Marissa, Justice and Shair are mine anyone else own themselves.
That night Marissa got very little sleep just the thought of Dave sleeping in the room next to hers made her uneasy. When she saw the sun start to peek through her window Marissa carefully got out of bed, as not to Justice, and walked into the joining bathroom. After her quick shower she slipped into a pair of hip hugger blue jeans and a black tee shirt that had baby girl written on it in silver she pulled her hair back then headed down to the kitchen to start breakfast. She started by making a fresh pot of coffee, knowing that her grandma needed her coffee in the mornings, then finished with beacon, eggs, pancakes and toast. Marissa grabbed some plates out of the cabinet and began placing them around the table, as she picked up Justice's plate she heard the little girl walking down the stairs talking about her party and how she was s big girl. Marissa smiled at the words big girl, Justice sat down at the table as Marissa set the plate in front of her. Marissa watched as Dave took the seat next to Justice and offered him a smile, then turned around and walked back the kitchen and began to pour herself a glass of orange juice, she looked back at Dave and gestured to her glass to which he nodded and she poured him a glass as well. Marissa walked back over and set the glass in front of him then took a seat and began to fix her plate. Soon after Paul, Stephanie and Shari joined them for breakfast.
After the table was cleared and the dishes were done and put away, Marissa started to get Justice ready for her party, while she did that Dave and the others began to decorate the back deck for the party. When Marissa and Justice came down stairs they had every balloon blown up and tied to something, all the streamers were wrapped around the banisters and the table legs, Justice got very excited when she seen that everything had been decorated. It wasn't very long after that kids started to show up by the handfuls. Once all the kids had arrived Marissa walked down to the barn to saddle one of the horses her grandma had, Marissa then led the horse up to the back deck and began taking some of kids for rides around the back yard. After a few hours of being chased by Dave and Paul and playing with the other kids Justice decided it was time for her to open her presents, everyone gathered around Justice as she sat on the ground with her present piled around her. Justice opened each gift and squealed with excitement at everything that she got. Once all the present were opened Marissa walked in the kitchen, she walked over the counter where the cake sat and started putting candle on the cake when she heard someone walk up behind her.
"She seems to be really enjoying herself." Dave said when he stopped just behind her.
"Well she loves parties." Marissa replied not taking her eyes of her task at hand.
"Are you okay?" Dave asked after a minute of silence. Marissa turned her head slightly so she could see him out of the corner of her eye. "You just seem…quite, not like your normal self."
"I haven't gotten that much sleep this past week. I've got a lot of things with my job at the hospital that I have to have done by a deadline and that deadline is almost up." Marissa explained as she placed the last candle on the cake she then turned to face him as he stepped beside her.
"Are you sure that's it?"
"I'm fine, there's just a lot on my mind right now, with this party and Justice turning five and work and..." Marissa paused.
"And me." Dave finished for her. Marissa nodded her head slightly. "I knew that it might cause you some problems showing up here like this, that is not what I intended to do."
"I know, it's just that I have a lot of feelings that I thought I had lost over the past couple years. But since yesterday they have all resurfaced and I'm not sure what to do or even how to deal with them." Marissa started to fidget nervously. "I guess I should get this cake out there before they all start going through sugar withdraw on me." Marissa gave a weak smile as she picked up the cake. "Would you please grab the ice cream out of the freezer?" Dave nodded and opened the freezer door. 'I have got to get her to listen to me.' Dave thought as he grabbed the ice cream and headed back out to the join.
Marissa sat the cake down on the table in front of Justice then took the ice cream that Dave handed her and sat it down beside the cake then stood behind Justice as everyone began to sing the Birthday song. After the song was over Justice closed her eyes to make her wish, she then took a deep breath and blew the candles out, to which everyone clapped and cheered.
"So sweetie what did you wish for?" Shari asked Justice as she started to cut the cake.
"Grandma I can't tell you that, if I tell you my wish then it won't come true and I really want this to come true." Justice smiled at her grandma then looked back at her mom and dad. Shari smiled then placed a piece of cake and some ice cream on a plate and sat it in front of Justice.
