Bad Memories
Chapter 7:Easy
First off I want to apologize for to the people who reviewed over the weekend, my internet went down while I was at school on Friday, so I couldn't read your reviews untill Monday. My internet was still down till Tuesday so I had to take chapter six to school on a floppy disc to load it from a school computer, though I read your reviews and did respond, my responces were (For them) shorter that usual. I usualy try to make my responce longer than the review. But no worries my internet is up again...to bad I wont be here to use it :(
My heart actually stopped. No not death, I know most of you probably don't care but when I was about an hour of writting away from finishing this chapter, I did some stuff on my computer...anyway I had this open and my computer locked up and I had to restart. Now I have all my story files in a specific order on my desktop and when the PC is turned off they shuffle, but I never turn my computer off so I completely forgot. So when I started it up again this file wasn't where it should be...and my heart actually stoped...I was so afraid it was deleted...then I looked in the "Recent Documents" thing and I saw it, after that I found it on my desktop, but for a moment, I thought I was going to have to tell you to wait till next year 00
BlackDove682:Another positive review from my favorite reviewer. I'm glad you injoyed it, and I'm glad you didn't think it was clunky...this chapter has the same problem though...at least for most of it. I saw your review for my other story, it's to bad you don't like yuri's, though I do understand...unfortunatly it get's a little less dark and a little more yuri later on. And unfortunatly I don't think I have the time to write even one more chapter for it 'till September. Funny thing I was actually on my hotmail accout when the review alert for your review arrived, I was just deleting some junk mail and poof it came out of no where:) I hope you injoy this chapter...check out the dedication...
Poisyn:That sucks about being cut out(I wonder why it happened), you can e-mail the M.P.S. stuff anytime, I might use it in another story.(It's unfortunatly to late for this story) Second off ...I'm reluctant to ask this because It will seem somewhat perverted...but what the hell. Did I read that right? 'haven't seen many'? as in there are actually American comics with a Starfire naked...? I must admit, this still has me somewhat baffled. Why would they put in nude drawings of an underage girl into a comic for teenagers? And this was in the 80's wasn't it, that would have been very taboo back then. Sorry, I don't mean to obsess over it...but like I said I'm just wondering. This also raises a question I thought of before, how are drawings affected by child pornography laws? Is a drawing of a naked minor considered child porn? I know this is a very...strange and disturbing subject line that has very little to do with your review, but one day I was on the internet, and I was bored...so I started looking for...some 'Hard to find ' stuff, Ok ok I was looking for fake naked drawings of Videl from Dragon Ball Z (What can I say she's hot and I have to keep my womanly lust under control somehow) Anyway in my search I found many things, like faked nudes of that pink haired girl from 'Sailor Moon" (I don't watch that show so I don't know her name) But she's like nine! Isn't that illegal! Anyway I'm really sorry for putting such along off topic rant in your responce, but I've been wondering this for awile. So get back to me on that M.P.S. and Starfire stuff, I hope to hear from you again:)
Lost1n7heDark:I'm with you, I consider my self very open minded, I can understand why people do alot of things...but rape...that is just completely...I can't even think of a word! That's how strongly I feel about it...it's a tragedy whenever it happens...But like any other tragedy...it can be taken advantage of for entertainment (Isn't that the basic outline of weastern capitilism?)...I would never, ever exploit an actual rape, but a fictional event...make's for a very dramatic story...and helps deal with my frustation (Writting is very theriputic). Good to hear from you again! Hope you like the finale:)
kittykat:Yup, but it wont be out 'till around school time when I get back.
Me:Yea! Another glowing review. I thank you for your complements, they mean alot, here's your new chapter.
Chibi Lauryn:Yea, I like it when they find out stuff to... The stuff is dark and depresing, but even more so when she tells her friends about it:)
Kataphraktoi887:That's alot of quote's...not that I'm complaining. I'm still not sure on the hole 'black soul' thing...I didn't mean she was evil, it's just she says her magic requires a part of her soul...and all her magic is black...you might be right though.Thanx for the info on the slavery thing, I would still like more details but every bit counts.
