I'm really sorry, but this chapter is incredibly short. I've had two exams toady- German and English Combined, and I'm frazzled in the head. My wrist feels like I've tried to chisel through it and my brain is smooshed... So this is short. Like I said. However, I can always find the time to reply to reviews- you write me, so I'll write back!

Endoh Chiaki: Yup. I'm really good at making you all sad, killing off the characters like I always do...

Kiko cat: Cool. Well, not cool that you cried, obviously... But cool that you liked it!

Lil-inu: It was cheesy, but I'm a sucker for things like that...

Helen: Bye Bye Die Rei. BBDR. Heh, I write such a lot of BBD fics, it's nice to know people actually LIKE some of them...

Kari-Kari a.k.a Super Chicken: Heh, chickens... And of course Rei will still be with Kai! I have to make him feel guilty before I let him be happy!

BloodyShadows-D.A: Here's the update. Sorry it's so short. And these replies are too...God, my brain hurts...thank you for reviewing!

MikaTanaka: Yep, poor Rei. Actually, I've killed most of my favourite characters now except Bryan. Muaha, he's next!

Ellen: Sniffles for Rei! I felt sad for him too. It's ironic- I told someone that I couldn't bear to make Kai cheat on Rei, but that inspired me to start writing that very thing!

Curtis Zidane Ziraa: Have some happy! Actually...well, this chapter isn't all happy, but it's kind of sweet...

Animeobsession: Naw, it's okay to cry. Thanks for reviewing!

Tenshi-Tara: Nah, Kai's dominant. Always the dominant (so now I'll have to write one where he is!).

Glitter-Cat91: It's a happy ending, I promise! There'll be lots of angst, as with all my fics, but the end will be happy!

Cheese-4-eva: Um, I can't do emails at the moment. Not only am I knee-deep in exam revision, but my brother wired the email account to his login and he deletes my emails. But I'll reply here: Rei's very, very dead, so no, Kai won't be able to talk to him again. At least outside of his mind... And you;ll have to read on to find out who the person is! Last of all, yes. I do like cheese. Especially cheddar and edam.

Chapter...it's down there somewhere. Happy scrolling.

A few of months later, Kai was at home when the doorbell rang. He looked up from his book as, a few seconds later, his butler brought someone into his study. Someone who he recognized. Someone who, frankly, he had no desire to see. "What are you doing here? Get out of my house!"

"Kai...I-I..." Lee started to cry. "Kai...I need your help...I don't know who else to ask...I don't know anyone else who would have a hope of understanding..."

"What if I don't want to understand? In case you've forgotten, you killed the only person who I've ever truly loved! What makes you think I'd want to help you!"

"Kai...I didn't kill him..."

"You didn't stop them!"

"How could I have? What should I have done? If I'd said anything I would have been strung up beside him and both of us would have died!"

"Then you should have died! You betrayed him!"

"Do you think he would have wanted that?" Kai was forced to agree. Rei wouldn't have wanted any of his friends to die.

"What do you want, then?" He snapped, looking over Lee critically. He was well wrapped up against the chill of the Moscow weather, with a long black coat and a grey scarf.

"I...I'm gay."

"And?"

"I don't know what to do! I can't go home, they'll kill me! Where can I go? What can I do?"

"Why do you think I'll know?"

"Rei trusted you. He said you were a good person. I-I haven't got anyone else to turn to. How could I tell Mariah, or Kevin? How could I go home and tell my mother and my father? It was my father who killed Rei, and he'd have to kill me too! I don't want to die like that! I never agreed with what they did to Rei and I know I don't want that to happen to me! It sounds selfish and weak but I'm scared! I'll never be as strong as Rei was!" Lee sobbed.

Kai stood up and took hold of his shoulders, intending to push him out of the room, but he found his arms instead wrapping around Lee's shoulders and back, holding him tightly. "No-one else would understand..." Kai bit his lip.

"You...can stay here for a while. Until you work out what you're going to do next." Lee sniffed and thanked him, and Kai immediately felt his defences spring up again. "I'm not doing this because I forgive you or because I want to help you! I'm doing this because Rei would have wanted me to!"

And so, Lee stayed with Kai. Kai put him in the guest room next to his own bedroom, assigned him a maid, and expected Lee to leave him alone. How wrong he was. He was quite surprised to discover that Lee was a very good cook, as good as if not better than Rei had been. Being a naturally early riser, he would get up and make Kai breakfast, and they would eat together in Kai's room.

It was on one such occasion that It happened.

"Kai?"

"Good morning." Lee came into the room, a tray balanced on one hand, and came over to Kai's bed, sitting down beside the Russian and holding out a plate of pancakes, smothered in butter and syrup, just the way Kai liked them. They sat in silence while they ate, and Kai couldn't help but notice that Lee had a smudge of flour on one of his cheeks, obviously from when he'd been cooking. As Lee took his plate and put it down on the plush red carpet, Kai shifted closer. Lee turned again and found Kai's face mere inches from his own. One long-fingered hand reached up and wiped across his cheek.

"You...had flour on your cheek..." Kai swallowed, eyes locked with Lee's, and then found himself leaning forwards, lips pressing against Lee's, tongue slipping into the neko-jin's mouth. After a moment of paralyzing shock, Lee kissed back, until they both ended up sprawled on the bed, Kai straddling Lee, Lee's hands grasping Kai's waist. They broke apart slowly, lips swollen from the ferocity of the kiss. "Kai..." Breathed Lee. He suddenly seemed to realise where his hands were and moved them, bringing them up to stretch out above his head. "What-?"

Kai blinked, shaken by what had happened, and then got off Lee hastily. "That...was wrong. Lets...just forget it ever happened..." He looked away, trying to forget how sinfully good Lee's lips had felt against his own, how good Lee had tasted, and how much Lee's deep-throated moans had made him shiver. Lee nodded and stood up. "I...um...I'm going to get dressed." Kai swallowed.

"Yeah. I...have some stuff I need to do in town today, so I won't be back till later on. If...you need anything, just ask one of the maids or something..." As Lee left, Kai flopped back onto his pillows. He could feel himself shaking...but was it out of fear, desire, both or neither? With a sigh, he looked around at the cream walls surrounding him. For the first time since Rei's death, he started to wonder what it would be like to be with someone again...

Next Chapter: Cake and strange dreams.

R&R please, I need cheering up!