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perfect-feline: Is he ever!!!!

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If You're Not The One

Chapter Fourteen: Forgiving

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Sirius pushed his hair behind his ear as he paced up and down their dormitory. He was more nervous than he had ever been in his life. He didn't know what to think or what to say.

"Calm down Padfoot you'll put a groove in the floor," James commented as he watched his nerve racked friend pace.

"I can't help it. Moony's finally agreed to talk to me after a month of trying," Sirius said trying to get his thoughts straight, though all attempts seemed to be hopeless.

"It'll be fine don't worry," James tried to assure him, running a dungbomb over his knuckles.

"You don't understand," Sirius hissed. "This is my last chance to get him to forgive me. My last chance to get him back James. I can't screw this up."

Before James could respond a timid Remus Lupin walked into the room. He nodded at his friends, but kept his eyes on the floor and chewing on his lower lip, obviously nervous. James squeezed Sirius' shoulder for luck and left the two to make up.

"Look Remus..." Sirius began, diving into the deep end without looking back. "I'm really sorry."

"I know..." Remus replied quietly, not looking at Sirius.

"Things just got crazy at home, and I should've known better than to take anything from that ruddy Bellatrix," Sirius said running his hands through his hair, a habit he acquired when ever he was frustrated. "I knew what I was getting into and I didn't want to stop myself."

"James said you were clean," Remus said wanting to hear it for himself.

"I am. Remus I really am."

At the pure sincerity in his voice the werewolf glanced at Sirius and instantly began to get weak in the knees. He continued to fight the feelings that were burning inside him to get out, and forced himself to look away from the one he loved.

"Why didn't you tell me about what was going on at home?" Remus inquired, trying to understand what drove Sirius to such desperation.

"I don't know... I guess I didn't want to burden anyone with my problems. They didn't seem to be important-"

"You're feelings and well-being were always important to me Sirius. You should have known that." Remus interjected. "I would have helped you." Sirius nodded, forcing himself to conceal a smile. Remus was always so supportive.

"I let myself do it but I'm not addicted anymore. I swear."

Remus hardened himself against the pleading in Sirius voice. He couldn't let himself give in so easily. He wouldn't let himself put his heart on the line so easily. Not again.

"And the girl?" Remus said broaching the subject most sensitive to him.

"It didn't mean anything. It was a mistake. She was a mistake."

"Maybe I was the mistake," Remus said, anger seeping into his voice.

"No!" Sirius exclaimed closing the distance between them, and holding his shoulders so the werewolf had to look at him. "Don't ever think that Remus! You were the best thing that ever happened to me!"

"No I wasn't!" Remus shouted, pulling away from Sirius' touch not wanting him to see the tears glistening in his eyes. "If I was you would have let me help you! You wouldn't have cheated on me! You wouldn't have broke my heart!"

"I didn't mean to hurt you Moony..." Sirius replied softly.

"Well you did! You tore out my heart and stomped on it. I bet you had a bloody good time doing it too."

"That was low Remy," Sirius said, hurt and offended by the comment. "You know I cared about you."

"Then why'd you do it Sirius? Tell me cause I'd really like to know."

"I-I don't know why I did it. I guess..." Sirius said his voice trailing off helplessly.

"Wasn't I good enough for you?" the werewolf whispered, tears starting to stream down his cheeks.

Sirius bit back a sob. He absolutely hated it when Remus cried, especially when he was the cause of it. The sight always broke his heart. Without another thought he reached out to Remus again and pulled him into a hug.

"I know I fucked up Remy. I fucked up bad," Sirius whispered into his ear when the crying teen didn't pull away. "And I know sorry isn't good enough but I want to be with you again. I want to show you how much I really do care about you Remus."

"I don't know Siri..." Remus whimpered, all his feelings conflicting inside himself. Everything inside him wanted to fully breakdown. He wanted to forgive Sirius and be a happy couple again, but the other half of him told him it was a bad decision.

"Please... can't you find it in your heart to forgive me?" Sirius pleaded.

"I can forgive you for what you've done Siri... I just don't know if I can trust you again," Remus said pulling away from Sirius again.

"Give me another chance Remy. I'll prove to you that I'm worth it. I promise."

"Maybe we're just not made for each other," Remus said quietly, turning to leave the room.

Sirius stood dumbfounded as he watched Remus begin to walk away. He couldn't let things end like this. He couldn't lose Remus again. He wouldn't lose Remus again! So he said what was in his heart.

"Wh-what?" Remus stammered as he paused in the doorway, not sure he had heard his friend correctly.

"If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?" Sirius stated with all the sincerity he possessed.

"Do-do you really mean that?" Remus asked.

When he saw Sirius nod everything inside Remus melted and he crossed the room, threw his arms around the stormy eyed teen and kissed him with everything he had.

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TBC...