"It's ok Lily," Rose said rubbing Lily's back as Lily cried.

"You should have seen her!" Lily sobbed, "She was so pretty no wondered he picked her over me!"

"No, James isn't good enough for you if he picked her over you," Rose said as Lily slowly stopped crying.

"But I thought he was special," Lily said quietly, "I guess I was just wrong."

Lily slipped under the covers and watched as Rose went and turned off the light. Closing her eyes Lily drifted into sleep.

Lily slipped in and out of furniture and stumbled over a book, she sat on the ground with a skinned knee and felt as though she was 6 again. James stood above her holding out his hand and she took it. Laughing James let go of her hand and Lily fell and fell into the darkness…

Lily looked down and placed the tiny infant in her arms into his crib. The baby was crying and Lily felt on the verge of tears herself. A green light blasted through the door, and Lily braced herself.

Lily awoke and looked around. She remembered her dream, James had been in it. He had tried to help her up and then he dropped her, then the dream changed. Lily thought a minute, it had been really familiar to the one that she had had the other night. It had been the same green light.

Suddenly she remembered what happened yesterday, with James and the girl. Lily's heart seemed to break again and tears began to swell in her eyes. But she struggled to keep them back, I will not cry, she thought biting her lower lip.

Lily figured she would lie in bed until Rose got her. She stared at the pink canopy tarp above her head. She stayed like that until the sun was well above dawn and Lily figured it was passed lunch time by now. Lily heard a knock on her door but didn't bother to even tell Rose to come in. Rose opened the door a crack and seeing that Lily was awake came to her bed side.

"Lily you have to stop moping!" Rose said sitting on the bed, legs folded underneath her.

Lily grunted and pulled the blanket over her face.

"Lily," whined Rose, "come on now, don't be like this."

"And how should I be like?" snapped Lily, "the guy I supposedly love is having making out with some girl! And I'm supposed to take it?"

Rose didn't answer Lily's question but merely said, "Oh I'm sorry Lily if me and Sirius didn't try hooking you to up this-"

"You what!" Lily said anger rising quicker than you could snap your fingers, "You tried hooking me up with the low-life, sleazy, cocky, jackass, boy! And then you brought Sirius into this! Were you not thinking? Did you not realize that I hated him and now I hate him even more than I want to punch him from here to China!"

"We thought that you should have given you a chance since he really like you…" Rose said.

"Well he obviously didn't want a chance, seeing as how he treated it! Going of with some slut and kissing her!" Lily said angrily.

"Maybe it was a mistake?" Rose said quietly.

"Rose there is no mistake here! I walked in on them; it can't get much clearer than that!" Lily said fuming, "And I appreciate if you would leave now!" Lily said lying back down and turning over for her back was to Rose.

Rose got up and walked to the door, "I'm sorry Lily I didn't know this would happen," she shut the door.

"Neither did I," Lily said.

0000000000000000000000000000

peck, peck, peck.

Lily groaned and opened her eyes and was surprised to see that it was dark. She hadn't realized that she had fallen asleep. Looking to the window she saw a pearl white owl pecking at the window, a letter on his leg. Groaning Lily got out of bed throwing open the window and grabbed the letter off the bird, who hooted and seeing the he obviously wasn't going to get praised for his hard working flew off.

"Sorry," mumbled Lily as she tore open the letter.

Dear Lily,

Meet me outside we need to talk.

James

Lily laughed, like she was going to give that pig a chance again. She crumbled the paper and threw it in the wastebasket. And much to her great surprise it jumped out and neatly unraveled itself.

Did you forget who you happen to be dealing with?

The letter read. Lily stomped on the letter and ripped it into pieces. The tiny pieces of paper magically seemed to glue themselves together and were still in perfect shape.

This stupid letter was making Lily mad. She was considering eating it but what would happen to her stomach if it tried to go back together sickened Lily so she stuck the letter between her mattress.

A clap of thunder made Lily jump, and listened as rain began to pour down upon the roof. The thought of Potter standing in the rain, cold and wet, made Lily laugh. He was getting a little of what he deserved.

Something was hitting the balcony window and as it rehashed off it made a tiny noise. It took Lily awhile to figure that it was rocks hitting the window. Could Potter not take a hint? He needed to go away.

Lily stomped over to the balcony doors and threw them open, and down on the ground was Potter soaking wet. "Go away Potter! Cant you seem that I don't want to talk to you!" Lily shouted.

"Please let me talk to you Lily!" James said over the rain.

"Why for you break my heart again!" Lily said shouting as she turned around and closed the doors.

She frankly didn't care if Potter stood out in the rain. She hoped he would get shot by lightning. Lily looked to her bed and saw the letter sitting there.

Please let me explain Lily.

Lily let out a scream and grabbed the letter crushing it in her palm, she threw open the balcony doors once more and threw the letter down to Potter.