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Chapter 2: Introduction to Heero
Fooled Myself
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Who would have ever thought I would end up this way? The Robot, the Perfect Soldier. When I was younger I was never trained for any kind of emotion. It was almost like I was never truly sad because I never truly knew happiness. All I knew was loneliness, no more and no less. That is until I met my best friend.
I never imagined that Relena would affect my life in the way she has. At school when Relena was the only one who didn't fear me, she invited me to her party. It meant something. At the time I had no clue what. I really shouldn't have cared. I remember how ridiculous I felt with myself. I was a Gundam Pilot and there I was regretting that I couldn't go to some girls little Birthday Party! "No emotion." I repeated to myself. It kept me going, all I needed was to succeed with the mission and I knew this girl would be in the way. "I'll destroy you." At that point I just wanted to walk away and never look back.
I did look back many times. She followed me and although I never told her this I am eternally grateful to her for that. I grew closer to her. We never talked much, but somehow in my heart I was slowly letting that girl into my life. I needed her as a support and a strength. She was so much stronger than me. I needed her companionship during the wars. I just needed her to be there. We were bonded to each other. She was more than a girl by that point, she was friend.
I was useless when the wars ended. Not only was I useless to war I was useless to her. Relena Dorlian had a life after war and well, I didn't. I decided to make a life for myself. I was tired of feeling worthless. I moved to the colonies and Relena stayed on Earth. We wrote once in a while but I stopped writing. She wrote a couple more times but soon she ceased as well.
I'm with the Preventor's now. I have a life. I have moved on from my past and from the war. Both had fated me to a life of nothing. Luckily I had the people to help me out of that hole. My life is more than I ever would have dreamed. I feel human and I have emotions that I no longer have to hide. I have friends and people that I trust. Although there is that one friend that always lurks in the back of my mind. But my new policy is live life without regrets. So why start now?
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Okay! I'm done with the introductions! Next chapter things will start happening. I'm excited to write about it! This is my first fanfiction so tell me how I'm doing? Please review! Oh and thank you Gundamgirl!
-Fairleigh