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If You're Not The One
Chapter Seven: Misguided Help
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"SIRIUS!!!!!" bellowed the voice of Sirius' anger driven mother, for what seemed to be the thousandth time in the few days he'd been home for the holidays.
Sirius groaned, half in pain half in exhaustion as he picked himself off his bed. His head ached from where he had smashed it against the cabinet when his mother lost her temper, and blasted him across the room. It was nothing more than he expected when she started impressing on him the so called 'family values'.
So what if he didn't care whether or not some students are muggle born? Who cares that he didn't mind half breeds being 'allowed to roam free'? What's the big deal if he doesn't marry into a pure blooded family? All that kind of stuff was utter nonsense in Sirius' opinion. And now it was another day and he had to go through another 24 hours of her criticism and meaningless lectures. Why couldn't it all just go away?
"Why cousin dear, you look like something the cat dragged in," a female voice sounded, full of unsuppressed amusement as he walked down the hall.
"Sod off Bellatrix," Sirius murmured as he came up to his cousin, not at all surprised she was at Number 12 Grimmauld Place.
"Now, now is that any way to talk to your dear cousin?" she asked through her heavily hooded eyes, smirking at his disheveled state.
"What do you want Bellatrix?" he asked sounding almost bored.
"Why to help you of course," she said with a malicious smile.
"To help me?" Sirius asked in disbelief.
"Here," She said handing him a packet of tiny purple pills that made faces at you. Sirius arched an eyebrow in question. "Just a little pick-me-up."
"Are these drugs?" he whispered fiercely as the idea dawned on him. She merely winked at him in response before moving on.
Looking down at the pills Sirius had the urge to chuck them away from him, but staring down at them made him change his mind. Pocketing the drugs Sirius heaved a sigh and moved into the kitchen to do his best to ignore his mother.
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The holidays were coming to an end, and Remus was getting worried. He had only gotten one letter from Sirius, and it didn't even seem like him. He seemed off somehow. He had owled Sirius back to ask if anything was wrong, and was still waiting for a reply five days later. Each day Remus would stare out his window, hoping to catch sight of an owl heading his way. It wasn't until the day before the New Year that Remus finally got his reply.
Hey Babe,
What's shakin'? 'Fraid I can't make it for the New Year. Family stuff.
Sirius
What's shaking? Family stuff? That sure wasn't like Sirius. The Sirius he had always known would do anything to get away from his family. What on earth was going on? Hurt and thoroughly confused, Remus crumpled Sirius' letter in his hand and stocked off to the kitchen. Ignoring the queries from his parents he flooed himself to James' house.
Remus tumbled into the Potters' kitchen, and ignoring the shocked look on their faces promptly burst into tears. Not used to having teens pop into their kitchen and burst into tears James' parents turned to their son for answers. The youngest Potter shrugged, and got up from the table to go to the aid of his friend.
"Moony? What's wrong?" James asked concerned.
Sobbing as hard as he was Remus' reply merely came out as incoherent sounds. Not sure what to do James turned to his mom for help.
"Come have a seat Remus," Mrs. Potter said gently as she took Remus by the elbow and helped him sit down in her seat. "Come dear let's leave the children to sort things out." Nodding, Mr. Potter followed his wife out of the kitchen, abandoning their dinner.
Still perplexed James wasn't sure what to make of things. It wasn't until he saw the note crumpled in Remus' hand that he knew something must have happened. Gently he pried the note from the still sobbing werewolf and read it for himself.
"Sirius wrote this?" James asked disbelievingly.
Looking up, Remus nodded. Sniffling, the hurt teen wiped the tears away from his face. It took him another minute to fully compose himself, and then he was able to talk more normal.
"There's gotta be something wrong James. There just has to be. I only got one other letter from him and it was just as strange," Remus said miserably.
"Don't worry Remy. We'll figure this out," James assured him, though he wasn't quite sure at all himself. "Just you wait."
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Sirius stumbled onto the Hogwarts Express. He had spent the rest of his holidays in a drug induced stupor, and was still quite high. At first he hadn't been sure about what Bellatrix had given him, thinking that maybe it was a trick of hers, but when he took the drugs and they did everything he had thought they would he spent the majority of his time with Bellatrix. She opened him to an entirely new world, showing him all the different rushes he could get. Although she herself only took the more minor ones every once in awhile, Sirius decided to try an all out array of them.
He soon found out that he could get a quicker high by taking the drugs with some Firewhiskey. In his drug and alcohol induced states things at home didn't seem so bad. Actually things seemed quite pleasant, even when his mother was screeching in his ear. Tuning her out was as easy as popping a pill, but now he was going back to school and to his Remy. He had thought constantly about his boyfriend, and now after two weeks he could see him.
Sirius headed to the back compartment the Marauders claimed, and grinned when he caught sight of his friends. Before any of them could greet him Sirius marched right over to Remus and kissed him. Deepening the kiss Sirius tried pushing Remus back onto the seats, but Remus pushed him away.
"Hiya Moony!" He greeted, completely unfazed by the rejection of his advances.
Remus, surprised by Sirius' actions and the odd glazed look he found in his boyfriends' eyes didn't say anything. He merely straightened his robes and stared at Sirius.
"Where ya been mate?" James asked taking the attention away from an obviously uncomfortable Remus.
"Oh just hangin' out with my good cuz Bellatrix," Sirius said not knowing just how absurd that would sound to his friends, who's mouths had dropped in shock.
"Bellatrix? You're cousin Bellatrix?" Peter asked, disbelief written all over his face.
"The one and only," Sirius replied, nodding.
"But you hate her," Remus blurted out.
"Nah... She's alright," Sirius said dismissing the notion.
"So..." James began, not quite sure what to make of the situation. "So everything's okay at home?"
"Fine and dandy Prongs m'boy!" Sirius assured him as he reclined in his seat, propping his feet on the seat across from him between Peter and James.
Sirius was definitely acting strange, but maybe things really were okay at home and that's why he spent that time with them. Remus couldn't quite imagine how that could be, especially when it consists of Sirius and Bellatrix getting along, but he was willing to give his boyfriend the benefit of the doubt. He did seem much happier after all.
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TBC...
