set of visiting hours were up, they left.
Left me again…all alone.
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1. You are a disgrace/dishonor to our family!
2. If I'm such a disgrace/dishonor then leave!
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