Previously:

"It won't be so bad," Harry smirks now

"No," Severus returns the smirk before moving onto all fours and crawling the short distance predatorily towards the other man, "I'm sure we can find something to occupy the time with," he whispers against Harry's lips before taking them in a bruising kiss

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"Severus," Harry breathes as his lips are released

"Mmm?" Severus asks as his hands work on Harry's shirt while lips attack the younger mans neck

"Severus...stop," Harry pushes a confused Severus away, "Don't you think you should adjust to this new information first? I mean, it's not like hearing something minor like your mother is coming to visit or anything. Maybe it needs to sink in?"

The look on the older man's face goes from confusion to one of shuddered apathy

"What's there to adjust to or sink in?" He averts his gaze to the floor, "I was finally caught -something I knew would happen at some point- and the Dark Lord is out to kill you. Is there something here that I'm supposed to be surprised by?"

"I...I don't know how you can just accept it"

"Harry," he looks him in the eye again, "Are you shocked that the Dark Lord's trying to kill you?"

"Well...no, but I've been dealing with it for six years now"

"My life has been in danger for 19 years now, so there's nothing for me to adjust to. It's been 19 years of me fearing that every time I went to a meeting I would never return because I knew, Harry, I knew he would find out. As for being worthless as I stated before...well...everyone has those times, right? So tell me why it would be considered rash to want to be close to the man I love"

"Because it's still a lot to think over?" his uncertainty is clearly heard

"It is. But would it be alright with you if we didn't think about it right now?"

"I don't think it's healthy to just push it aside..."

Severus' look turns from apathetic to one of exhausted desperation

"19 years I haven't pushed anything aside. I had nothing to push them aside with except potions, and now, all I ask, is for the ability to get lost in something that can make me forget my past, present and possible future. How can you not want that?" The pleading look is heart breaking, and Harry caves

"I'm sorry, Severus," Harry says as he crawls the short distance to the older man and positions himself in his lap so they're face to face

Surprisingly, Severus initiates the kiss. It's a hot, passionate and, above all, desperate kiss. Severus trails his lips down Harry's neck and whispers: "Make me forget, Harry. Please, you're the only one that can," causing him to moan

Harry pushes Severus backwards so he's now lying with his back against the floor, Harry straddling his hips

They younger man slowly divests his Professor of his clothing, kissing the flesh as it's revealed. It seems like forever since he last saw the milky-white flesh of his lover, and he nearly forgot how even the mere sight excites him

Upon reaching Severus' pants, Harry teasingly runs his fingers over the zip with minute pressure, causing the man below him to hiss and raise his hips

Harry slowly lowers the zipper and undoes the button before lowering both pants and boxers at an achingly slow speed while placing wet, open-mouthed kisses on the legs. As Harry eases his way back up the lean form so his head is positioned in front of Severus' erect cock, he drags his still clothed body teasingly against the older man's exposed legs

Harry flicks his tongue out to lap at Severus' length, starting at that base and working his way up towards the tip

"Harry," Severus moans as he places his hands in the others hair, holding him in place

The younger man slowly takes the long length into his mouth, making his way down at an achingly slow pace until about half of it is in his mouth and he's pumping the rest with his right hand

As he bobs his head, he takes in more each time, and as he finally takes in the whole of it, Severus comes down his throat

Harry climbs up Severus' limp form after releasing his cock and kisses the other man hard on the lips, sharing his essence with him

"Accio Lubricant," Severus mutters breathlessly, catches the vial with ease and then reaches up to divest Harry of his clothing

Once Harry is naked, Severus takes Harry's right hand and pours some of the lubricant onto his outstretched fingers

"Severus?" Harry's voice wavers with uncertainty as his hand is guided to Severus' entrance

"Please, Harry," The look in his eyes is desperate once more

"But...I haven't ever..." He starts but is cut off

"I haven't either. I was waiting for you, hoping beyond hope that you'd come back and still love me"

Harry leans down and kisses him passionately, guiding his fingers to the puckered entrance, slowly easing a finger beyond the guardian muscle

Severus breaks the kiss to turn his head to the side with a pained gasp, his eyes clenched shut

"Severus! I'm sorry!" Harry makes to withdraw his hand, but stops when he hears, "No. Don't stop. Just...just hold still"

And he does. For what seems to be forever, Harry sits with his finger inserted in his Potions Master most private part. A surreal experience were there ever one

"Ok," Severus says, "you can move now"

The youngest of the pair slowly retracts his finger before pushing it back in, just as slow

Once Severus begins panting, Harry adds his middle finger to his index, stretching the man beneath him

"Enough. Please, Harry," he says, pushing back on the intruding digits

He grabs the vial and quickly but thoroughly coats his engorged member. As the blunt tip of his cock comes to rest at Severus' opening, he stares into his onyx eyes as he enters him with delicate care

Severus hisses and Harry leans down to kiss him, hoping to maybe distract him from the undoubted pain

"Don't stop, just go slow. Make me forget, Harry, make this last"

And he does. Their first session of love making, on the floor in front of Severus' fireplace, lasts for hours before they finally move into the bedroom

Sorry for the delay. This week's been nuts

Ummm...yeah...so that was almost a full chapter based solely on sex. But I hope it was sweet sex, cuz that's what it was supposed to be

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