Angel Caida:Yay a new friend!;)
um i like pie:As long as it's dark, disturbing and depresing...then I don't care if it's weird.:)
hermionegrnger22491:Why thank you, I'll be sure to check out your story:)
Graciously Taken (Chapter 1 Review): Sorry about that, the site took it off but I actually wrote on the last chapter so I'm posting it here(You didn't have an e-mail on your profile). I'll write it on my profile and I'll write it here again with spaces between all the leters…the site is w w w . s e l f – I n j u r y . n e t (There's a dash between self and injury, I'm saying this incase this website doesn't show it) it's a great website, it has just about everything. Like I said in the last Chapter they have an artwork section with some very good work, though to warn you some are very graphic. They also have a short story section and a very helpfull forum (But like I said to join you have to wait awile) and a chat room.It even has a list of fictional books on cutting (Like 'Cut' by Patricia McCormick) they also have alot of books to help you to quit. It's a very good site and I recomend it:)
Graciously Taken (Chapter 6 Review):Thank you very much for both the complements and for being so open with your story. Unfortunatley I'm pretty sure I'm nowhere near ready to stop...
TheSilverChakra:Glad you injoyed…and yea, it is really intense….Authors Note:Wow, it's finally here, the last chapter...I was afraid I couldn't get it out before my trip, but I did, Yay! There is going to be a sequel, I'll write it on my labtop and start posting in September...I know, I know, it's a long time but by patient.
Yay! 'The End' was absolutley increadible!(At least the first part), I live in Canada so I got to watch the first part on Wednesday and on Thursday the second part is on tonight! Obviously me being a huge Raven fan(She's the only reason I watch the show)has made this my fav. season. I mean "Nevermore" was a good episode, and "Spellbound" had it's moments...and even one's like "How long is forever" there was that increadibly dark and dramatic moment where Raven was in the rundown asylum hospital place...that surprised me with how dark it was (I loved it!) and "Switched" had it's moment's too, though I would have injoyed it more if there voice's had stayed with there bodies instead of there souls...I mean wouldn't you just love too hear Starfire's voice talking in a dead monotone, or hear Raven's voice super hyper(It would have sounded a lot like Rikku from Final Fantasy, Tara Strong she's the voice of Ravenalso did her...) but I mean this season was great! "Birthmark" was good and "Prophecy" was absolutly superb! and "The End" is the best episode I've seen yet, but I noticed alot of what happened it the beggining of the first one was almost the exact same as the first bit of "Know what's wrong with Prophecies" by XRR, and...now this is perverted but in a few scene's Raven's breasts are like three time's larger then normal, but the episode also broke the stereotypical "Raven" episode, before this season all her episodes had something to do with her not being able to control her powers...now though...it's all about her past and stuff. I only hope her episodes in the next season are as good.
Do any of you watch Justice League Unlimited? I don't usually watch shows like that, as I said above I only watch Teen Titans because Raven is my fav character ever. But I had nothing better to do so I watched an episode...well I guess it would have been a week ago, anyway this clone of Supergirl was leading an army of these wierd mindless supersoilders...but to the point one of the five (They only had five different supersoilders, but had like a hundred copies of each)had the same power as Beastboy, except it was white animals instead of green. Anyone know anything about them?
Anyway on with the story...
Deadication and thanks: In this the final chapter of my first 'Real' story I would like to thank all of you who took the time to review, I would especially like to thank those of you who reviewed more then once:) And with that I dedicate this entire fiction to my most loyal reviewer BlackDove682 who has been with this story since the beggining, so to all who reviewed (Though espesialy BlackDove) Thank You, I only hope that you will injoy the ending enough to read the sequel in September.(It might be a good idea to put me on your author alert list just so you don't forget to read it)
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They were silent...I mean what could they say? One of there best friends had just shown them that her entire upper body(With the exception of her hands, neck, and face) was completely covered in scars...that was something they should have noticed...right? I mean if you live with someone for a couple of years...you should know somthing like this...right?
Raven had since redressed and was looking asthough she had forgotten something..
"Raven...? Are you all right...?"Robin said this as much to hear the answer as to break the akward silence.
"I just...there's something I can't quite...there's something I wanted to tell you... something important..."Raven's brow was ferrowed in deep thought...then her face softened. "Oh...ya..."She said in annoyance...she obviously wished she hadn't remembered.
Raven reached over and took a sip of her tea, which was rapidly cooling off.
"That man...the one that first cut me...he was the who I killed a month and a half ago..."
The titans eye's went wide at this comment, Robin opened his mouth to respond, but was cut off by Raven.
"I didn't lie..."Raven said quickly"When you asked me if I knew him...he wasn't familiar...I try not to remember the past...for obvious reasons...so he wasn't on my mind..."
"I only remembered him recently...after a..."Raven stopped "...well, not until awile after..."
