Disclaimer: The songs used in the fiction come from Evanescence: Fallen. Many of the ideas and characters belong to AAR. I don't pretend to own anything I don't own but here are a few things I do own: The main character (who is as yet unnamed) and the plot. Use of either of these things with out my permission is punishable with a cast iron frying ban to the base of the skull if you catch my drift. (A vague disclaimer is nobody's friend.)

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

"You're evil you're bloody EVIL!" I screamed at him tears in my eyes.

Fifteen thousand tears I've cried

"That's right I'm evil. I recall telling you that the night we met." He tilted his head to the side and regarded me with his green eyes. Such beautiful green eyes he has when the rest of our kind have death blackened eyes. Sure we can make them look different but that's an illusion his eyes are really green because he is alive he lives still a creation from the beginning of time unable even to die. "It didn't bother you then so why now does it bother you?"

Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you

"I thought-" No don't go there you can't love him and he can't love you it doesn't work that way he's evil. He could read my mind to see my thoughts but he no longer bothers with that even.

And you still won't hear me

"Such a naive girl." He chides me and then he kisses me with gentle violence. His kisses to me are nothing but violence even when he is more gentle than a human lover even because he is Siete.

I'm going under

"You know I'll protect you little one you've nothing to fear."

Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself

"Except from you." I whisper. I know I have nothing to fear except from him. He is as a great wave with the power to dash me upon the cliffs but for now he tumbles me playing with me but for how long I don't know.

Maybe all we've done for once/ not tall and too daily defeated by you

"Yes. Except from me. I could kill you now. You know that of course. That I could drain you dry and put a dagger in your heart. Flick a match at you and watch you burn. Still, you do not leave me."

Just when I thought I reached the bottom/ I'm dying again/ I'm goin' under/ Drowning in you/ I'm falling forever/ I've got to break through/ I'm going under

"No I do not leave." Yes, you're evil. Yes, I hate you but am I not evil as well do I not hate myself? This is my hell. I stay because I am evil and I deserve to love you.

"Yes you love me. That's why you stay. There is a thin line between love and hate; you have crossed it many times. I have never loved and I do not hate so you fascinate me.

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies/ So I don't know what's real and what's not/ Always confusing the thoughts in my head/ So I can't trust myself any more

He twists my own words around and gives them new meanings. He can read my thoughts. He could kill me in a minute. I am not safe from him especially in a deadly embrace such as this but I deserve the violence. He kisses me again with fangs and tongue and lips hurting me but the line of pain and pleasure has long been blurred by his kisses.

I'm dying again/ I'm going under/ Drowning in you/ I'm falling forever/ I've got to break through

"Do you love me?" He asks mockingly. I bow my head and do not answer but he knows. He knows with out reading my mind what my answer is. "Do you love me?" He asks again.

"Yes."

"You are a fool."

So go on and scream/ scream at me I'm so far away/ I won't be broken again/ I've got to breath I can't keep going under

I draw in a deep breath and cry quietly my shoulders shaking but he doesn't know I'm crying he's gone. Gone. He will come back smelling of the hunt of blood and liquor and sex. How I hate him for being so indifferent. Oh, but how I love him love him still. If you think love and hate are opposites you're wrong they are as a pair it's is love and indifference that are opposites.

A/N: Hullo all. Thank you for the lovely reviews. huggles reviewers Oh, due to a question I got I thought I might define song fic for you in the terms I understand it, please look below for the definition. Also could you all tell me if you can see that the lyrics are in italics? If they don't show up that way please mention it and I'll try to make them more obvious. Review or flame. Reviews shall be cherished and flames shall be used to burn my Latin project. ()

Songfic: A particular variety of fanfiction. The chapter or chapters of the songfic have lyrics of a song incorporated into them they are often written while listening to that song and the song might be the original inspiration for the fic but not necessarily.