On the way home from the barbeque we drove in silence. Not comfortable silence but silence. He just kept his eyes on the road and I looked out the window. When we pulled up at my place I got out and we said goodbye. If someone we knew saw us they would have thought it was a normal goodbye but there was something different now.
Now I'm in bed thinking about what happen. Should I be glad that my best friend doesn't want to sleep with me. The one person I trust. I should be happy but I'm not. Is it that he doesn't trust me. I thought that over the past seven years he's grown to trust me. It seemed that he trusted me. Maybe it's that he trusts me but doesn't see me as attractive. That's what it is. He goes for tall, leggy women that have big boobs. Not me. He probably sees me as his little sister.
Since I'm hungry and can't sleep, maybe I will have a little something. I get out of bed and walk to the kitchen were the humming of the refrigerator fills the air. I open the refrigerator and look in to see what I want. I pick up the container of strawberry yogurt and shut the refrigerators door.
I take a spoon from the draw and lift myself onto the counter. Sitting on the counter, I take the cover off the container and dip my spoon in then bringing it to my lips. Sitting on the counter like this reminds me of when I was younger. When I had a lot on my mind, I would sit on the counter and think.
"Was I fooling myself all these years? How could I think that Mulder even thought of me as more as a friend. People have told me that there was something there but obviously they were mistaking." I take another scoop of the yogurt. "I should have known, Mulder would never go for a person like me. A short, redhead, that doesn't believe in little gray men. I just wish that maybe... I don't know! I just thought that maybe we could have had a chance. Have I been imagining things these past couple years? Did I imagine that he almost kissed me in his hallway? Did I imagine him leaning forward and kissing me on New Year's? Did I imagine that his eyes were telling me things his voice could not."
Did I imagine that he said he loved me?
Hey everyone! Thanx so much for the reviews! I didn't think I would get so many that quick. Ihope you all enjoyed this chapter. There will be another chapter coming out soon! I would like to hear what you think about this chapter so please review!
Oobarracuba- I'm sorry that you feel that way. First off this story is not a humor fic. Nothing about it is funny. But someone asked Mulder and what would you have him do? Have him run away? Secondly, they were a little out of character but not much. How would you know what they think in their heads? People come and read fanfiction cause they want to see something that they would not see in the show. If you want to see them in character watch them on the Sci-fi channel. But I respect your opinion and thank you for reviewing.