Raven ignored the looks she was recieving from her friends and decided to return to her story "And now back to the endless parade of depresion that is my life story..."Raven let a small smirk appear on her face, despite the near crippling depression that was over taking her...the totaly uncharacteristic expressions on her friends face's were giving her a...well, a sadistic satisfaction.
"Now I guess the next big thing to happen would be..."Raven paused as she tryed to think of the next important incident...she had one in mind...but she wanted to delay telling it until it was absolutly necisarry...'Crap'...there was only one thing, and it wouldn't last long...
"At this point certain things...less obvious things were starting to get to me...beside's the..."Raven paused "...the constant rape, and torture...the sureal feel everything had because I hadn't left the room since I was put into it, that was all constant...but a new thing was really starting to bug me...I was filthy...and I don't just mean emotionally, I mean physically too...I had been in a room that wasn't clean at all, and I hadn't been alowed to clean my self off in anyway...the only thing in the room after all was a small hole for me to use as a bathroom..."
Raven paused a moment and contemplated how to word this next part...though she ended up talking before she had decided on anything "The dirt from the room...added with years...well I'm assuming years of sweat, other forms of filth and..."
Raven held her mouth open for a moment as if on the verge of speaking, then she closed it, and then opened it again.
"Raven?"Robin asked"What's wrong?"
"I'm trying to think of the least...shocking way of saying this..."She replied
"Just come out and say it..."Beastboy said"After all the stuff you already told us...I think you can be frank with us..."
"You want me to sugar coat this stuff...believe me.."Raven said this in a slightly condesending tone, this prompted Cyborg
"Don't think we won't understand Rea...we all have had bad stuff happen to us at some time or another...(AN:There's a little bit for you Poisyn)...nothing near as bad as you...but you shouldn't underestimate us..."
Oh, boy did Raven looked angry...then she just smiled smugly "So you wan't absolutley no suger coating for the rest of my story?"
The titans all nodded in agreement, though obviously thrown off my her smile.
"Ok, where were we..."Raven pondered for a moment, she still had the smile"Ah, yes...the filth, I already mentioned the dirt and the sweat ond the other things that had built up over the years, the next part was..."The same part of Raven that derived the sadistic sadisfaction from there shocked faces before was practicle giddy at the thought of there reactions to Raven's story, uncensored, especially this piticular part "Some of the men when they were done raping me wouldn't ejaculate inside of me...instead they would pull out and come on me, usualy on my stomach, breasts, or face...some men specifically turned me around so all of there cum would land in my hair...I could at least wipe it away if it was on my body, but in my hair...well, without a shower, it was there to stay..."
That evil part of Raven was laughing inside her head as the facial expressions on her friends face's told her that if Slade himself walked into the room and asked Cyborg to marry him, even that wouldn't snap them out of the state of shock they were in.
Raven couldn't help it, a small grin appeared on her face"See, I told you"
The titans all snaped out of whatever trance they were in, but were still at a lost for words.
Raven was upset about this, she didn't have anything else to stall with, so if they didn't say anything...she would have to tell them.
Sigh "Stuff like that continued on for quite awile, much later, a couple of years later, a teenager started watching me...now I can now safely assume, from how long it was 'till and how long it was 'till I left that I was somewhere around nine or ten years old, he was 14...I was scared...the last man who had only watched me ended up doing worse stuff to me then anyone before him..."
At this point Raven brought her knees up to her chest again and hugged them tight.
"...He didn't do anything at first...so I tryed to ignore him...it was around now that some of the men started to try to make conversation with me...after awile I started to use them...some of the men wanted to feel like we were in a..."Raven scoweled"...a relationship with me..."
Raven relaxed visibly and smiled slightley "So I started to use them"
"I got alot out of them...not just information, but some started to feel guilty" Raven looked disgusted, then she smiled and said "so they started to do nice things, small stuff that my father wouldn't hear about...like bringing me food...not much, but for the first time since I was thrown in to that hell hole I wasn't having to suffer through constant hunger pains...so now I could concetrate on the constant rape, beatings and torture.."
"...But one of the best things I got from the men was a tidbit of information.."Raven's face softened and filled with emotions that the titans couldn't identify" ...that info was that the teenager that was constantly trying to sneek a peek at me...he was my half brother..."
The titans were shocked, Raven had a half brother? Why wasn't he treated as horribly as she was? And how was this the best bit of info she got?
It was now that they noticed that Raven was shuddering.
"Raven? Is everything alright?Cyborg asked in a sympatietic tone
Raven was obviously still in her head because she snaped out of her glazed over look and looked at Cyborg suddenly "It was the best thing I could do...and I stand by it..."
