Fade to Black Chapter 4 (5) KOTRT
Integra sat in the hospital bed, carelessly playing with the bracelet on her delicate wrist. Her eyes were downcast, and shoulders sagged.
"Sir," Walter walked in.
"Yes, Walter?" she replied back.
"Who was the father of the baby, it was no one in the troops none of them fit the DNA profile."
"Test again, test the commanding officer." She ordered.
"Sir he has been tested thrice, he is not the father."
"That's impossible." She said.
"Sir is the captain the father of the child?" he asked. She nodded silently.
"The DNA test did not prove-"
"Screw the DNA test Walter, do you believe I would lie to you? Do you take me for a child?"
"Of course not sir."
"Leave Walter, you're making me upset."
"As you wish sir." He turned and left the room. Integra leaned back and rested, she was sore, tired and upset. After a few moments a nun entered the room.
"Miss Hellsing, would you like to speak with a counselor? After all, you miscarried you child." She was tired and did not care.
"Sure, why not." She answered keeping her eyes closed.
"Good morning to ye." He said thick with an accent.
"Alexander Anderson! The paladin!" Integra Hellsing exclaimed.
"And whit be wrong whit ye?" he asked.
"Why are you here?" she asked.
"I am here to offer comfort to ye, sae whit be the problem?" he replied. She bowed her head.
"I- I miscarried my baby." She whispered. Anderson sat on the chair next to her bed.
"That es jest terrible naw." He whispered taking her soft hand, immediately she pulled away.
"I don't need your pity." She said angrily.
" I ain't be pitying ye."
"Then why are you here?" she asked, with spite.
"I only be here to offer comfort to those who be needing it, and Ae can tell you be needing it, ye aren't made of steel Madam." Integra closed her eyes and kept her head low. "I know ye be in pain, I know ye need help."
"I don't think that you should be the person doing so." She whispered.
" Who else would you prefer madam?" he asked.
"Someone Protestant." She whispered. "Not the enemy,"
"I not be the enemy, but simply a messenger of God's will." he replied. She turned her head away from him and towards the window. Anderson wrapped his arm around her and pulled her close. She relented and allowed him to. "I know we have our differences, but there are similarities in our religions as well," Integra nodded mutely.
"I know there are differences, and it's those differences that have put us into separate ways." She replied.
"The Protestant pastor is allowed to marry and have offspring. The catholic is not." He gave a quick example.
"What do you think would happen if Enrico or anyone else found us here like this?" she asked.
" Would it matter you don't care what people think of you now do you?" she nodded, she could feel his warm breath on her neck. For whatever unfathomable reason she nuzzled him lightly. There was a pregnant pause between them, before Alexander Anderson began to speak in his soothing voice.
It was late before Integra and realized that she had fallen asleep in the enemy's arms. She groggily turned her head, Anderson had fallen asleep with his head bowed resting against Integral's. The moon was large and full. Integra moved slowly and druggily. What had they given her? There was an eerie silence in the hospital. Slowly Integra moved away from the priest, and settled back into her own bed, and before she could start to think straight she fell asleep.
Integra woke groggy the next morning, whatever doctor had given her, was too much. Anderson still sat by her bed unmoving.
"Why are you still here?" she asked.
"There is something that I be wanting to talk to you about." He replied. " To long I have watched you from afar, the beauty that you possess, the strength that you alone own, and everything that you stand for Integra."
"What are you saying Anderson?" she asked.
" I be saying that I am quitting the father hood, to pursue ye"
"What?" Integra asked.
"I be in love you Integra and you should know it."
"Anderson I don't understand."
"I love you."
"This is not a joking matter."
"I not be joking Integra."
"I don't want a relationship."
Why?" is it because I be Catholic?" he asked.
"It's because I was raped." She whispered.
"What?" Anderson demanded.
"I was raped." She repeated.
"Who was it, Integra, tell me the name of the man who raped you."
"…"
"Integra why won't you tell me."
"Because its' none of your damn business that's why!" she screamed, livid.
"Integra, who else knows about this?" he asked.
"No one you are the first person that I have told."
"Dear god." He whispered.
"This is not your problem." She said.
"You have just made it mine." He whispered back taking her hand in his.
"You can not possibly understand what has been going on," she murmured under her breath.
"No I can't but I know you're in pain and you're screaming inside, I know you need help getting through this though time."
"I don't know if I can ever get through this." She muttered with seriousness.
" I can help you Integra. If you allow me to I can help you."
"…"
"Although I can not understand what you are going through, I do know how to help you." Integra sighed her hands shook.
"You…y…you can not tell anyone, anyone about this ever, if you do, I will kill you with my own 2 hands, do you understand?" she said her voice falling apart more with every word, that fell from her full sensual lips. Alex took her hands in his,
"Integra you have my word that I will never tell anyone about what you have just told me. It would not be right to tell anyone else, whether you know them or not, this is something that you need to tell others, not me."
" I can't tell people, Alex, I just can't, it was hard enough to tell you, and you are one of the few people that I trust, sadly."
"If you can tell me you should be able tell the other people that you trust."
"Those are few and far between." Integra muttered. He wrapped his strong arms around her.
"What about your butler?" Anderson inquired.
"He's more like my father than a friend I can trust."
"What about Alucard?" he asked.
"Hell no."
"You police child?"
"Possibly."
"Maybe you should start by telling her." He replied. Integra nodded. She called Walter to beckon the police girl within the room.
"Anderson will you please leave us for a spell." She demanded politely. He nodded and left the hospital room closing the door behind him.
"Poli- Seras, there is something, that I ought to tell you, for your own safety." She paused and inhaled deeply. "Back when you left for home at Christmas Time, I was raped by a man that is in our ranks." Seras eyes widened and teamed with blood, her lips trembled.
"Who Integra who, who raped you?" she asked. She inhaled deeply, Integra was shaking, she couldn't help it.
"It was Captain Pip Vernadead."
"You lie! The captain would never do such a horrible thing! Is this some sick joke! What is wrong with you!"
"ENOUGH! Seras if you think that I would lie to you about something this intense then you are sorely mistaken. What would I have to gain from this?"
"Impossible. He would never do such a thing, and besides he was with me during the Christmas season!"
"What do you mean he was with you?" Integra asked, she felt a sudden nausea.
"We visited his grandfather and mother during Christmas, afterwards we visited my parents graves."
"Seras I swear, I would not lie to you like this, I have nothing to gain," she held her head in her hands. "I do not know what is going on."
"I believe that you were raped. I just don't believe that Pip did it, he can't be in 2 places at once." Integra bowed her head as foreign water filled her eyes. "Integra, look at me, I do believe you, rape happens more often than you know, I witnessed my mother's rape, before and after she died." Integra wiped the tears from her eyes. "So although I don't know exactly how you feel, I can imagine, how difficult this is for you right now."
"The drugs, make my eyes water." She said.
"Integra, I can bring Pip in here and prove that he did not do what you say he did." Integra knew she had to confront this sooner or later.
A/N.
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