That's Love

by Lahore7070

Seven years ago the desion would have been easy for him now he wasn't so sure. Kathy and his kids or Olivia. His head was screaming one thing but his heart was screaming another. He knew he loved Liv but he had to go with his head on this one. EO noncase

3. Chap 3

TITLE: Don't Lie to Me
AUTHOR: Me... for only I can write fanfictions written by me
RATING: PG-13
FEEDBACK: Please?
CLASSIFICATION: Olivia/Elliot
SPOILERS: none
AUTHOR'S NOTES: EO FINALLY in the chapter ( I'm watching SVU now yah!) The Josh idea sounds fun enough wink I'll see what I can do...cause you know... I'm pretty close to the author...dusts off shoulder and apparently very full of myself... Oh and I don't live in New York, nor have I ever been ... so as of now, there is a coffee shop called Uno's in NY k? k (This is the return of the current b/f... just to clarify)
DISCLAIMER: Dick Wolf is amazing I am just a young feeble-minded SVU addict understatement

Uno's Coffee Shop
10:05 PM

Olivia sat in their usual booth, back facing the door in the corner of Uno's Coffee Shop waiting silently for Elliot, hoping he would show. When she heard the door open she turned, facing the door expecting to see Elliot but instead she met the dark eyes of Jeff.
She turned sharply back around and sank low in the booth hoping against hope he hadn't noticed her. When she heard him arrive at her side she realized she wouldn't be so lucky.
"Hard at work Livvy?" she looked up at him scared at what she would see. Her dark eyes met his fuming black ones and she froze. He grabbed her arm and pulled her up to so she was eye level with him.
"Or hardly working?" he pushed her back into the seat and that spat "You fucking whore!" she closed her eyes and expected his fist to collide with her face. When it didn't she slowly opened her eyes expecting to see the worst but nothing could have prepared her for what she saw. Elliot had apparently heard their short conversation and had Jeff into a choke hold against the nearest wall. Olivia noticed they had everyone's attention so she jumped up and tried to pull him off. Elliot moved her away with his hand and pulled Jeff out the door by his neck. Olivia decided not to follow and she slid back into the booth and rested her head on her hands. A few moments later Elliot slid into the booth and took her hands in his and smiled. She groaned before saying
"Dear God Elliot, what did you do?" she moaned not wanting to know that answer. Elliot was about to speak up when the waitress appeared. Elliot ordered for the both of them, all the years of being partners he knew exactly what she wanted. Then he turned his attention back to Olivia.
"Oh you know the usual, it wasn't you it was him, I'd just rather you not be friends," he grinned but Olivia was not amused. She sighed and deeply sipped her coffee. The grin quickly slipped from his face and decided that was not a way to start the night.
"So..." he started. Olivia looked up, her expression unreadable. She spoke softly,
"Look, if you don't want to talk about this-" he put up a finger to her lips to silence her.
"Liv I just need to get this out, and I won't lie to you" he paused for a moment then began again. "Last month... I came home late ... much later than I should. I was drunk Liv, God I couldn't stand it anymore. I didn't want to go home and I didn't want to bug you so... I went to O'Learys ... drank way to much and took a cab home. Apparently Kathy had called Captain 3 hours earlier and he said the team and I had already left. And when I arrived home ... she lost it. She knew I was drunk. She told me to get the hell out and that I should expect the divorce papers. Oh... Liv," he buried his head in his hands, " she thought I was having an affair ... with you." Olivia paused her mind dwelling on this last words "with you." It sent chills up her spine. He continued, " So now I'm staying at my friend Erik's apartment since he is out. Olivia looked up and for a moment their eyes met and Elliot knew she understood, he felt suddenly selfish he had only been alone for a month and he had Olivia pitying him but Olivia had been alone her whole life. He knew they were both carrying the same expression ... the hatred for being alone.
They both sipped their coffee silently before Elliot spoke up, "You sure know how to pick the bad ones Liv." For the first time Olivia noticed the bruise forming around his left eye.
"Oh Elliot I'm sorry!" she replied in shock and stood up and got her coat."Come on Elliot let's go back to my apartment and get you cleaned up." Olivia offered him her hand and they walked out of the coffee shop, both of them were aware they were sill holding hands, and neither cared.
They were in love but neither knew if the other felt the same way so the tried to act as if was casual. They didn't let go until they reached her door.