"What?"Cyborg said in surprise, 'That made, absolutly, no sense...'
Raven realized what she had just said and backpeddled a bit "Apperantly he was being treated like I used to be...there was only one thing he couldn't have...me"
The titans were shocked but Raven ignored them and continued "And like most men he wanted the one thing he couldn't have..."
By now all the titans eye's were wide, 'He wanted to have sex with his half sister? That's just sick!'Robin thought in disgust, the rest of the titans were having similar thoughts.
"...so, I did the smartest thing I could do in that situation..."With that the titans could finaly decypher her facial expresion, it was shame and disgust.
"...Raven...what did you do...?"Robin asked cautiously
Raven smiled weakly, though the titans could see she looked to be on the verge of vomiting "...I...I seduced him..."
Robin was the first to regain a sence of reality...after about 45 seconds "You what!"
"I stand by my choice!"Raven said defencivly "I was able to use him, because of him I was alowed things the other men would get in trouble for giving me...like a blanket and pillow...I also got more food...and it was just one other man...not a big deal"
"He was your brother!"Robin almost yelled at her "That's incest! It's not only beyond gross it's also illegal!"
"You can't understand how it was for me!"Raven shouted as she stood up, she had been on the edge of losing control since she started...now though any semblence of control she had was gone. Had it been in any other room the building would have blown up, but in this room...Raven felt asthough her insides were on fire, like her digestive system was disolving in acid, but she didn't notice, she was to busy yelling as all her anger boiled to the surface.
"You have no idea what it was like! I was tortured and treated as a sex slave! I was regarded as a thing throughout my entire childhood!This lasted for six years!"
It was now that Raven started to feel the pain, but it was nowhere near enough to stop her
"And it was getting worse! Every time a man tortured me, he pushed me a little farther! The previous month had the first time I was gang raped! And it had happend at least once a week since!"
Raven calmed down slightly and looked at the shocked expresions on the faces of her friends, she continued, but she was no longer shouting, although her voice was still firm.
"It was the only way I could get anything. Look at it my way, all that terrible stuff is happening on a daily basis...and all I had to do was willingly have sex with one person, and I would start to recieve some of the things I needed...it just so happened that that one person happened to have the same blood flowing through his viens..."
"Did I want to do it? No. Did I enjoy it in any way? No. Would I do it again if I was in the same situation? In an instant..."She looked at the face's of her friends and almost fell into the chair, the pain had finaly caught up with her. On the upside she had her emotions under control(Well as under control as she could without drinking or cutting) so all the pain was just left over from before, and it was disipating now.
Robin was the first to talk, he wanted to reafirm his belief "But for a pillow and blanket? Was it really worth it?"He made sure his voice was soft, as to not send her into another rage.
"The room I was in was very cold...to cold for me to actually fall asleep...I just kind of passed out once every four of five days when my body couldn't handle it anymore...with even just the blanket I was able to actually sleep for the first time since I was in the room..."
Raven looked Robin firmly in the eye's "I did what I had to...the lack of sleep was affecting me physicaly...I did what I needed to do in order to survive...well mentaly at least..."
"What does that mean?"Starfire asked quickly
Raven looked down in shame "...do you really think I would try to stay alive through that hell?"
She looked up in one of the most sarrowful looks they had ever seen "...unfortunatly I didn't have the streagth..."
"What are you trying to say?"Robin asked with his brow ferrowed
"...you know what I meant...I was in hell...so I tryed to kill my self"As she spoke Raven brought her knees back to her chest and once again hugged them close.
"You said you didn't even have the streagth for that...?"Robin asked"But comiting suicide is the weakest thing a person can do.."
Raven glared at Robin before answering"I meant I wasn't physicaly strong enough...I didn't have anything to end my life with...I don't think there has ever been a gun on the island, the only time anysharp objects were in the room they were not being used by me and they didn't exactly leave lethal doses of pills lying around...and because of my deminished streagth I couldn't just run head first into a wall repeatidly...so I just stoped eating...that wasn't a big stretch...but they noticed..."
Raven looked at her friends"You still want me to not suger coat it?"
The titans all nodded in affermation, though rather sheepisly.
"When they noticed they force fed me...but I threw it up...and they shoved it down my throat again...it was so putrid that I never attempted it again..."
All the titans looked at her as if she was insane, Raven just sighed
"Listen that's really about the end of my story..."Raven said this looking completely worn out, recounting her past had taken quite the toll on her.
