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A/N: Sorry yet again about the long wait for the update but my computer crashed so I had to get a new computer. Hopefully my computer will no longer give me anymore grievances... at least for awhile LoL Enjoy!

The-mpreg-spirit: life sux eh? I must agree!!! And I'm sure Remus and Sirius will agree w/ you as well!! Hopefully this will help distract u from life at least for a little while.

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Starlollie: Yes Bellatrix is the sort to ruin peoples lives ne?

Magus Durron: I'm quite the sucker for angst too... so I hope you enjoy all the angst to come!

ThisLonelyPlace: Here's another 'oh my god' for you ;)

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If You're Not The One

Chapter Eight: When Dungbombs Hit the Fan


That first week back was definitely not what Remus expected. Every chance Sirius got he would go see his cousin Bellatrix for hours. When he would return late in the night he'd crawl into Remus' bed and try to make advances that were most unwelcome by the werewolf. Once Sirius got the hint that Remus wasn't interested, which took longer than usual, he would cease and just cuddled up to him. Then out of no where Sirius would start crying, but wouldn't say a word when Remus would ask what was wrong. He would just cry until he fell asleep.

The second week back was just as unexpected. Sirius was behind in his homework so Remus would help him after dinner which meant Sirius couldn't go hang out with his cousin. Which also in turn made him very moody. Nearing the end of the week Remus was trying to explain how the Conjunctivitis Charm worked, a spell which injures the eyes of its victims, when Sirius flipped the table and all its contents with a scream of rage. Never having seen Sirius so angry, especially for no apparent reason, Remus instinctively inched away from his boyfriend.

Sirius was still towering with rage when he turned and saw his boyfriend, eyes wide with fright. Immediately he simmered down and reached out to the trembling werewolf.

"Sorry Remy, didn't mean to lose my cool," Sirius apologized pulling Remus into a loving embrace.

"You've been scaring me a lot lately," Remus admitted quietly as he rested his head on Sirius' shoulder.

"Don't worry Remy, things'll get better," Sirius promised.

Things didn't get any better, they got progressively worse in fact. Sirius' grades began slipping, he got into trouble for everything but pranking, he even began to miss Remus' transformations. It wasn't until Gryffindor beat Slytherin for the Quidditch Cup that the three worried Marauders got an insight into what was happening with their fourth member.

It had been a beautiful day. The weather was warm and pleasant making for perfect conditions for Quidditch. James easily caught the snitch, winning the game for Gryffindor. An after party broke out in the Gryffindor common room, and well underway when James was finally able to break free of his fans and able to go find his friends. He found Peter, Remus, and Lily sitting near the fire but none of them knew where Sirius was.

It wasn't until the four of them heard Sirius' bark like laughter that they knew he was even there. They all craned their necks to try and find out where the renegade Marauder was. James spotted him first over in a corner with a bunch of other Gryffindors. Peter, James, Remus and Lily got up from their spot and headed over to Sirius.

Slowly they made their way across the room to Sirius, who passed on a bottle of Firewhiskey that the group of Gryffindors seemed to be passing around. As they got even closer to the secluded group Remus noticed that that wasn't the only thing they were passing around.

"Drugs?!?" Remus shouted when they managed to get close enough, making the group jump in surprise. "All this time you've been drinking and doing drugs?!?"

"Calm down Remy," Sirius said coolly as he passed on the joint he had just taken a hit from. There was no stopping Remus' anger however.

"All this time I thought something was wrong with you and now I find out its your own stupidity! Of all things Sirius. Drugs?" As Remus yelled at him, Sirius' mellow mood turned into anger.

"How could you do this to yourself?" Remus asked lowering his voice. "How could you do this to me?"

"To you? Its my life!" Sirius spat.

"I thought I was a part of it," Remus whispered before turning and walking away, with Lily and Peter trailing behind him.

"We could have helped you, you know," James said, a pained expression on his face. "We are your friends you know."

Sirius didn't have any time to reply to that before James melted into the crowd, and he was left with a jumble of thoughts he couldn't understand. Instead of trying to sort them out he took the joint he was offered from one of the seventh year girls who was hanging off him in her drug induced state. He didn't even shake her off when she began to make advances on him, pressing up against him and kissing his neck. Sirius merely drank off the rest of his Firewhiskey.


It took Lily's and James' combined efforts to calm down the enraged werewolf. He just couldn't believe all these months Sirius had been on drugs. How could he have missed the signs? How could he have not have known? He had definitely reacted badly. He shouldn't have blown up like that. He should have been more supportive of Sirius, and tried to help him instead of yelling at him. How could he have been so insensitive?

"I messed up didn't I?" Remus asked finally, cutting off Lily's reassurances.

"Nah, I'm sure the git understands," James said half smiling.

"Why don't you go talk to him?" Lily suggested.

"Yeah. I think I will," Remus said getting up to go in search of Sirius.

Not being able to find Sirius at the party Remus thought Sirius had gone to bed so he headed for their dormitory. He heard muffled sounds coming from their dorm but thought it was Sirius' snoring since he always did have a loud snore. Opening the door it took him only a minute for his eyes to adjust to the dark, and was immediately greeted with the sight of Sirius having sex with some girl. Instantly, Remus slammed the door shut and bolted down the stairs.

"Re-?" James began to ask when he saw Remus running towards him, but didn't get to finish when his friend ran right passed him and out the portrait hole.


TBC...