Olivia's Apartment
11:14 PM
Olivia took off her coat and flicked off her shoes as she entered the apartment, Elliot following close behind. Neither of them had said a word since leaving the coffee shop and neither of them had to. Olivia reached into the freezer and pulled out an ice pack and wrapped it in a towel the got out two beers and handed one to Elliot.
They both went over and sank down next to each other on to Olivia's comfy couch. Elliot flipped through the channels but the only thing on was Law and Order: CI they both sighed, these drama shows were so over-rated.(A/N couldn't help it) He kept flipping through that channels till he saw that S.W.A.T was on so he left that on. He decided this was a good of time to try something with her, to see how she'd react and if she wanted 'them' to happen as much as he did. As innocently as possible Elliot placed a hand around her waist. She didn't seem to object, but that was the easy part. Slowly Elliot started to pull her onto his lap. No objections. Great he thought, that's all for now, unless she's got anything planned, he smirked at the thought. Olivia snuggled into him which made him slightly aroused.
Olivia was suprised when he pulled her into his lap. She was hoping something would happen between them but so soon? Was he even officially divorced? She concluded that it was perfectly innocent. For now.

Olivia's Apartment
6:25 am

They fell asleep like that, which none of them really planned on. A cell phone ringing brought Elliot fumbling from his dreams which he much have rather stayed in. He noticed Liv in his arms and smiled. He softly moved her from his lap, hoping not to wake her then he attended to his phone. He hesitated when he saw the caller ID ... it was Kathy. He flipped open his phone and answered
"Hello?" he answered trying not to sound anything like he was feeling.
"Elliot, look... I'm sorry for kicking you out before... I'm thinking maybe we can work this out and you know, move back in Elliot, your kids miss you." Elliot could do nothing more then just stare at Olivia's sleeping form. When Kathy brought him back to reality, "Hello? Earth to Elliot!"
"Yeah Kath hold on for a sec" Elliot put down the phone and leaned against the wall. Seven years ago the choice would have been easy for him now he wasn't so sure. Kathy and his kids or Olivia. His head was screaming one thing but his heart was screaming another. He knew he loved Liv but he had to go with his head on this one. He picked up the phone and said
"I'll be right over Kath, ah-uh I love you to, bye." He closed his phone and just looked from it to Olivia. He started to wonder if he was making the right choice. Well, to late now he decided. He walked to the door and paused then he looked back to Olivia, sleeping on the couch. His heart went out to her. But he knew what he had to do you the sake of his children, he turned and left the apartment completely unaware Olivia was awake the whole time. He had completely broken her heart and there was no doctor in the world who could ever fix it. And the worst part is he didn't even know he did it.

(A/N so sad I know...)