"What! That's the end?"Robin said in disbelief "But..."He thought for a moment "You said you were there for six years starting when you were six..."
'Wow, he was paying really close attention'Raven thought slightly impressed, Robin had always been her closest intellectual competition.
"...but your story stoped two years early...and you never told us how you escaped.."
"Well unless you want to hear every detail of the rapes and torture...there's really nothing left to say...I told you really everything of importance..."
"And how did you escape...?"Starfire asked before Robin could
Raven once again sighed"One night three or four men came into my cell...at first I thought it was just a gang raping...then I noticed they had baseball bats...they beat me for nearly an hour and a half, untill I was almost dead...I'm pretty sure they thought I was dead...if I could have I would have shown them I was still alive so they would finish me off...but I couldn't move at all... so they picked me up and took me out of the room, to the morgue I thought...instead they took me outside and threw me off a cliff into the ocean..."
Raven skrunched up her face as if she were trying to remember something "I remember only flashes for awile...I remember alot of water...then looking up at the sun from what I was later told was a beach...I remember the paramedics asking someone nearby 'What the hell happened to her' and then I woke up at a hospital...I was really groggy and out of it for the first week because of the painkillers and the anti-bacterial medicin they were giving me"
"Everyone in the hospital was so nice to me...they felt sorry for me...I must have had every cop in the city come by to wish me a speedy recovery...and to ask if I had remembered anything yet..."
Raven looked up and saw the questioning looks on her friends face's, it took a moment to deduce why "...Oh, I had amnesia for almost a month after I was fished out of the water.."
"The staff never got a chance to hear my story...after they lowered the amount of drugs they were giving me I...well I discovered my powers...I discovered them when stuff started to blow up everytime I...well just about everytime I thought...I had no control over my emotions...it scared the shit out of me..."
Raven looked up to her friends, she could see the wheels turning, they all must have been wondering why she hadn't used her powers to escape.
"...I got my powers from my father...and also from what he did to me...the abuse...it awakened a part of my brain that was not meant to be awakened...it would have happened earlier but that island he kept me on had such a strong demonic aura that none of my powers worked..."
Raven reached over to her tea and brought it to her lips'Cold...dammit'she thought bitterly.
"I ran away away from the hospital when I accidentaly knocked out a really nice nurse with my powers...when I ran away...well it wasn't long before I started to cut...I had not, in memory at least, gone a day without being hurt...I had, without my noticing it, started to believe I diserved it...that I must have done some terrible thing that I couldn't remember and they were punishing me--"
Raven was cut off by an enraged Starfire "Unacceptible! Why I do not believe for a second you could do anything bad...Nothing! Nothing you could ever have done would warent such brutal and...and..."Starfire was struggling to find a word"...and just plain not nice behavior!"
Raven smiled at Starfire, her niave nature was a welcome interuption from her story.
"I know...I kind of realized that..."Raven thought for moment "Well I realised it soon after...but the cutting kept me calm...I hadn't learned to meditate yet...so this was the only thing I could do...until...untill I started drinking...it too numbed the pain...after I learned to meditate I didn't do it as much, but...cutting has always been a fail safe if I couldn't control myself with meditation...drinking has been a constant thing to keep me numbed enough that I have a chance to control myself...after I killed that man was the first time I ever in four years increased how much I drank..."
Raven sighed, she was exhausted...but that was all of it that they needed to know, the only thing she had to worry about were there questions...(AN:Ok I know she just got out of bed like a couple of hours ago...but work with me here!)
"Raven...?"Robin said in a soft voice "You can go back to sleep now"
Raven was surprised "Your not going to ask me any questions?"
"This is...well it's alot to take in...you can sleep, and we can think...tomarrow you can answer...ok?"Robin asked in a somewhat distant voice, he was lost in thought."We can also talk about your...coping methods...there are better ways then cutting and drinking.."
"Fine, sure, whatever you say"Raven said as she walked out of the comfort of the white containment cell, she was just happy they were going to let her sleep first, she would have gone faster if not for two reasons. First, she was so tierd that if she tryed to run she would pass out from exhaustion after two feet. Second, she was still in a lot of pain and it hurt enough to breath much less walk, and she couldn't imagine how much it would hurt to run, she shuddered at the thought.
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Raven walked into the main room, and was pleasently surprised to find the rest of the titans waiting for her on the couch instead of the kitchen table.
"Sleep well?"Robin asked upon observing that she had entered the room.
