Chapter 5

A/N: as most people have figured out they've probably read this before as I had to take it down for a while and am now reposting

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Last time…

She turned to walk out the door then paused in the doorframe glancing back at him over her shoulder then strode confidently out into the corridor resolute that she was going to figure this out… and wondering why on earth she had just told him all that. –I must really be losing it- she thought. She got in the elevator and headed toward the surface for once the thought of work needing to be finished didn't even cross her mind.

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Now…

Sam's mind raced as she pulled out of the base parking lot. She knew she wouldn't be able to avoid Daniel's questions forever, yet at the same time did she really want too. She just had to sort all this out. She turned on the radio as she pulled up to a stoplight and prepared to turn right onto the main road going home.

The 1st song she heard was off of one of Cassie's mixed cd's , she couldn't remember the singer's name but she couldn't help feeling it kind of struck home.

Felt so right for a while

Almost really believed

I could stay here forever

My heart could be free

Oh I wish it were that easy

But it's never been for me

I'm not your girl

Feels so warm and so safe here

Now don't get me wrong

But it's selfish to stay here

I'd be leading you on

She couldn't keep the thought from crossing her mind that maybe just maybe this… thing… with Pete was simply a fling. Something her subconscious mind had created to keep it off of Jack. Nah… I've never been one for denial the fact that my relationship distracts me from Jack is merely a coincidence. I mean it distracts me from Daniel too. I mean its not as if I was trying to keep my mind off him or anything.

Maybe someone else can give you

What you really really want

But I'm not your girl

Well they say people change

And I wish it were true

Its something I've tried so hard to do

Now I can't explain

Why right feels so wrong

At that moment she reached up and shut off the cd, unable to bear the parallels her mind was creating. Of course she would avidly deny that any of it was true for her.

She ran down her list of to do's as she turned on her street. She saw the lights on at her house and was caught off guard. What the… is he at my house?! She thought. She pulled in the drive and turned off her car. But she didn't get out.