SVU Squad Room
9:00
Olivia wanted to take the day off badly. She didn't want to see the eyes she had got lost in the night before. But what was she supposed to say to Captain? I've got a broken heart? He probley wouldn't let me off if I had a broken leg. So she was stuck at her desk, doing what she does best, paperwork.
Elliot came barging in some few moments later, apologizing again for his tardiness. Olivia didn't even look up from her desk, she couldn't because if she did she knew her heart would break for the second time. What was she expecting? A full blown romance? She should have known him well enough to know he wouldn't just leave what took him 20 years to build just to be with her, a pathetic product of rape who couldn't make it to a second date to last her life. She felt foolish. But nevertheless she was a brokenhearted fool. Then Cragen came out of his office and motioned to Olivia and Elliot to come to him. Elliot came to stand right next to Olivia, so close she could feel the heat from his body and it was driving her crazy.
"We got a knew lead on Jane Doe's case from missing persons, a Marissa Swan, check it out." He handed Olivia the file and walked back into his office. Olivia sighed and went over to her locker to get her coat. She paused when she felt Elliot place a hand on her forearm.
"Liv..." he began but Olivia pushed off his hand and cut him off.
"Look I heard you this morning ... its fine... I'm glad for you really I am," The next part killed her to say," Your're acting as if we were in love or something, Elliot." Elliot's voice cracked when he spoke up next.
"I guess... I'm guess I'm sorry for ah ... leaving this morning without a note or anything." This was killing both of them, they were both nearly to tears when Olivia spoke up.
"We should...ah. ... get on this case," she pulled out her coat from her locker and slammed it just with force that made the whole squad room jump. Then she swiftly left the squadroom. Cragen came out of his office and looked from Elliot to the still swinging doors.
"Fin! Go with Liv. Elliot my office. Now." Fin got up from his desk and quickly left after her. Elliot sighed and went into Cragen's office. When he entered Cragen looked up at him and exclaimed, "What the hell was that Elliot!" Elliot shrugged, which gave Cragen the impression he didn't care. By then Cragen was fuming, "Your riding a desk Stabler until you and Liv decide to act your age and solve whatever this problem is."
Elliot didn't protest, he just left the office without a word and slumped at his desk, quite aware Munch was eyeing him suggestfully.
"Lover's quarrel?" John asked. Elliot ignored him. He felt the urge the take the picture of Kathy and chuck it against the nearest wall. The effects of a bad choice were now setting in.
He lost one of the most important people in his life and for once, he didn't have a plan.

Stabler House
2:52 am
Elliot dragged himself up to his room and removed his clothes the smell of beer still apparent in the air. He noticed Kathy wasn't in bed. He turned sharply toward the door and saw Kathy's slim figure standing in the door way. She flicked on the lights, which nearly blinded him.
"This is the last straw Elliot Stabler, I want you and all your stuff out of here by tomorrow!" and with that she left the room. Some 15 minutes later Elliot lifted a large suitcase into the back-seat of his car. He got in the car and drove, unsure where to go. He know where he wanted to go but would be be welcomed? He decided not to push, and drove to Erik's apartment.

Olivia's Apartment
3:00 am
Olivia sighed, moved into a different position and tried to drift asleep but she wasn't mentally tired as she was physically. Her mind turned to Elliot and she felt her heart sink. She didn't mean to throw a fit at work and get him in trouble but she was just so angry. But at who? Herself for not telling Elliot how she felt? Or Elliot who had totally just left her there and hadn't even tried to talk about it? She paused. He did try to talk about it and you just push it back in his face.
"Whatever happened to not showing any emotion Liv?" she thought silently to herself.

SVU Squad Room
9:01am
Olivia walked in one minute late, suprised to find Elliot was already there, filling out paperwork she knew she had to apologize for yesterday but she didn't know how. She was about to go to the lockers when she noticed something, the picture of him and Kathy, which had been on his desk since forever, had now been removed. Figuring this could mean anything Olivia went to the lockers to hang her coat up, then went back to sit at her desk. She could tell he was trying to avoid eye contact with her. So she sighed and got to work.
Elliot didn't notice her until she sighed. He had been reading the same page for nearly 5 minutes. He looked up at her to see her bend over paperwork, but he knew her heart wasn't in it. A door opening distracted his thoughts. A man entered carrying a large vase of white roses entered. He went over to Fin's desk and asked where Olivia Benson was. Munch and Fin both pointed to her who was still hunched over paperwork. The man approached Olivia and placed the flowers on her desk and left. Olivia took the card from the vase, it read,

Livia,
Baby I'm sorry, please give me another chance
Meet me at Uno's at 9:30 if you can get off work
I still love you no matter what
Josh

(a/n) Cliff hanger ending hahahaha ha ha