"No, not even close"Raven said grimly "All that 'reminising' stirred up a lot of nightmare's, and I was to tierd to cut...so I was the worst sleep I've had since I was in that room..."
The titans looked discouraged by this, when they saw Raven's questioning expession Beastboy explained.
"We were...uh...kinda hoping that now that you've gotten that stuff of your chest you would be...ya know...free, from your past...quess not..."Beastboy frowned as he finished.
"Sorry, my past wont just dissipear because you all know about it..."
"Raven?"Robin looked very serious "What about the drinking and cutting...?"
"What about it?"Raven was surprised he even asked, they knew the reason for why she did it, did they think it wasn't reason enough?
"I mean are you going to continue?"Robins face showed worry, though Raven was much to sleepy to notice
Raven looked at him like it was the stupidist question in the history of the world "Of course..."She said it as if it were so obvious he would have to be an idiot to think anything else.
Robin's face fell, as did the other titans."Your not stoping!"Robin asked in disbelief
Raven once again looked at him as if he were stupid "You know what happened to me...you know my emotions drive my powers...unless you want to have the tower blown up, continuing is the only way..."
"That doesn't change what your doing...your still consuming dangerous levels of alcohol, illegaly I might add...and then there's the cutting...what if you go to far?"Robin wasn't letting this go "From what we saw from the camera...you were pretty close to causing serious, irriversible damage to your self...that second cut you gave your self will take a very long time to heal...how long do you think it will be till the blood loss is to much for your body to handle...?"
"It's not...I mean I'm not going to kill myself or anything..."Raven was having a hard enough time without her friends telling her her only way of living was killing her, Raven wasn't stupid, she had known since she had started that it would kill her long before old age...but what's the point of living to old age if you have to have Valium pumped into your viens to keep you safe...
"It's the only way..."Raven responded in only a whisper
"No, it's not..."Starfire responded in the same tone "There are ways to overcome your past...you are stronger than it friend.."
Raven was quickly becoming angry, if it were so easy she would have stopped years ago..."What could you hope to do?"Anger tinged her voice, and the titans noticed "You know nothing about rehabilitating me to stop me from drinking, and you know even less about cutting!"
"We know..."Beastboy admitted"But we came perpaired"He ended with a smile as Cyborg walked up to her holding a broachur.
"What is this?"Raven asked as she took it from him.
"It's for a top notch rehab. clinic...out of the city of course...so no one there knows your identity...unless you want them to..."Robin said all this with a slightly hopeful tone in his voice.
"Your ditching me!"Raven shouted in anger.
"No!"Robin said quickly"We...just want to help..."
"Well I'm not going!"Raven said, anger still consuming her"And you can't make me!"
The titans looked at each other. "...How about we make a deal?"Robin said somewhat reluctantly
"What kind of deal"Raven was suspicious, but she had to ask
"If you continue, and are not negativly affected...I will let you be, and I swear, we will not interfere...but, if you show negitive signs...such as a drunken stuper, or a hangover. Or if you are no longer able to fight because of the self inflicted wounds on your arms, or something to do with blood loss...if anything like that happends...then you have to go to the clinic, and voluntairily aswell...no argument...Well?"
Raven wieghed her options...what did she have to lose? All she had to do is keep it undercontrol, that's what she had been doing since before she joined the titans. She wouldn't be stupid enough to be caught.
"...Sure...why not...?"Raven said this in a surprisingly light voice
"Do you promise?"Cyborg asked, he, like the other titans was thrown off by her attitude 'Could she really believe she could keep it under control?'
"Promise..."Raven had a small, but unmistakiblr smug smirk on her face 'Jackpot'
"But you have to keep up your end of it, if I can function normally...you can't make me go"
The titans all nodded in agreement.
"Good, then we have a deal"Raven's smile was now no longer as smug and more just a contentment 'Control my drinking...and my cutting?'
"This is gonna be easy"
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Well boy was I wrong! I said the last chapter was the hardest to write...this was much harder!
I hope you enjoyed it, to give you an idea of what will happen in the sequel, Raven will slip and be sent to the clinic, that will be in the prolog and in the rest of the story she'll be in the clinic. It will be lightly based on 'Cut' By Patricia McCormick.
Now I was going to tak on the idea file so you could vote...but it was to long, so I made it another chapter. So be sure to vote, your vote's will after all determine in what order I write my stories, so at least check it out. I'll still be able to read your review's on my trip, public computers after all, do have internet (Though unfortunatly they dont have disc drive's so I can't uplaod my stories...bummer)