Ponyboy actually fell asleep as Soda and I bathed him. I really didn't mean to scare him like that, but its been t4 days since the accident at the Home and…I wanted my brother back. Plus the state was going to so a surprise visit either today or tomorrow.
"He asleep?" I asked Soda as he came out of the bedroom he and Pony shared. He just nodded and sat down beside me on the couch.
I slowly let out sigh and covered my face with my hands. "Maybe," I mumbled, " we sound find him another Home…somewhere where they can take care of him while he's in this state." Why did I say that? Why did that thought pop into my head. I'd never do that…not again. I wouldn't make that mistake twice.
I noticed that Soda was deadly quiet so I uncovered my face and looked at him. The look he was gaving me would've kill me - if looks could kill. His eyes were narrowed but showed signs os disbelief, his mouth was opened slight.
"You wouldn't dare Darrel." He snarled.
"It was just a thought." I stood up, a little scared that he was going to start strangling me.
"Well, don't even think like that!" His voice was low, so he wouldn't wake up Pony. "He's still in shock, he'll snap out of it soon!"
I looked at him, he really wanted to believe that…he hung on every word that the doctors said. I knew better. Pony wouldn't snap out of it.
I couldn't believe it…but I had to. In the last few months, two of our good friends died, Pony attemped suicide, he was place into a mental home and now he was…in his own little world. A world he wouldn't let us into.
I walked and stood in the doorway of my brothers bed room, Pony was laying there…one arms covering his forehead and the mid day light that was shinning through the window gave him a sense…of peacefulness - as if he was an angel.
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Flashback
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Mom always had a beautiful voice…Soda and I couldn't wait until our bed times, the times mom would come and sign to us. It seemed, when Pony was born, her voice got even more beautiful…and Ponys birth ment she'd sing more.
How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine
I loved resting my hand on her knee as she sung to Pony and us. Her voice echoed so smoothly and softly throughout the room, and dad would stand in the door way a smile on his face.
Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine
Then after the finished signing, she'd place Pony in his crib and tucked Soda in, then she'd lead me to my room and tuck me in, kissing me on my forehead - a kiss that lingered softly throughout the night and half the morning.
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End of Flashback
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"Why are you crying?" Soda's voice broke through my thought , which caused me to jump.
"I'm crying?" I touched my face, and I realized that I was. "Just thinking' bout mom and sutff…you know."
"Oh…" he stood next to me , "He'll be okay, won't he…? I mean, I miss our Pony." He sighed heavily. And I kept silent. "Why were you thinking about putting Pony into a home?"
It was my turn to sigh, "Dr. Turner thought it would be best if we placed him in a home, not like the one before, so they could take care of him."
"You've got to be kidding me. Why do you listen to that bitch? And that Dawn lady too!"
"What could we have done, Soda?"
"None of this would've happened if-" He was cut off when a loud knock came from the front door. I leaned over to see down the hall and into a living room, and standing in the front door was a man and a woman dressed in business suits…
…state social workers…
"Shit…" I murmured.