"The More You Ignore Me"
by Sara Jaye

This was originally a songfic, but I took it down and removed the lyrics after enforced their No-Songfic rules. No matter, I still think it stands well enough on its own. I edited it just a bit, though, because some of Tomo's lines felt very out of character.


I love you. You're the reason I bother living anymore, and I'd give my life for you.

But you don't care. You just go about your business, fawning over the priestess, sneering at people, allowing Soi to cling to you every second you're NOT doing the aforementioned things...to you, I'm next to nonexistent. The only time you acknowledge me is to coldly give orders.

It doesn't feel very good to be unwanted, my lord.

It doesn't matter, though. Your pushing me away just means I need to work harder. Work harder to make you appreciate me and all I do for you.

I'll do anything for you. If there's someone you wish to be dead, I'll kill them. I'll fetch your drinks, polish your sword, be your sparring partner if you need to sharpen up an attack of yours. You don't have to say anything, Lord Nakago. Your wish is mine.

I know you've led a harsh life, and that's why you're often so cold. You're content to never get close to anyone again, unless you need or want something from them, it seems. You're manipulative, cruel, and arrogant. A real bastard.

But I know you better than that. You DO have a soft side. Maybe you're not the gentlest man in the world, but you're certainly no Ice King. You're capable of love, and letting someone get close to you without an ulterior motive.

I'm determined to crack your shell, Lord Nakago.

No matter how hard you try to ignore me, or how much you despise me...no matter how much I want to scream in frustration. Even if one of us should unexpectedly die tomorrow, nothing will ever change this fact.

I love you.

And someday, I'm going to make you see it, Lord Nakago. I'll make you see how much you mean to me...and maybe, just maybe you'll realize you feel the same way for me.

Please...just give me a chance. Let me into your heart, Lord Nakago. Trust me...I'd never, ever do anything to hurt you. All I want is to love you.

Let me love you.