It wasn't until eight in the evening when the last kid left the party. Marissa walked out back and began cleaning up the little mess that was left. Marissa sat on the steps when she had finished, she sat there thinking back on the day events, she couldn't believe that her little girl was five already, 'she's growing up so fast.' Marissa thought to herself. Then her thoughts went to Dave and how good he was with Justice, it was like he had always been there with her they just connected in some way. Justice called him daddy when she introduced him to all her friends without even hesitating on it; she called him daddy every time she wanted to ask him something. Dave even played with Justice he chased her and her friends around the back yard and got Paul to join in on the game, when they would catch the kids they spun them around and then tickled them until they gave up.
'I just hope that he doesn't hurt Justice like he hurt me.' Marissa thought to herself, or so she thought.
"I don't plan on hurting Justice," Marissa jumped when she heard him. Dave walked over and sat down beside her. "Or you for that matter."
"I really hope not." Marissa looked over at him. "I don't think I could take seeing her get hurt like that. I know that I couldn't handle being hurt like that again and I don't want Justice to go through what I went through."
"I'm not going to hurt Justice, she's my daughter, and I love that little girl more than anyone will ever know." Dave paused knowing that he was starting to get upset. "I can't believe that you would think that I would hurt her. Do you really think that I'm that much of a jerk that I would hurt my own daughter?"
"Dave you promised me that you would never hurt me and look at what happened you hurt me in so many ways that night." Marissa paused looking at him. "I know that you didn't mean to hurt me that night, but you did. I'm not saying that you would intentionally hurt Justice but you might without even knowing you are. Like that night you left me…"
"I knew that I hurt you." Dave interrupted her, "I knew the second that the words left my mouth." Dave placed his hands on the sides of her face. "I knew by your eyes, when you first saw me that night your eyes were so bright and full of love and life. But when I told you I was going back to my wife your eyes lost everything, they were so dim and cold there was nothing there, kind of like they are now. You may tell everyone that you're fine and that there is nothing wrong, but I know the truth Marissa I know that you are still hurting inside because of me. I know you better then anyone, I can read your face but mainly your eyes. I know how you're feeling and I know that, that night I killed the biggest part of you when I left. I want you to know that there hasn't been a day has gone by that I haven't thought of the look on your face that night, it kills me every time I think about it." Dave moved his thumb under her eye to wipe away a tear that had fallen.
"There hasn't been a day that I haven't thought of you and how much I love you, my body may have went back to her but my heart has always been with you. I'm sorry that I hurt you Marissa and I'm sorry that you're still hurting, I wish there was some way that I could go back in time to that night and change everything that happened to make everything right between us again. That's the biggest part of why I came here this weekend. Yeah I wanted to see Justice and be here for her party but I wanted to talk to you, I wanted to let you know how I feel. Marissa I still love you, I never stopped loving you, you have always been the last thought in my mind at night and the first thought in my mind in the morning. I want you to take me back I want you and me and Justice to be a family." Dave paused for a minute and closed his eyes. "Every night I dream about you, ever since the day we said goodbye, if I wasn't such a fool right now I'd be holding you. There's nothing' that I wouldn't do, baby if I only knew the words to say, the road to take to find a way back to your heart. What can I do to get back to you and find and away back to your heart? I don't know how it got so crazy, but I'll do anything to set things right cause you're the best thing in my life. Let me prove my love is real and make you feel the way I feel. I promise I would give the world if only you would tell me girl the words to say, the road to take to find a way back to your heart. Give me one more chance, to give my love to you because no one on this earth loves you like I do. I'd turn back time to make you mine and find a way back to your heart I beg and plead, fall to my knees to find away back to your heart." Dave pressed hid forehead against Marissa and wrapped his arms around her as she softly cried.
The last part of what Dave says comes from the song 'Back to your heart' by the backstreet boys (sorry but i just love that song and it seemed to fit) so tell me what you think. I'm also thinking about changing the title to the Birthday Wish (you know Justice's b-day wish) tell what you think about that or if anyone can come up with something else that they think fits send me your ideas. And thanks to all of you who have reviewed so far. okay I think I'm done now.